Before I continue from my entry dated 23 August 2007, I would like to mention this: I had just finished eating DURIANS.. As I was eating them, I was thinking if I could offer a packet of durian or two as a token of apology from me, although my apology has been accepted.. Hmm... How? Should I? Skg ni pun musim durian... Erm... *thinking*

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In furtherance to my entry dated 23 August, I spoke to the I.O and I was allowed to make a statement in any police station after office hours. Phew! There is no need for me to go down to Police Cantonment Complex, which is near to HPB.. *tongue lashing* (I do not need to take leave for this case - However for the second one, I have too. Sighz)

Before I continue, I wish to say something. I know there are already pple reading my blog and maybe their reaction to my latest entry will be, "SO STUPID" etc etc.. "Take advantage of grandmum's $$" ETC etc..

I have my intention for replying that unsolicited email! Only my best friends, Ainn and Faridah know that life IS TOUGH and HARD for me and my grandmum. If you can remember my email to Faridah which I posted in my blog on (please click the link- 19 June 2007) 19 June 2007? My step dad still does the same. Didnt talk to my grandma! U know.. as what the malays say, "SOMBONG?" Coincidently when I typed "sombong", Taufik's song, "Sombong" is currently playing in my laptop now. Wheeee!!!

Because of this, my grandma was very depressed. She always said. "Kalau lah kita dpt rumah, kita pindah dari sini, tinggal kan dia.. Tak hairan lah rumah dia.. Bukannyer kondo" (I have no mood to translate this to English, so to non-malays out there, please pardon me). She actually wanted to use her 5 fig amount that my late grandfather left for her to get a house however, she feared that we do not have enough to expense ourselves, so she aborted the idea.

When she planned all that, I told myself too that if only I won a 4D out there (which is impossible because Muslims cannot play 4D or Toto unless due to desperation - I know of some muslim pple who bet on 4Ds and Totos due to desperation), I would buy a house and stay together with my grandma and she can be happy.

Thats why sometimes I was been pressurized by her. My grandma's perception is, "Being a secretary, pple will look up on you.. Gaji pun besar etc etc." However, although I worked in a law firm, I am only a clerk. There were a few secretaries who left but other clerks (who worked longer than me - of coz la they worked longer than me, should give priority to them first), were been promoted to secretaries. My grandma was very upset as she wanted ME. Its impossible! Besides, with such office politics like what I have been enduring for the past 1 yr 5 mths, it will be more WORST should I promoted to secretary!

Anyway, back to the main entry. Because of my grandmother, I replied to that email. I thought it is "true" and if it is "true", MY GRANDMOTHER AND I WILL BE THE MOST HAPPIEST GRANDMOTHER AND GRANDDAUGHTER IN THE WORLD! How would I know we would be conned?

Case No. 2: I received an uninvited email. It was in my Inbox and NOT in my Junk Mail. I opened it. The contents of the email stated that this "person" was from this 'bank' in a foreign country. The "person" wrote in the email that a 'foreign customer along with family members' was killed in a plane crash and the "person" even gave the URL of the plane crash. The "person" proposed some kind of dealings with me. The "person" wants me to be the next of kin to that 'foreign customer' in order to claim the 'more than 10.8 million in US currency'. (How do they came up with such a wonderful figure!) The "person" assured me that is is a safe and legal process.

I did not believe it but to ensure that the "person" did not bother me again, I replied to that email, "Please go find another victim. I am not interested." Yeah..That's what I replied. I mentioned the word, "victim". Guess what?

I was gorked (shocked - for thos who were wondering what the hell is the term, gork) with his reply! I dun thInk that "person" comprehend my email to him. He shoot an email asking me to APPLY TO THE "BANK". That was why I startled! Didnt he understand that reply?! That "person" stated in the email that I sounded very trustworthy so the "person" told me in email (haha stupid - its in black & white) that all this is true (not a scam or not a fraud was NOT mention in that reply) and rest assured it is legal and can 'celebrate' after getting that amount! How ludicrous! I shoot another email asking for that "person" to stop sending me emails.

I feared that it is illegal to pretend to be a next of kin of someone rich. And it is impossible that that rich person did not have any other relatives who can claim to be the next kin, why to the extent of looking for a stranger or foreigner as the inheritance?!?? I ignore the email, couldnt be bothered! I have lots things to think of.

P/S: The UK Lottery email and this email happened at the same time! Oh bother! My grandmum and mum had lost $$ due to the lottery scam and I am not going to let it happen again!

Then things got worse! Even more ridiculous! I didnt even apply to the "bank" but I received an email from the "bank" informing me that my 'application as the next of kin of this foreign deceased customer' has been approved?!! I was amazed! I did not even apply to the "bank", then how does the "bank" knows my email address?! and my 'application approved'?!!

The "bank" wrote in the email that I have to produce 3 certificates to 'back up my claims'. How kooky! Do u know whether the 3 certificates exist? HOW THE HELL DO I KNOW?! ALL I KNOW WAS IN THAT EMAIL, the "bank" stated that I have to pay a 5 figure amt in Euro currency! The "bank" even 'recommend' me this "lawyer" who can get the 'certificates' for me. *eyes rolling* Again, I ignore that senseless email and I DID NOT EVEN WRITE TO the "lawyer" and most importantly, I DID NOT MAKE ANY PAYMENT! Whatever for?!

I thought the "person" did not wish to email me anymore.. To think he still did and I was really shock this time! He paid for the cost of the certificates?! Why would someone I do not know paid for me?! Here is what he said in the email, "I have gone all this far to make the payment for you. However, I cannot make the whole payment for you so there is a balance of (4 figure amt) Euro and I hope you do not fail to pay that remainder."

