Thursday, March 31, 2005
Source: From my diary book year 1999. NO TRANSLATION coz I wrote most of da entries in English. COPYRIGHT from my diary book - i DIDNT CHANGE ANY WORDS/PHRASE
4 February 1999
This morning, our malay teacher asked us to do an assignment - a dialogue. so, i wrote da pple's names(characters for da dialogue): Hilal, Khairudin, Hafidz. Nazrul, asked how to start an introduction. So, i showed him my paper as I am not good in telling him in malay how to begin. After showing my paper to him, he grinned. I knw why. Later, he asked for a correction fluid. When i passed mine, he said: "Terima kasih, Khairudin," with a wily smile. Hello!! I am a girl NOT a guy! If u r wondering who is Khairudin, well, he is actually Khairudin Saharom, the Gelora actor.
So, during the whole of malay lesson, Nazrul kept calling me, "Handsome Khairudin!" Why was he always so irritating?! Always get into my nerves! I know its for fun but not until so irritating like tat la!
9 February 1999
It has been 2 months. I have been close with my new friends: Nazrul(Diego-tats his nick), Suresh and Fadhil. But their friendship to me is a little different.. They like to provoke girls..u knw when guys irritate girls, they will get da girls' attention.. So, thats wat da 3 of them had been doing.
Today, only 2 of them antagonized (was tat how u spell it) me!!! Who? Tell u which 2 and wil tel u y now: When all Sec 4 Normal Academic went to Chemistry Lab for D.F.A (Daily Formative Assesment) discussion which shld be held yesterday but a lot of da malay guys including them "cabut" so today, our chemistry teacher(all 3 classes same chemistry teacher) made sure tat da guys will not "cabut" and as a result all da students in all 3 classes had to stay behind! "Tulah, siapa suruh cabut! Menyusahkan org lain!"
We sat anywhere we want. Those 2 crazy, idiotics, moronic, guys sat behind me! I was sitting beside Faridah. I cannot concentrate on da worksheet which was given by our Chemistry teacher coz da 2 of them made so much noises such as: Like Geloralah.. Khairudin Saharom lah.. 4N1 action pandailah! "Memekak je lah!" So, I turned and shouted at them. Dun worry, da teacher didnt hear. I shouted at who? Nazrul and Suresh lah! Fadhil was sitting in da middle of da 2 of them kept quiet but he enjoyed every moment of it.. Argh!
When I shouted at them, Nazrul said(translate to english): "If u fed up, go n c ur guy in sec 5!" Suresh only sniggered. He knows. I stared at Nazrul. I also knw wat n who he meant but i 'pretend' to act blur so, i stared at him and asked him further: "siapa"?
U knw wat Nazrul replied: "Yg mana kau nak? Kalau nak yg cute, Nasir, kalau nak yg pandai, Hafidz Basri..kalau nak yg handsome.. Aku.. Eh nanti, aku sec 4 sepatutnya sec 5 takpe aku give chance pada kawan aku sec 5 yg handsome siapa ah... Ah! Aku tau! Hafidz Hassan!!" All 3 of them burst out laughing! Suresh, he is an Indian but I think he understand malay, so he also burst out laughing and guess wat, they got shouted by our Chemistry teacher..Haha! I laughed when seeing them in a cowardly state after being shouted at! 'padan muka kau org'! Haha!
15 February 1999
Today is da dateline. Wat dateline? Well, i was so busy with homeworks tat i forgot to write abt it on 3 February!
On 25 February, all those studying Geography in Sec 3 Express, Sec 4 Express and Normal Academic and Sec 5 students will be having a field trip to Pulau Karimun, Indonesia!! I was happy at first.. But my grandma..she a bit, everything tis cannot, tat cannot! Oh well! I dun care, i asked my mum n she said 'ok', and since my mum said 'ok', my grandma cant say anything! My mum mum ALLOWS ME TO GO TO PULAU KARUMUN, INDONESIA!!! Hooray!!!
