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AMYRIA

my story. my words. my life. my prerogative


Saturday, March 21, 2009

new colleague

How cute she is. Too bad she has left - 3 weeks into the company. Well, maybe she can't cope?

I did not reveal much info abt me to her coz I don't like to tell alot of things abt me.. Don't share too much info with strangers, dangerous.. heehe.. So I did not tell her that I have bf la, this and that..

Then one day, we left work together.. We chit chat.. Another colleague saw us and this colleague asked, "Today ur bf never pick u up." I just smiled and answered, "No, working." Then this new colleague got a shock and asked me, "Oh so u have bf?" I nodded.

What makes her cute is.. She asked me further, "I don't expect u to have bf.." At first I thought she was being sarcastic. However, I probe further on what makes her think that way. Her cute ans: "Well, because I dun see any photos of ur bf at your desk. I can only see photos of Hady Mirza.."

LOL... Hahaha.. How cute la she.. Well, why must I display my bf's photo? Unless it's 100% confirm that we will be married of coz I will definitely display his photo.. U all know my situation... my grandmother especially disapproves him so how to display his photo? If family can't approve, break off rite? Then if I display his photo and then ended up breaking up.. Where to put my face if they were to find out that I have no longer display the photo? So, to be on the safe side, dun display la..

Well, SBB.. I wish u all the best. Nice knowing u...

Amyria pours her heart out @ 1:06 am   |

Friday, March 20, 2009

revelation

My grandmother always has false assumption of A. She kept saying that A is younger than me la, A did not want girls younger than him because he can't get their money; thats why A sticks to me, who is older so that he can ask for money. *eyes rolling*

She advises me to stop entertaining him and look guys who are older than me. She thinks I did not look for men older than me?! I did but no chemistry between us and some dun think I can be the one because I was still immature in their eyes.. So how to get guys who are older than me to be attracted to me?

Every time she has false assumption of A and so like what I have promised to myself, I will one day reveal to her that I met some older guys before and they themselves go after woman who are younger or (whatever la ), going after their money.

Yes, I have revealed to her about R. R who I met through Myspace.com since 2003? Think so. I avoided him after he broke his promise. He borrowed $$ from me and after he has paid me back the loan, he has promised not to borrow money from me again, should he wants to be my friend. He broke his promise, since then, I no longer contacted him. I still have his no but I did not make it a point to sms him a "hi" or "how are u." What abt him? Well, he is the one who occasionally does that (the smsing) but after the normal "hi" and "how are u" smses, he will sms his intention: borrow $$. Reason for loan: motorbike parking fine la, motorbike insurance la etc etc...

Told everything to my grandma. She was very shocked! Furthermore, I also assured her that though A is younger than me, he NEVER BORROW $$ from me. She then kept quiet, no comments from her.
I did not tell her that A ask for transport bus fare, she will make noise. FYI, A asked me for transport $$, I believe it is still alright and acceptable because transport bus fare is coins worth of abt $2.. In addition, he didn't always ask.. Only when he was short of bus fare $$, he'll ask from me.

However R is different. He asked for 3 fig amount! If his reason is for his mum's medication, I will not mind to lend my $$. His reasons was always - motorbike parking fine, motorbike lamp spoil, insurance for motorbike etc etc...

The way I justified abt R really has convinced my grandmother. She always wants me to find men who are older than me, so when I told her about R, somehow her perception on men who are older than me (aged 27 and above la) has slightly changed.

I told her that R first borrowed my $$ when I was still in school (back in 2004). He has promised not to borrow again but he still did because well, in my opinion.. I am now working and earned 'big bucks' as a secretary in a law firm. So, he asked $$ from me again.

After sharing with her abt R, my grandmother all of a sudden exclaimed.. "U better stay away from those kind of guys.. Tak sangka umur 33 / 34 perangai mcm tu. Patutlah not married yet.. how to if dun know how to finance properly and even if dun know how to finance $$ properly dun ask $$ from lady la! No shame.. Lucky u are just friends with him, if in relationship with him, u will suffer.."

Ah.. Tau pun.. Then still bising bising.. Want me find older men.. Younger men cannot la.. Younge men like this la like that la.. See la.. always assume here.. assume there.. Kan the cucu da keluarkan taring, da reveal semua.. Hahaha..

Nasib tak relate to her abt me meeting some other older guys who did not ask for money BUT ask for sex... If I share this with her, I guess my grandmother will pengsan!

Amyria pours her heart out @ 12:07 am   |

Monday, March 16, 2009

should I stay?

The Sunday part time job.

The makcik now has been delaying my payment. First, she would give cash, then decided to change the mode of payment to bank transfer. Usually, the bank transfer will take place an hour after I ended up work. Then after constantly doing that, makcik transfer tomorrow morning.

Nowadays, its not the next morning... For yesterday's pay, I should be getting it today via transfer and makcik has not transferred to me yet. I wonder why the delay? Not the first time... Has happen already before.

So, my concern is... should I stay on working at the cafe on Sunday or tell the shop owner of my Saturday job that I wish to tend the shop on both days? Sighz.. For Saturdays, the shop owner is there.. even if she's not, she will call and tell me or anyone in the shop to pay me the salary - deduct from float or sales. I got cash on hand on the spot. No delay.