HOW BLOODY SICKENING! If he is that nice, he would just PAY ALL FOR ME. But why must have the remainder?! FOR ME TO PAY?! NO WAY.. And that 4 figure amt in Euro currency, converted to Singapore currency is 1 Euro dollar equivalent to 2.2 Singapore dollar! NO WAY. I ignore the email as per usual!

I was horrified with the email from the "lawyer"! The "lawyer" informed me via email that he will 'process' my 'application' without the remainder. The "lawyer" will ask for the 'payment' of the 'remainder AFTER I declared millionaire'! *YEAH RITE!* The email further read that the "lawyer" had 'sent' those 'certificates' to the "bank" and I will soon hear from the "bank".

I have no idea how the "lawyer" can come up with such certificates! There is a 'signature' to it and some 'organizations'. I noted down all the organization names for further investigations of my own - Search in google or yahoo whether such organizations exist..

True enuff, I did get an email from the "bank" and the "bank" told me that in order to process with the 'remittance' I have to make 'payment of another 5 figure amt but this time is half of the previous amount' in Euro currency because the "bank" claimed that to 'transfer a BIG amount is a HUGE risk.' What rubbish!! How sluggish can they be?! Do they really think I am money faced and fall for that and in order to get the 'million amount in US currency'... I have to make payment?! Bunch of morons! (wait! the "bank" wrote 'remittance'.... if the "bank" wants to 'remit' the money, the "bank" must have a bank swift code and my account number.. HOWEVER, I HAVE NOT BEEN REPLYING TO THEIR EMAILS, so what 'remittance' are they talking about?!)

Again, I did not make any payment. I ignore that email and I did not even reply. I cannot shoot them email asking them to stop. I know it was my mistke at first. When the "person" send me that email, I should have just deleted it from my inbox and not to shoot him a reply, even though I stated that I WAS NOT INTERESTED in the reply. To them, once you replied, you are already their victim!

The "person" send me email to inform me that he has make payment for me! Oh really?! Why would he? However as usual, there was a balance but a 3 figure amount in Euro currency. As expected, I was asked to make the payment of the balance. Hey, I do not make the payment, although it is 3 figure which is affordable but NO WAY!!

Like what I have expected, the "bank" send me an email saying that they will go ahead with the 'remittance' and once I am 'known as a millionaire', do not forget to make the payment of the balances. AS IF!

I know I shouldnt have drag this for so long. I would have reported this straight away but because of an email after the 'confirmation of remittance' from the "bank", I received the most horrifying email of all. The intimidating email was from the "monetary agency" telling me that the 'remittance' for the amount of more than 11.8 million US currency will be on 'hold'. (wait a min! all these while, those emails from the "person", "lawyer" and "bank" stated the amount to be is more than 10.8 million US currency, why now become more than 11.8 million?! Something is amiss!)

The contents of that alarming email frightened me. That was why I lodged a police report via online. The "monetary agency" said in the email that if I did not clear the payment of the balance and also in order to 'continue' with the 'remittance' I would have to produce 2 certificates: Drug Law Clearannce Certificate and Anti-Terrorist certificate! (WHAT KIND OF CERTIFICATES ARE THEY?). The email further reads, "Failure to make the balance payment and produce those certificates, we will arrest you."

YEAH.. Because of the word, 'arrest' I lodged a report. I dont care whether it is true or not true. I can tell the police, I have not been replying to their emails but they were the ones bothering me with emails after emails. I kept all the emails and even printed them out. BLACK and WHITE. They were such dummies.. They even include an address and a number which I do not whether the number can be connected. A friend of mine adviced me to lodge a report and who knows police authorities here can liase with the police authorities in that country. Well, even if the police liase with one another, the petpetrators (did I spell that right?) had run away...and find another victim.

So, because of this 2nd case, I have no choice but to go to Police Cantoment Complex located very near to Outram Park MRT and of course, HEALTH PROMOTION BOARD to make a statement and that would mean I have to apply for either a half day leave or a full day leave. Sighz...

P/S: I am still in wander.. How do "they" want to 'arrest' me if they did not know which country I came from and where I lived? But just to protect myself, I lodged a report anyway, "they" might be hackers.. .. .. .. Also, I withdraw ALL my money from my POSB Savings account just to be save. Yes, I will make another bank account soon (NOT POSB/DBS - maybe OCBC or HSBC or UOB/OUB) So, everytime my salary has been credited to my POSB account, I can withdraw all of it and deposit it to another bank. Safer. Well, just to be SAFE..

NOTE: Both my grandmum and my mum do not know about this. I do not want them to worry.

Amyria pours her heart out @ 3:38 pm   |

Ingin cepat kaya? Haha.. Is there such a scheme? Well, its not a scheme. Its a scam.

I regret to announce this in my blog but I am a victim of scam, or should I say fraud! Not only me, my grandmum and my mum as well because their $$ are involve for this hence they are victims too.

There are 2 cases. But I will the first one today.

Case No. 1: I received an email which the subject reads, "PROMO". Well, that particular email was not in my junk email but in my inbox. And being very curious in wanting to know what was "PROMO" about, I opened it.

I was awed with the contents of the email! The contents of the email stated that "I WON ONE MILLION UK POUND STERLINGS"? I do not know what was happening to me that day! Maybe due to lots of thinking regarding domestic affairs at home that I can't even think that the email was fake. All I can remember was, "Woah.. If only its true, my mum can have early retirement, I can buy a private apartment (because I cannot buy HDB apartment if I am below 30 unless I'm married) and stay together with my grandmother, etc.."