So, da dateline is 2day, 2 submit da consent forms. I had submitted a week ago! So, far I knw Faridah, Rosliah, all da malay students in my class, Su An, Liru, Jing Xian and Yan Ling went. Hmm.. Fadhil? Suresh? Nazrul? I dont know yet.. Wat abt their Sec 5 friends? I also dun knw.. But i hope they went.. (",)
22 February 1999
The list of my close friends who went to Pulau Karimun: Rosliah, Faridah, ME, Suresh and Nazrul. Wat abt da Sec 5? Half of da Sec 5 students went!! All 4 classes of Sec 5 studied Geography. So, do 'they' went? YES! Nasir, Hisham, Hafidz Hassan, Mustaqim, and most importantly, Hafidz Basri went! Hooray! Definitely will be fun!
3 more days, and I will not be in SG.
I am in Group 6. The teachers (6 of them went to accompany us) put us into groups. Group 1: Sec 4 express guys and 4N1 guys (total 14), Group 2: Sec 4N3 guys and Sec 5N1 n 5N2(also total 14), Group 3: 5N3 and 5N4(total 13). Group 4: Sec 3 express girls(total 14), Group 5: Sec 4E3, 4E4 n 3 girls from 4N1(total 14).
Lastly, Group 6: remaining 4N1 girls, 4N3 n sec 5 girls.(total 14). Girls outnumbered boys and majority malay guys went there. For girls, from da list, I notice on da board, Chinese girls outnumbered malays. Who cares!
To be continued
P/S: Aft knwing sumone's GROSS N DISGUSTING dark secret.. I will still rewrite abt him frm my diary book year 1999 but I will use a pseudonym (is tat how u spell it?)
Monday, March 28, 2005
B4, i copied next 4 testimonials frm frenster..i wish 2blog abt sumting.. I BOUGHT - I MEAN my mum - MANJA last nite.. Guess who on da cover? Well..10 eligible 'singles' - 5 guys n 5 gals.. One of da guys of coz - none other den our FIRST SINGAPORE IDOL - TAUFIK. One other guy is Ainn's ex-bf: Fairuz Abd Jalil..da 'Mata Hati' actor..dun care abt da other 2..but last n not least: HAIZAD!!!!! OH...MR HUNKY was wat Manja Editors call him... HEY..U'VE GREAT TASTE MAN! ITS TRUE..HAIZAD IS A HUNK.. *WINKZ* I hope 2c or meet or bump into him AGAIN juz like last year!!! Plz grant me tis wish... Err..gals..dun come charging at me ok? *Scared smile*
nOw da testimonials..
15. Nazrul says:
Oh Maria. Knew her in sec sch. Very annoying, irritating BUT great n Fun 2b with. Always there when u need help.Klah tats all. Oh yeah... U and ur Hafidz..tat freaking toad..
NOTE: this testimonial Nazrul send sumtime in August or Sept BUT 2 or 3 weeks after tat, this testimonial WAS GONE! I asked Nazrul if he deleted tat testimonial, he said NO, I asked myself if I deleted it, I dun think so! I guess tis testimonial was deleted BY ITSELF? how can ryt?! ARGH!U knw Wat i tell Nazrul? I told him: C la..u wrote his name in my testi 4wat..becoz of tat..my testi been automatically deleted itself! And he can gave me a cheeky smile on da other line! PISSED!
16. Maria Syazwani says:
hello...thx for writing my testi... ok lah i din noe her much too.. but i admire her courage to continue studying for self determination...even tho bombarded with difficulties.. if me i dah give up.. haha
anyway i hope u'll get what uve been wishing for... tc and toodles! =)
17. Daniza says:
hmph!!...maRia....noTice heR at seC skEwl buT No comMuniCation waS donE...deN onE fiNe daY....meT heR at voLuntEerinG werK & staRted TalkiNg....swEet girL...soFt SpokeN....kinD HearteD....crAzy wiT Cats....beauTifuL SmiLe....pRetTy....shE's juZ herSelf...tatS SpeCial boUt her....ouTa HeRe.....luV yA swEetIe....