But I kinda like the job at the cafe. More relaxing than the one on Saturday.. I get to watch TV on Sundays =) get to eat + sit when no one's around... For Saturday, I can't. Customers came in to browse and after they browse, the place may be in a mess.. I have to clean it up. U know when u go Bossini or Giordano and would like to see the t-shirts, u would take it out and see then just put back isn't it? And the salesgirl will come over and fold the t-shirts properly..

So, on Saturday same thing. Pple come in and take a look at the belly dance costumes, after which if they dun like they put it away at another place. We have to place it properly and even fold it nicely. TIRING U KNOW!!!

Walane! I dun do housework at home but I have no choice. I have to do it for $$. Else, I wont have enuff $$ for expenses.. Sighz.. My nenek often reminding me to quit the part time job. I do not want her to worry about my finances so I kep quiet.. I will quit only after I have enuff for myself, only after I know how to balance my financial protfolio, only after I have cleared most of my "debts".

Gym membership OVER!! So, the debts are: My nenek's, GE Ezyloan and the insurance monthly payout. So if I have cleared one of them, I may consider to quit my part time job. Rite now I am looking for a new part time job to replace the Sunday job. I can't stand the delay. Makcik should have trust in me that I was there so why dun she just pay on that day itself, latest the next morning? However now... it's not even the next morning, which is today. Makcik called me to say tomorrow she will transfer.. Sighz..

P/S: My Saturday job is at belly dancing shop and there is a studio upstairs and if u're interested to know how belly dancing is or even want to learn belly dancing, please feel free to approach me and I'll sign u up.. Get $10 for that.. $10 for each sign up.. Ssshh... To HasZ, really glad u enjoy the dance.. *thumbs up*

Amyria pours her heart out @ 10:37 pm   |

Friday, March 13, 2009

Dear puteri-maria.blogspot.com,

I "bumped" into 'him' at Bugis Junction. If I remembered correctly, at BHG escalator. I was walking down from the escalator from BHG to the Bugis mrt station and he was with the youngest sister came from the mrt went up the escalator.

I noticed him first I don't think he noticed me until he turned to the right and I guess he saw me (I didnt turned and looked at him - I pretend not to see) and then he turned away quickly. Then I turned to look at him going up the escalator and me going down the escalator.

After that I proceed to home. =)

P/S: I shall not disclose any names nor input any initial of my own. Just a clue, he I am referring to is not my 'doctor'.

Amyria pours her heart out @ 11:29 pm   |

Thursday, March 05, 2009

I have my pride, as long as my conscious is clear, I fear nothing

This is in regards to the previous heaty comments I posted in facebook last week. I hear more untrue stories about me. What I mean is, the person reads the comments and want to defend herself.

I wanted to defend myself too in facebook after hearing those untrue stories BUT I decided not to coz my ustaz is in facebook; he may get a shocked. Well, as a Muslim, we shouldnt be fighting in public so I go to this blog of mine to pour it out. I dun think she knows abt this blog.

This is what I wana write (under the comments - which is going to be very long) in facebook if the ustaz is not in my list, I am referring to her:

- U tell them that my mother control my finances that's why I always borrow $$ from u?! Sighz.. Small matter... u make it big, how I wish I can make it BIGGER in facebook, but its OK.. I let it out everything here.

- U tell them that I recommend u to work same company so that I can borrow $$ from you?!! And I paid instalments of $2 every time?!!! How I wish I can voice this out in facebook, I dun want pple in facebook to wrongly judge me.

I fear ALLAH and for ALLAH I am telling the truth.

The truth is:-

1. Before I recommend her to work in the same company, yes, I did borrow from her $50. I did not know how to finance myself at that time so once I become broke, I did not know what to do. I don't know why borrowing came to my mind. I did approach my other friends if they can spare me only $50, as I believe thats the amount that can last me till next pay day. Those friends can't spare me; they had their reasons. She's the one who is able to spare me, furthermore she asked if $50 is enuff for me. I have settled the debt looonnnngggg time agoooo....

2. I badly wants a digital camera after my Sony camera is spoilt - thanks to my sister. I need it badly as I wanna take lots of photos while in Chiang Mai, Thailand. I did have $100++ but I know its not enuff. We were just surveying for digital cameras when I spotted a good one and tell the shop owner, I will come back again. She's the one who offered to pay for me. I didn't ask her to pay for me. I said to her that I will think about it and I will get the same one next month (after I saved enuff $$). However, she insisted saying the discount is a good deal (the shop owner knows her, hence I got a discount) so I must grab it. So she is the one who is offering to pay for me. I didn't even beg her. Anyway, I would like to express my thanks and already settle the payment.

3. I have shortage of $50 for rental of graduation gown. I went to her coz the deadline was on that day and if I go to other friends, they may delay the transfer, I need to pay the rental by that day. So I went to her. I would like to convery my thanks to her for the $50 else without it, I can't attend the graduation (though I had paid for the graduation ceremony, if I can't pay for the rental, I can't attend and $$ I paid for ceremony will be burn just like that). I also have settled the payment.