What did I do? Before I replied, I told this to my mum. She too was blowed by this and she asked me to reply to the email straight away. My stepfather and step siblings kept quiet not wanting to comment. My grandmum on the other hand, sangsi, ragu-ragu, doubtful about this.

After I sent the reply asking, "Is this for real?" I got their reply. Well, it wasnt really a reply because the contents of the email did not state if it is for real. The contents only asking me to choose 2 options to get "my winnings". Choice no 1 by courier or choice no 2, banking.

I discussed this with my mum and she called Pak Ngah and wife (Mak Long was unreachable at that time) and relate them regarding this. The next day they came over to read the email and told me that they sound so "truthful". Might be true. So, did I reply? Yes I did. With all the personal details like home addresses etc. Well, my mum gave me the permission.

I received an email from the courier service (because I also stated that I opted for courier option instead of banking option) telling me the courier charges and they also mentioned, "Your prize winnings should not be deducted for the cost of courier. It should be borne by you." My mum read the email and she said, "Of coz lah, we ask to deliver it what so we pay first."

There were 3 charges to choose from. I chose the chepest and it was 380 UK Pound Sterlings (equivalent to SGD $1200). Although the email was sent to me, I will hold the responsibility in all the transactions. However, because I do not have that much cash, my mum told me that my grandmum and my mum will help me. I felt guilty. I do not wish to burden them especially when it comes to financial issues.

But my mum sumhow gave me the assurance and the confidence that this thing is for real so I agreed to withdraw $1200 from my grandmum's account for the payment of the courier. Received confirmation from the courier service and they stated that they will commence delivery the next day.

The next day, I was overcomed by another email from a so-called "INLAND REVENUE". That email informed me that my "winnings" was been intercepted and in order to commence the delivery, I have to pay a tax as I was not a resident of UK (of coz I'm not!). The tax is 1 % of 1 million uk pound sterlings which is 1 thousand uk pound sterlings (equivalent to SGD $3300!).

The amount is getting bigger! I was hesitant to make the payment. However, my mum after reading that email (I showed all the emails correspondence to her - I even printed it out JUST IN CASE) sumhow was confident that after the payment of the tax fee, we can get the "winnings". She urged me to make the payment but half of $3300 is from my mum and the other half is from my grandmum. Again, I really felt guilty. :( In order not to disappoint my mum, without delay, I went to make the payment.

Received an email from the courier telling me that "my winnings have been released" to the courier. However, further to that email, in order not to be interrupted by any checkings again, I need to produce UN document. They have already processed the UN document without even asking me? And guess what?!

I was electrified when I read further. The cost of UN document is 4 000 (thousand) UK Pounds sterling! (equivalent to SGD $12500!) Now that is already overboard! Where to get that much money?! My mum and I do not have that much cash! My grandmum.. Yes.. She has. BUT NO WAY WAS I GOING TO USE HER $$ ANYMORE! No, not because I have known I was conned but I found it risky! A big amount to gamble!

My mum had realized that all I was been conned. I know but I did not lose anything. MY GRANDMUM and MY MUM! THEIR $$! What did I do? I really wanna lodge a report on this. However both my grandmum and mum told me not to.. Nasi dah menjadi bubur.

So did I really make a report? Well, since they got my number, they called! I wasnt expecting their call! Wanna know what they ask? "Have u make the payment for the UN document?" I was displeased by that and I answered, "NO" and hunged up.

What was my next move? I wrote an email to the UK High Commision here in Singapore (The UK Embassy) asking for their assistance in this. They reverted to me and to my dismay, they were not been able to trace the organizations! Meaning, the organization did not exist!

In furtherance to the email replied from UK Embassy, they advise me to call (Consumers Affairs Department) CAD directly to seek their help as they believe CAD have dealings with such enquiries and also have clarified with police authorities in the UK.

What did I do? I did lodge the report. The I.O (investigating officer) had called me and asked me to come down to Police Cantoment Complex (which, I believe VERY NEAR to HEALTH PROMOTION BOARD!) to provide a statement. Well, I dun mind but the problem is, I have to come down to provide a statement for them during office hours! Oh dear! How? I'm left with 4 days of leave and I reserve it for my studies as this Oct, I will be taking one last and final module: Business Finance and that is not an easy subject. So I need the leave to study attentively for that module! So how?

Thinking of going during lunch time but I feared that wont be enough as I.O may have other tasks to clear before coming to me. Now I do not what to do. I have to go there twice and I have to see two different I.Os because they are handling the cases separately.

What was the other case? Well, sum sort similar to this. However, I did not get my mum and my grandmum involved in this. It is all by me however because I did not want to produce "I DO NOT KNOW WHETHER SUCH CERTIFICATES EXIST!" they want to "arrest" me! Yeah! They threatened to "arrest" me. So, I have to lodge a report to protect myself even if the "arrest" is not true.

Will continue with the case no 2 some other day. Now the time is 12.45 am in the morning. I need to get some sleep. Good nite..

Amyria pours her heart out @ 12:19 am   |

This entry will be in CAP LOCKS because while I wrote this I was feeling purple in rage! so with CAP LOCKS, will explain HOW ANGRY I WAS!!!

I REALLY WANNA RESIGN! THE SOONER THE BETTER! I HAVE ENUFF! DAH BAGUS TAU I DIDNT BLOW MY TOP! IF I WERE TO DO THAT, DONALDSON SHOULD HAVE GIVEN ME A 24 HR TERMINATION NOTICE LONG AGO! YEAH! I THINK ITS BEST FOR ME TO BLOW MY TOP THE NEXT TIME, SO THAT DONALDSON CAN TERMINATE ME.. AND I WILL BE GONE FROM DONALDSON! THE SOONER THE BETTER! !!!