18. Ainn gave a poem via testimonial
I'll Always Be There
In times of trouble,
In times of need,
If you are feeling SAD,
You can count on me.
I will give you a wink,
Until you smile,
give you a hug,
And stand by your side.
I'll be there for you till the end,
I'll always and forever,
be your friend!
part 6..will b continue..next month.. *tongue lashing*
Friday, March 25, 2005
My mum n I are cat lovers - da WHOLE FAMILY in fact except my dad.. We haf a cat named TOMPOK. His pics..i will post soemtime later. Today, I wld like to blog abt da stray cats in our area which me n my mum gave them food.. We even gave them a name! Below is Siti Slow. We call her Slow coz she is damn slow.. Cats if hungry..they will run to u..but tis cat..no matter how hungry she is, she walked up to us very slow so we call her Siti Slow becoz there is another cat, male cat, same colour also slow..we call him Muhd. Slow.. hahaha
This is REMPUH. My mum called him REMPUH becoz da moment he saw my mum, he will rush to her! Tats y da name REMPUH.
This is Juleng. Why Juleng? Coz 'dia suka menjuleng'
Below is Darling... Sad... Darling passed away in da month of Jan.. BEEN EATEN BY DA BIG STRAY DOGS! :(
Last but not least.. below pic is Mary.. my neighbour who is also a cat lover gave its name as Mary.. :D
And there are more. I didnt take some of da rest of da cats pics coz feared THEY WILL RUN AWAY! Da rest of da cats are COMEL, FLOWER, ULAR SAWA, LENG LONG(lost already! dunno where he go! *sad), GILA, KONTOT and HITAM KECIL N HITAM MAK (son n mother)
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
I am updating my blog... I am decorating my blog with my photos.. Take a look! There r at least one picture below "Abt Me", "Contacts" blah blah.. COOL huh?
And remember da entry dated March 19? I wrote abt my premonition tat FIRDAUS JOHARI is da one who gav Hafidz S' no?
Well... I AM RYT!!! IT IS HIM!!! I cant stand him! Becoz of him, my friendship with Faridah almost broke up 7 years ago! Faridah cried scolding me didnt wanna tok 2me thinking tat I was betraying her. HELL NO! I WILL NEVA DO TAT!!! Tat was y i juz hate da sight of him! He's staying near ME! Oh no!
S read my blog and she said a correction to wat I wrote: She isnt Malay. Huh? Opps! If u r reading tis, sorry to get ur race mixed up but if u r not Malay, den wat race r u? Oh! Hafidz liked Klara too? Gosh!!
He is a malay and yet he wan 2 'get fresh' with non-malays. Same as tat Firdaus Johari. Firdaus Johari once told me tat he is handsome coz he has a chinese gf (now not anymore - tat chinese gf of his broke up wif him aft 4 or 5 months) Dun u think tat is BOASTING?!
And a correction to urs as well.. U said Hafidz stay around u.. I dun think so coz I heard he has moved out to BLK 451 CHOA CHU KANG. He no LONGER STAY at BLK 363 CLEMENTI AVE 2. Yeah, dis kind of pple CANNOT GIV FACE!
I knw sum of u will say: "tis girl is crazy..writing da address of sumone". Heck! I dun care! I want da girls staying around those areas 2b careful of dis guy! Hey...they didnt even knw how he looks so how 2b careful? Hmm...
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Hi! Sigh.. I knw my blog has been kinda boring coz its always abt HIM!! Who? Hafidz! I have find out MORE abt him and I didnt expect him TO... dun say already.. TOO GROSS!