4. My bank account has insufficient funds to deduct for California fitness. The fee is $81.32 (inclusive of GST) and I only have $30++ in there. I only asked her for additional $50 coz that will be sufficient enuff to be deducted. She offered $60, though I want only $50, she insisted me to agree on $60. Fine! I also have settle the $60 in full.

5. NYB's birthday contribution. I have informed the person-in-charge that I will give them the $$ later. She came to me and asked if I have contributed. I told her the truth. She added that she will pay for me first, then I'll pay her back. I can't stop her. When she insist, very hard to stop her.

6. Laptop. I gave her my laptop for her to take a look at it. I have no idea if she repaired it or not but I got a shocked when she told me that I have to pay her $80 for her service charge. That $80 is so coincidental to my increment. I didn't say Ok, I just kept quiet. I have no idea what came to my mind and I asked her about my laptop. She threaten me saying if I want the laptop, I must pay. When I refuse to pay (because she treat my laptop - a gift from my grandmother - as a joke! She mentioned she gave my laptop to old rag man! Does she think its funny?!!!), she CALLED MY HOUSE AND DEMAND PAYMENT FROM MY MOTHER!! That's the last straw! Thats why I wrote those long-winded comments last week! Involve my family member, thats it! Anyway, when she called my house (she's hearing-impaired, how can she call? She can get her hearing friends who so into her, who is so believing in her story to call or she can ask her fiance who loves her very much to call my hse) and demand $300-$400 from my mum, my mum texted me. Thats it!

7. I got someone to settle the matter. Since she get someone to call my hse and demand payment, I also can get someone to handle the matter. Instead of $300-$400, payment reduces to $35. So I had smsed her that on Monday (2 Mar 2009), I'll pay her $35+$5 = $40.

8. I paid her after lunch as the gym membership and other stuffs still not deducted yet in the morning on that day. After lunch, only that other stuffs has been deducted from my account, not my gym but I will still withdraw my $$ anyway because before lunch, she has been going around to only certain pple (what a coward! I announced it in facebook for everyone to read, she only defend herself to a few pple, coward isnt she?) that I cannot pay her $40 on that day, I can pay her other day. That's why when I went to her to pay the $40, I brought 2 witnesses along. She seemed shocked. Serves her right! She told two of them I always paid her instalment of $2 so when I paid her full amount of $40 in front of 2 witnesses, of coz she did not know what to say but the two of them kept advising me to watch out for any of her attack.

Which is true, she has got my house number from the company's intranet. I am not stupid. I am not afraid. According to another colleague of mine, if she creates trouble by calling my home, I can complain to the management because the management was the one who keyed in my house number (including most of the colleagues) in intranet, so its their responsibility.

Those 9 points are what I wanted to highlight in facebook. Those 9 points are good enuff to defend me in facebook but let it be. Its useless. We can't punish her. She always think she is right and she likes the attention she is getting when she spin stories so let her be. Only ALLAH S.W.T will punish her.

Amyria pours her heart out @ 12:03 am   |


The Lady

Amy Maria, 27 year old femme, who loves singing as her passion. Relatively a quiet person, especially towards people she doesn't know very well. However, people who she call her friends, know her as a very cheerful, friendly and a little talkative kinda person. Basically, she thinks everybody can reach nearly every goal, just need a great portion of staying power, motivation, and enthusiasm. She also believes that she's patient and relatively calm - in the past, even so, sometimes she still can be very quick-tempered. On the contrary, most of the time she loves to accept challenges. She has purity and sweetness of a girl. And no matter how old she get, she can stay youthful. She also possesses a motherly character. She is kind and can show consideration to others. Once she starts on something, she will not give up half way, or show weakness. She knows how to get on in life. She is rather suspicious type of person. She doesn't tend to take every word of other person straightly.

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Her Cliques

.Aini
Aiser. Alice. Aphrodite . Ayu. Az Revalina. Baby Seniorita. Elia's old Blog. Elia's new Blog. Fairuz . Farah. Fat Cat. Fikq HapyHady. Ijah. Kak Juliza. Maria Shazwani. Melissa. Melia HapyHady. Mulyadi. Nulyz. Ria HapyHady. Rizar. Sabrina . Salmah. Shidah. Shirin Hushairi. SV HapyHady . Syafiqah HapyHady . Syaliza. Syasya . Syidah's OLD blog. Syidah's NEW blog. Tia. Wawan. Zohra HapyHady.

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BRITNEY SPEARS/ TAUFIK BATISAH/ FAUZIE LAILY/ ALIFF AZIZ!/ AMY MASTURA/ HADY MIRZA/ HYRUL ANUAR/ JAY CHOU/

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CAT WELFARE| SOS ANIMALS| ANIMAL RESCUE| ANIMALS LOVERS| SPCA| HAPPY CATZ| Friendster| WWE| 98.7FM| Power98FM| Song Lyrics|KCAP| Donburk| MINICLIP GAMES | MTV ASIA| YOU TUBE Videos|

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