WHATS WRONG WITH THESE PPLE?! THEY HAVE BEEN WORKING IN DONALDSON LONGER THAN I DO, I AM SURE THEY SHOULD KNOW THE POLICY! THE POLICY IS.. DONALDSON WILL ONLY GIVE INCREMENT TO STAFFS AFTER THEIR FIRST YEAR. FOR THE NEXT YEAR OR FOLLOWING YEARS, IT WILL DEPENDS ON THEIR WORK PERFORMANCE.

I JOINED DONALDSON ON 17 MARCH 2006. TODAY, I HAVE SERVE DONALDSON FOR ONE YEAR FIVE MTHS AND THREE DAYS. 17 MARCH 2007, MARKED MY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY IN DONALDSON. I SHOULD BE GETTING AN INCREMENT IN THAT MONTH OR IN THE NEXT MONTH. I DIDNT. I GOT AN INCREMENT ONLY IN JUNE. (W.E.F 1 JUNE 2007). Reason: The management wants to give increment in the mid of 2007. Fine.

SO.. WITH AN INCREMENT OF $50, MY SALARY AS I HAVE MENTIONED HERE IN MY BLOG: $1650. WHAT CAN I SAY? ALHAMDULILAH. SYUKUR. $50 or $100 or whatever is the amount, its all blessings by Allah S.W.T. I KNOW ITS NOT MUCH BUT STILL ALHAMDULILAH. JGN TAMAK. TUHAN TIDAK SUKA PADA ORG YG TAMAK.

NEWS OF NOT ONLY ME BUT A FEW OTHER PPLE WHO GETS THE INCREMENT HAS REACHED TO THE EARS OF THOSE WHO DO GET INCREMENT BUT NOT MUCH AND THOSE WHO DO NOT GET INCREMENT AT ALL. (Management has to be fair! Have to give increment to all the staffs to avoid disputes!)

AND GUESS WHAT? NOT HAPPY LAH THEY ALL! I HAVE HEAR SO MANY "STORIES" ABOUT ME THAT CAN MAKE ME ALMOST BROKE DOWN TO TEARS! BUT I STAY FIRM AND WOULD WANT TO BLOW MY TOP BUT MY FRIENDS HAVE ALWAYS ADVISE ME AND COUNSEL ME WITH, "SABAR MARIA.. SABAR.. KITA ORG ISLAM HARUS BERSABAR."

I KNOW THAT! BUT LET ME ASK YOU THIS, "IF ISLAM AJAR KITA SURUH BERSABAR, TAKKAN ISLAM TAK AJAR KITA JGN BACKSTAB ORG! SO IF DIA BACKSTAB ORG..TANDANYA DIA PEDULI APALAH DIA ISLAM KE TAK? SO WHY CANT I DO THE SAME TOO?! BLOW MY TOP ETC TANPA MEMPEDULIKAN I AM ISLAM OR NOT!"

AKU YG TAK BERTUDUNG LEBIH TAU APA TU DOSA DAN PAHALA DARI YG BERTUDUNG! BUAT APER BERTUDUNG IF MULUT TU BUKAN MAIN LAZERNYER!!!! IF MULUT TU NAK BERLAZER, LEBIH BAIK BUKA SAJA TUDUNG TU TAK PAYAH BERTUDUNG.. JGN NAK EKSYEN ALIM!

YES I AM TALKING ABT BACKSTABBING AND I AM VERY ASHAMED TO SAY THAT ORG KITA SENDIRI YG BACKSTAB BANGSA SENDIRI! U GET WHAT I MEAN? MELAYU ISLAM LAH! NORMAL BACKSTABBING IS FINE, TAPI KALAU BACKSTAB SAMPAI TERJEJAS PERIUK NASI ORG >> TOO MUCH! OK.. TOO MUCH!

THEY ARE TESTING MY PATIENCE! BUT THEY ARE LUCKY THAT I DID NOT BLOW MY TOP! IF I WERE TO DO THAT, MY SERVICES WILL BE TERMINATE AND U KNOW THESE DAYS VERY HARD TO GET A JOB! MY GRANDMOTHER WILL BE UNHAPPY.. SO BECAUSE OF MY GRANDMOTHER, I DO NOT WISH TO BLOW UP THE MATTER.

FIRST STORY: I HEARD WAS ABT ME TENDERING! W.T.F! I HEARD THAT STORY A DAY AFTER I RECEIVED NEWS THAT I GOT $50 INCREMENT. BEFORE I RELATE THE SECOND STORY, LET ME TELL YOU THE POLICY OF DONALDSON. EVERYONE WHO HAS WORK IN DONALDSON SHOULD HAVE KNOWN THAT DONALDSON WILL GIVE INCREMENT TO STAFFS WHO HAVE COMPLETED FIRST YEAR. For staffs who has worked in Donaldson for more than 2 yrs do not get increment until they have served 5 or 6 yrs in Donaldson! Thats what I heard. I do not know if what I heard is rumours. But that's what I heard.