When I was in sec sch, I did hear of Hafidz liking some other girls who are ENGLISH SPEAKING! Some of da malays girls in Jin Tai dont speak their own language with their malay friends, they speak English. ME? Nope.. I talk to them with a mixture of ENglish n malay --> 'rojak'! Told u b4 ryt, his english is superb?! But with his malay classmates, he speak malay. Wat is dis?!!
So, he kinda like chinese girls (Coz they r fair!), malay girls who 'step berbual english' and those of a mixed parentage. I did get a lil jealous during my sec sch days when but in my mind was: He wasnt their bf yet, so y wat da heck?!
// hehe.. very notti of me when i was a teen huh?! //
So wat is 2day's topic abt? Why da title: More shocking?! Tell u y NOW!
S, a sec sch mate of mine read my blog. Since she is also in my friendster lists of friends,she send me a msg via friendster. Well, actually I send her a msg via friendster coz although we're ex schmates, we didnt tok n I was surprised to receive a testimonial frm her! So i send her a msg to say thanks and our msgs carried on till i found out...
S: hw hav u been?
Me: I hav been fine. Just a lil stress with work n sch.
S: Ooh i see, bt dun worry, keep it up. Ive juz graduated & im nw lookin 4 a job in a related industry. U stayin in West Coast? Hey i read ur blog, Hafidz rit? He realy is a pig, stay away frm him.Me: Yeah. Me staying in West Coast.
// Clementi West to be exact //
U? And if i'm not wrong Hafidz was ur classmate b4 ryt?
S: Hi im stayin in (cannot tell). And heavens no, Hafidz was neva my classmate, same year but i was frm express. He used 2 lyke me. After i graduated frm Jin Tai, he got my hp no & started smsing me obscene tings. I didnt noe who it was til awhile later. Hes so gross.
// Huh? Err.. i think he was frm EXPRESS but in SEC 4, he was PROMOTED to SEC 4 NORMAL ACAD //
I didnt reply her yet . I smsed to da usual pple:Hey, rem S? Da malay gal who has da Eurasian looks (well, she's of a mixed parentage - tats y) I got 2knw frm her tat Hafidz used 2like her. Wana knw more? Aft she graduate frm Jintai he got her no n .... start 2sms her obscene stuffs! Don't u find tat GROSS?! * MY GOD*
I received reply frm 2 of them (ladies). One said she knws abt it and da other couldnt believe it man! She said: "Tak sangka seh!"
I did reply to S. My reply: Oh! Juz graduated? Congrats! Wat course u took? And how da hell he got ur no n did u changed ur no?
S: Me took a double Bachelors in Advertising & Marketing frm Curtin.
As 4 the Hafidz ting, he got my no frm my ex-classmate who noes him. He told me & tts hw i found out. I didnt change my no, when i told him i knew who he was & tt i wuld kick his ass if he continued, he stopped. Tt was when i was stil in poly.Hey u hav MSN? We can chat, add me (cannot tell her email here :P)
I juz send her a reply. My msg: Hey! Me taking Bachelors of Business Admin in Marketing too! frm Wales :)
As 4 Hafidz, I think i knw who was ur idiotic ex-classmate who gave ur no to him. Firdaus Johari ryt?
Haha! U told him u're gonna kick his ass n he'd stopped! COWARD i can say, coz other guys they will still continue n they will stop only when u threaten them as in: Tell da police.
Ok, I've already added u in MSN but I wont be online for a while coz my internet's down and I haf no time to fix it.
// will be waiting for her reply, den I will tell u if my premonition is ryt! Wat premonition? Whether it was FIRDAUS JOHARI (tat idiotic guy! I cant stand him!) gave Hafidz her no //
Very shocking huh?! Sigh.. Wanna knw more? I think i shld STAY AWAY frm guys like him!! 'Sayang belajar pandai (A Level) tapi perangai.. tak bleh angkat!)
Happy 23rd birthday NANA!!