THEY STUPID OR WHAT? THEY FORGOT THE POLICY ISIT?! I HAVE SERVED ONE YR AND A FEW MTHS IN DONALDSON THATS WHY I GOT THAT INCREMENT!! IF I DIDNT GET INCREMENT EVEN AFTER I SERVED MY FIRST YR, DUN U THINK THAT'S RIDICULOUS?! THE SECOND STORY I HEARD: "HOW CAN MBS GET INCREMENT?! LAST TIME SHE DO 2 PORTFOLIOS! (I did blog abt me couldnt cope with 2 portfolios, now I am concentrating with 1 portfolio) NOW SHE DO ONLY 1. IF OTHER LAW FIRMS AH.. HER SALARY KENA CUT ALREADY! BUT WHY SHE STILL GET INCREMENT?! NOT FAIR LAH LIKE THAT! FROM 2 PORTFOLIO REDUCE TO 1 AND YET GOT INCREMENT! SHE DOESNT DESERVE TO GET INCREMENT! HER SALARY VERY HIGH ALREADY"

WHAT THE FCUK! WHO THE FCUKING HELL DO U THINK U ARE SAYING, "I DUN DESERVE AN INCREMENT?! ARE U TBH?! ATBL! LST?!" ONLY LAWYERS HAVE THE FINAL SAY IN THIS MATTER! I DIDNT ASK FOR INCREMENT! & I ALSO DIDNT ASK FOR ELK (he has resigned) TO TAKE AWAY 1 PORTFOLIO AWAY FROM ME. AND $1600 SALARY THEY THINK IS HIGH?! I DUN FIND MY SALARY "VERY HIGH"! IF MY SALARY IS $2000 AND ABOVE, I CAN UNDERSTAND LAH BUT ITS ONLY $1600 AND THEY SAY "HIGH"? *eyes rolling*

THE THIRD STORY: (Name of lawyers) SO STUPID AH.. THEY THEMSELVES KNOW MBS ALWAYS MAKES MISTAKES AND YET THEY GIVE HER INCREMENT! (Yes, I still do make mistakes - We are humans! Bound to make mistakes! Lawyers did approached me saying that my typing speed is indeed fast but not that accurate because I have typo errors. Fine. I will work on that. I know I still make the same mistakes - typo errors. If I noticed the mistakes, I'll reprint. If I didnt because of too much work, I may have overlooked, I didnt reprint the letter so of coz lawyers spotted the mistakes)

LET ME TELL U (IF U HAPPEN TO READ THIS!). ONE OF LAWYERS CAME TO SEE ME AND SAID TO ME THAT I HAVE BEEN PERFORMING VERY WELL. I CAN CONCENTRATE MORE AND I CAN CLEAR MOST OF MY BACKLOGS EVER SINCE ELK TOOK AWAY 1 PORTFOLIO FROM ME. I SMILED TO MYSELF BECAUSE KERJA AKU DIHARGAI.

HOWEVER, HE MENTIONED THAT I CAN GET MORE INCREMENT, HE DID STATE THE AMOUNT BUT TO AVOID ANY DISCREPANCIES (in case they happen to read this, I do not wish to state the actual amount here) INSTEAD OF $50 BUT BECAUSE I HAVE TYPO ERRORS IN MY LETTERS DURING THOSE 1 YR OF WORK PERFORMANCE, THEY HAVE TO SETTLE FOR $50.

THIS IS WHAT I REPLIED, "Its Ok. I appreciate it still. Well, low or high increment, it does not matter to me. I am not that money face. I find my salary is already reasonable enough for a DIPLOMA holder. Even after this increment, my salary is still within the market salary for a diploma graduate." He nodded.

FOURTH STORY..

Well, pple in my dept knows that staffs who do patents should get MORE AND HIGHER salary than staffs who do trade marks.. Because it is not easy to do patents.. Patent is an invention of something whereas trade marks is a logo, design, mark, brand for your product or company. How difficult is patents? Well, if you have friends who work in law firm, ask them, I'm sure they can answer you.

SO THE FOURTH STORY:-

"NOT FAIR U KNW! ZJ DO PATENT. KR ALSO DO PATENT. MBS DOES NOT DO PATENT. BUT HER SALARY MORE THAN ZJ AND KR! HOW CAN! IF ZJ AND KR GOT HIGHER SALARY THAN US, WE UNDERSTAND LAH ITS STANDARD.. PATENT VERY HARD SO SHLD GIVE MORE PAY. BUT MBS ONLY DO HER STUPID GAZETTES! AND THOSE GAZETTES ARE TRADE MARKS GAZETTES! THEN HER SALARY IS $1650 ... (Yes, they know my salary because the HR/Payroll dept also not happy that I get that high salary compared to most of the pple in Donaldson so she voiced out her unhappiness! How do I know about this? Do not forget, B and J are still working in Donaldson and they are in accounts dept.. Accounts, HR/Payroll dept are just next to each other. News reached them, they informed me)

...ZJ DO PATENT AND MIND YOU SHE IS A SECRETARY TO A PATENT PARALEGAL AND HER SALARY HAS NOT EVEN TOUCHED $1600. KR WHO HAS THE EXPERIENCE FROM D & N and his designation is PATENT EXECUTIVE, his sal HAS NOT TOUCHED $1500. THEN SHE DO ONLY TRADE MARKS SAME AS US ONLY A CLERK NOT EVEN AN EXECUTIVE, GET MORE THAN US/THEM?! (thats because ZJ joined Donaldson in November 2006! and KR just joined Donaldson this year in March! If they have served their first yr, I am affirmative that both ZJ and KR will get an increment and after that increment, will definitely be more than my sal - WHY CANT THEY JUST THINK NATURALLY AND RATIONALLY?! FIKIR LAH DULU SEBELUM MAIN HEMBUS JER!)

ZJ knows about this. She tak kisah. She said its rezeki masing-masing. She also does not seem to understand the attitude of pple in Donaldson! Sighz.. Pple also have been talking abt her. I just dun understand lah! THESE PPLE IF THEY SEE THE PPLE THEY DISLIKE THEY WILL SURELY "MAKE UP STORIES". IF THEY LIKE THAT PERSON, THEY BEFRIEND THAT PERSON!

FIFTH STORY: "SURE OR NOT MBS HAS DIPLOMA? I HEARD HER DIPLOMA FROM PRIVATE INST..ALAH.. EKSYEN SAY SHE DIPLOMA GRADUATE.. HER DIPLOMA TAK BOLEH PAKAI LAH.. NOT FROM POLY NYER.. SO HER SALARY SHOULD BE MARKET SALARY FOR 0 LEVEL! BECAUSE SHE USED THAT USELESS DIPLOMA OF HERS, THATS WHY SHE GET THAT KIND OF PAY! IF OTHER LAW FIRMS, THEY WILL SEE WHAT DIPLOMA IS THAT LOCAL OR PRIVATE.. OF COZ PRIVATE WILL CONSIDER AS 0 LEVELS AND JGN HARAP DIA BOLEH DPT GAJI CAMTU!"

HELLO?! IS THIS LAW FIRM A GOVERNMENT SECTOR OR PRIVATE?! DEFINITELY PRIVATE SO I SHOW MY DIPLOMA WHICH IS FROM PRIVATE >> ACCEPTABLE WHAT?! ITS NOT AS IF I AM APPLYING A JOB IN HPB (HEALTH PROMOTION BOARD - a statutory board) or in IPOS (INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY OF SINGAPORE @alias Registry of Trade Marks, Singapore - a statutory board) or in MOE (Ministry of Education) WITH MY PRIVATE DIPLOMA! OF COZ IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE! STUPID!

MY DIPLOMA USELESS ?! (tak boleh pakai?!) THEN WHY THE HELL I STUDIED AND PAID ALMOST $5k FOR IT?! U DO NOT KNOW THE REASON WHY I OPTED FOR A PRIVATE STUDY RATHER THAN GOING TO LOCAL POLYTECHNICS SO SHUT UP UR ASS OK?! (I can go and study for some courses at local polytechnics but I opted for this route. I have my reasons.)

FINAL STORY: THIS IS ALREADY TOO MUCH! I HAVE ENUFF. NASIB BAIK WHEN I HEARD THIS STORY, I DIDNT GO AND CONFRONT THEM AND SIMBAH AIR PANAS KAT MUKA MEREKA! A voice sumhow whispered to mee, "Bersabar.. Bersabar." (Be patient. Be patient.) IF IT WASNT FOR THE VOICE.. DAH LECUR LAH MUKA DIA KENA AIR PANAS - KOPI PULAK TU!

I was away from my desk for an hour to go to the filing room which was located at 13th floor of the same building. Reason: The filing guys had to go to IPOS for some urgent matters. So we, the secretaries, executives and clerks, should we need to retrieve certain files, we have to locate ourselves. Since, a lawyer wish to have that particular file urgently, I took the initiative to go down to 13th floor to locate it myself.

Before I left, we have to informed our colleagues who are near to us, should anyone came looking for me, please tell them I went to the 13th floor. I did inform those sitted near me. I heard, "OK." So I went down to 13th floor. Indeed, a Trade Mark paralegal came to my desk to search for me. She has been searching for me for a few times already and then she asked, "Where's MBS?"

WANNA KNOW THE REPLY?! "DUN KNOW." YES, THAT FELLOW ANSWERED, "DUN KNOW!" KAN ANIAYA NYER KERJA TU! I CAME BACK AN HOUR LATER AND BEFORE I COULD JUST SIT DOWN TO REST, THAT SAME PERSON, "MBS JUST NOW YAC LOOKING FOR U. I SAID I DUN KNW WHERE ARE U." I WAS PETRIFIED! I STOOD UP AND SAID THIS, "I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU ALREADY I WENT TO 13th floor to LOCATE FILE?!" THAT PERSON, "OUH ISSIT? DIDNT REALIZE U WERE ACTUALLY TALKING TO ME."

I WANTED TO SCREAM, "U DIDNT REALIZE I WAS INFORMING YOU?! BUT U SAID OK?!" AT HER! BUT THAT BACKFIRED. SIGHZ.

SHE DIDNT REALIZE I WAS TALKING TO HER SO I WAS TALKING TO THE "WALL"? I WAS TALKING TO A GHOST?! Then I saw a note by YAC asking me to fax the letter for her. (her secretary was on leave so she loves to ask me take over her secretary's work, I have no idea and of coz pple in donaldson were green in envy! because I was given a red carpet everytime when her secretary went on leave.)

Fine, I will fax the letter. As I was about to go to the fax machine, LST came to me and he said he wants to see me. OK. Sure. Of COZ.. THEY ALL HEARD IT ALREADY LAH.. SO DEFINITELY GOT ANOTHER STORY TO MAKE UP LAH! After I faxed the letter, I went in to LST's room. He asked abt the file whether I have got hold of it. I told him that I went down to 13th floor to locate it but I sumhow couldnt find it. I also told him that I understand the urgency and rest assured that I will get one of the guys to locate it first thing tmr morning. He agreed and nodded. I left the room. I went to YAC and passed her the letter and the confirmation fax report. I also told her that I was at 13th floor locating for file when she was looking for me. She got what I meant and nodded.

AS I WAS WALKING PASS MY TABLE... "LST WANT TO SEE YOU FOR?" U KNOW WHAT I ANSWERED, "WHY? U THINK WHAT? YAC COMPLAIN TO HIM THAT I WASNT AT MY DESK ISSIT?! HE CAME LOOKING FOR ME BECAUSE HE WANTS TO DATE ME OUT.. HE SAID AMONG ALL THE CLERKS HERE AH.. I AM THE "CLEVER" ONE COZ GOT DIPLOMA MAH.. SO HE ASKED ME OUT LAH.. WHY? JEALOUS AH?!"

Silence for a while. Tercungkil nak keluar so I went to the toilet. I WAS ALONE IN THE TOILET WHEN I HEARD ANOTHER PERSON (THE SAME PERSON WHO HAS BEEN SAYING THOSE STORIES ABT ME) COMING IN WITH HER "KAKI" AH.. AND TALKING ABT ME!

"SURE OR NOT SI MBS TU GO 13TH FLOOR LOOK FOR FILE? SHE BROUGHT HER HP ALONG TAU! SHE WANT TO LOCATE FILE OR TALK ON THE PHONE! PANDAI PULAK TU DIA JAGA PERIUK NASI DIA!"

I DIDNT EVEN GO OUT FROM THE CUBICLE. I STAYED IN THERE UNTIL THOSE 2 LEFT THE TOILET! FROM THAT CONVERSATION, I KNOW.. THAT PERSON PURPOSELY DO NOT WANT TO TELL YAC I WAS AT 13TH FLOOR. PURPOSELY SAID "DUN KNOW" SO TO GIVE AN IMPRESSION TO YAC THAT I WASNT DOING MY WORK!

I WAS FUMING MAD AND CONTROLLING MY ANGER. NAK AJER AKU KELUAR DARI CUBICLE TU AND TAMPAR MUKA DIA! ALL THESE WHILE THEY HAVE BEEN TRYING TO SABOTAGE MY RICE BOWL!

THE MENTION OF 'PERIUK NASI' (rice bowl) ONLY, I HAVE KNOW WHAT HAD BEEN HAPPENING ALL THIS WHILE. AND I ALSO KNOW WHY (name withheld) ANSWERED, "I DONT KNOW", TO YAC WHEN YAC ASKED WHERE WAS I. TRYING TO SABO ME!!!

I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE..

STRAITS TIMES CLASSIFIED... HERE I COME!

Amyria pours her heart out @ 11:07 pm   |

// If any guy out there wanna get to me, he must know a few things like cooking and family matters. The same goes to me, if I wanna know a guy out there, I have to be truthful to him and reveal it. And it will be up to him to accept it or not. I don't and won't force him. //

My email reply (this is in reply to his introduction, which I feel that it is rather inappropriate to post it in my blog - Well, certain information are meant to be personal) to him:

Hi XXXXXX,

Well, just wanna let you know that I have bump into you for a quite a number of times before - sometimes even face to face. Just that I did not have the courage to approach you or said 'hi.'. Like what you mention, 'its just humans'.

I should share something with you. Well, I do not like to beat around the bush. I have to share some bits and pieces of myself to anyone who is willing to know about me or even share a listening ear.

I have a very complicated family matters. Sometimes I cried alone in the middle of the night brooding over the matters. Well, there are just alot of family matters to share about and I am unsure of how to summarize it. Well, the only thing that I can say is, I have a drug addict father who also drinks, a grandmother, my mother, my step dad and my step siblings. My grandfather passed away about 9 months ago..

To be honest with you, I dislike doing housework. Normal washing like washing the clothes or washing the dishes is acceptable but if cleaning the whole house, I do not like it. I know, every house must be clean and neat, I want to have a nice and neat home too. The fact is, I am just plain lazy. I can clean up the house but I will mess it again in the next few hours. So I always said this, "Whats the point of cleaning the house when you are going to mess it still."

This applies to my office desk. If my desk is simply too neat, I cannot do my work. I can only do my work if my work area is very messy. My colleagues have always tegur me about this but I put on a deaf ear because I know that I cannot concentrate with my work if my working area is very neat and tidy.

Next, I do not know how to cook. Every guy would love his gal to cook a dish or two for him but I have to disappoint any guy out there when it comes to cooking because I really cannot cook. The mention of 'cooking' simply freaks me out, I will feel numbness and shakiness in my hands.

There was once a very humiliating incident. I was doing some voluntering work at a student centre and it was during a school holiday and the volunteers had decided to organize a camp for the students. A few volunteers were in charge of F & B. Definitely not me. However, because they were short-handed, they asked me to help. I was reluctant at first but because I did not want to let them know that I don't do any cooking, I agree.

I could not even hold a knife properly. So instead of using the knife, I tried to use a pair of scissors to kopek the sengkuang. It was hard with a pair of scissors. I tried to use the knife again but it was just too awkward for me so I was left with no other option. I stood up and rush to the wash room and washed both my hands including the fingers. Then I continue with what I was doing, which was peeling the skin using my fingernails.. I know it looked kinda dirty even though I have wash my hands however I am the type of person who dislike rejecting people if they were to approach me for help, somehow or rather I have to help them in any way I can.

That was the most humiliating moment. The news had reached to my family members and it caused quite a stir.

Love. Yes, I had been in love and I had fallen out of love too. Like you, I really show my love, caress and concern to him. Only to find out that HE WAS ONLY TOYING with my feelings. He cuma setakat melayan kan saje. . I HATE GUYS of that KIND! Thats why since then, I began to hate guys. I pitied my guy friends, those I known since sec sch. They do not know what the hell was going on but I kept hurling and scolding them like nobody business. At that moment in time, my thought was, "All guys are the same."

XXXXXX, Just want to inform you that if you ever met a girl and if you like her, tell her truly. Kalau suka katakan suka, jangan mengoda. Kalau tak suka, berterus terang dan jangan lead her on or give her false hope because you may ended up hurting her. You may not know the pain and hurt she went through. Trust me, the pain and hurt is simply unbearable for gals to handle. Believe me, I have experienced it. And I do not wish to experience the same thing again. As what they say once bitten twice shy but for my case, it is twice bitten thrice shy. That's why I am now being very careful when guys come and approach me to be friends or be more than just that.

Furthermore, I do not understand WHY guys love to goda gals? What's the purpose?! To entertain their lust? To satisfy their "fun"? In my opinion, guys who like to goda girls and give false hope to girls are pathetic jerks! FYI, because of that, I somehow have no more trust in guys. Hate them.

Well, that's basically what I believe you may need to know about me. What's my goals in life? Well, if I do not find anyone who does not mind the fact that I cannot cook, doing the housework - I can compromise and try not to be lazy - by the time I reached 35, then I shall get my own home. Adopt maybe 3 cats so as not to feel lonely alone at home.

Mr Right? I will leave it to God to decide the fate for me. Kita merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan. Thanks for the advice, I will heed your advice. :)

Cheers,
Maria

P/S: XXXXXX, Sorry if any of the contents in this email sounds rather harsh. :)

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A few days after this email, met him and I did brace myself to say hi to him. I did and full stop. After saying hi, we just smiled and exchange a few words and thats it.

Where do I meet him? Or how do we get to know each other? Both of us are working in the same vicinity >> Raffles Place. But how do we get to know each other? That's for me to know and for you to find out.

Amyria pours her heart out @ 9:31 pm   |

Today is Singapore's 42nd birthday! The parade was held at Marina Bay! Very near to where I worked. My bro had went there to see the fireworks.. How could he not bringing me along!

*How come the flag formation at the Padang was not shown on TV!!!*

After the parade, I watched another talent show, LIVE THE DREAM. I saw familiar faces >> EKA MAIRINA?! I thought she's a recording artiste already? Can join? *scratches head*

Well, one of the group contestants, F2 didnt make it to the next round. :( That guy, the thin one looks VERY FAMILIAR to me... Of coz! He's working in the same vicinity as me! Just bump into him during lunch time at golden shoe food centre on Tues!

LIVE THE DREAM..Will this competition be held only once or annually or once every two years? If annually or once every two years, then can I join?! Hahahaha... This year's LIVE THE DREAM, I was not elligible lah >> under age >> I HAVE NOT REACHED 24 yet!!

Hmm... how come ehem, Ad (HapyHady)'s bro didnt join? *winkz*

Amyria pours her heart out @ 9:38 pm   |

Referring to my previous entry dated 29th July 2007, I did went to da wedding today. =)

I have decided to attend da wedding today. Went there with Zara and then at CCK Interchange, we waited for Abshah. While on da way to our destination, they were talking about a friend of theirs who is 1 year younger all prepared for her wedding next year! Oh geez! She is only like err..19? And next year, she will be 20. Baru 19 dah nak kahwin next year! This stresses me! Ya lah! Pple younger than me already planning for marriage and me . . . hahahahaha... no comments lah..

When we reached our destination, we saw Anura! Zara and Abshah have not seen Anura for.. let's see, almost a year? Yeah, so they were very happy to see her! Hmm... Then Zara asked, "Abang Shafie dtg tak? Dah lama tak jumpa dia." Nashriqa answered, "entah..."

It is a good thing that I was present at da wedding. Z WAS NOT THERE! Hahaha.. *Maria, will it bother you if he's there?* Of coz! I wont have da appetite to eat because da person I dun wish to see is there. Phew!

Zul was not there. Hmm... masih merajuk lagi ke dgn Anura? *shakes my head* It wasnt Anura's fault, its Z. Z went to celebrate Anura's birthday along with Shah (Shafie) and Jaja and Jaja's fiancee without bringing him and he blamed Anura.. Haiz...

How come ehem.. "my ex-doctor" wasnt at da wedding today? Got NDP rehearsal? Anyway, do not get me wrong. I went to da wedding because I was invited. I wasnt expecting anyone. ;P

Oh yeah! I did mention in my blog last week whether have any karoake. On Wednesday, I sent an sms to Anura, "Nanti Sun wedding ada karoake tak? Kalau ada, saya gi kalau takde saya tak gi. Heehehahaa" And I got a reply, "Mana aku tau ada ke tak de." Doinkz!

So how? YES! Today, da wedding has karoake! Did I sing? Err, no! Hahaha... Yg mana volunteer nak nyanyi semua nyanyi lagu dangdut. Dangdut not my type of music to sing lah.. Can choose lah what songs but due to constrain of time, tak jadi ah.. hahaha.. However, if there wasnt any time constraint, I would definitely choose ehem any of these songs: TENDA BIRU -Dewy Ratnasari, MUNGKIN NANTI - Peter Pan, TERLALU ISTIMEWA - Adibah Noor & KENANGAN TERINDAH - Samson.. Wahahahaa... Cam betul jer.. LoLz

Will I be invited for any other weddings? I aint sure. Sighz.. Everyone I know is attached, engaged, getting engaged, getting married and married. I just hope that those pple I know whenever I met them elsewhere wont ask questions that will stress me. What questions? "How's life etc", "Are u alone or with ur other half ?", "When's ur turn?" blah blah.. These kind of questions will definitely give me stress! Lagi2 kalau aku dgr org yg muda dari pada aku nak kahwin lah, dah kahwin lah.. Haiz...

P/S: Lucky tak serempak dgn H.B.. Still remember him? I did write about him before. He and Z sama saje! H.B has moved from Clementi to CCK but I aint sure which part of CCK. That's another reason why I was undecisive whether to attend today's wedding, as mentioned in my entry last week (29th July 2007)

Amyria pours her heart out @ 8:10 pm   |