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
On March 15 - Remember tat Suresh told me tat Hafidz was in CISCO? On my way hm frm work today, I smsed Suresh voicing out my confusion. I smsed him: Yestday u said Hafidz was in CISCO? He replied: Ya his in CISCO. I received tat msg n was shocked! If u've read March 16 entry, u'll knw. HOW COULD AN A LEVEL HOLDER LIKE HIM BE A SECURITY GUARD?!!!
I smsed again: But i heard u told me he was transferred out? His reply: Yeah. Mine: So transfer frm where to where? HE: Not sure of tat. Me: To SCDF? perhaps? Suresh: Dunno... Maria: Transferred to SCDF la. I saw him b4 in his fire SCDF uniform u knw! Suresh: Dunno..
Duh!!! Sigh... Hairan eh. He was in CISCO? Wat was ON HIS MIND? Didnt he knw tat those pple in CISCO r all secondary sch drop-outs? Why wld he an A level holder wanna be in their troop? Other A level holders, NS signed up army, police, navy, others in SCDF-paramedics/admin. But he...? Tu lah terlalu sex-minded sangat sebab tu lah! But like wat Suresh had said, he got transferred. So he muz be in SCDF NOW as a fireman - jgnlah dia ada kat Clementi Fire Station or Clementi West Fire Post! Dekat dgn rumahku!! Aku ingin melupakannya so kalau boleh tak mau tgk muka dia! Berbual? Aku tak pernah berbual dgn dia waktu sekolah menengah. Setakat hi, hello dan bye sahaja - secara terpaksa oleh kawan2 ku.
// dun understand wat was i writing abt? NEVA MIND! I'm in a mood whereby I dun wish to 'repeat' wat I say. By translating malay to english, it is like repeating! //
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Mulyadi, an Informatics friend of mine, now in Melbourne Australia left a tag in my new fooble chat box. He muz have read March 14 and March 10 entry and asked wat exactly do I define horny as? Coz his definition of horny is a natural instinct, and it is alrite for a guy 2behave intimately. While waiting for her, I smsed Ainn telling her tat I saw Suresh. She replied: Oh, tell him I send him my regards. I forward tat sms 2 Suresh and Suresh replied: Oh k..Said I sent mine as well with hugs n kisses.. Heehee.. Juz joking.I forward tat 2 Ainn. She didnt reply BUT I smsed him for her: Haha.. Very cheeky. Suresh! Always there to keep us smiling during da day. :)
Mulyadi left a tag i think on Monday but I read it yesterday. However, I have loads of work to do in office so I didnt haf time to update new post. So I will do it today.
Hmm.. Adi if u r reading this, I have 2admit tat I dun knw also wat horny actually is. And wat does my sec sch frend meant by Hafidz Basri is horny. Maybe it was sumting serious? Tat was y she told me n asked me juz 2forget him?
I smsed all 4 of them yesterday (including Ainn - Yes, she's back, I mean she has paid her ho bill) how do they define horny. Was it juz a natural instinct or was it those pornographic stuffs? Nazrul as usual didnt reply. I dun blame him. I knw he was pissed.
I have a long chat with Ainn on my way to meet a sec sch frend of mine. She said, "Horny isnt necessarily meant natural or pornographic stuffs. It can be due to more than tat."
She asked me to tell her again (abt March 10 entry) coz she hasnt been surfing da net as she was bz with her last year project. I wanted to tel her again abt da March 10 entry but I cant coz I was in da mrt and I think it was very inconvenient 2tok such topic in public. Furthermore, we're malays, but we dun speak malay; we speak English n it was very hard for da both of us 2tok such topic - translated to malay. I said 2her: "Very difficult for me 2say tis kind of topic in malay." In da mrt, there were 2 malay girls who gave me a 'nak step berbual english' look. Heck! Furthermore, if we speak English, pple around me will hear n i dun think tats nice. So,no choice we juz haf 2smsed each other.
I smsed her: Ainn, dis guy, he is horny in an extreme way. Love 2tok abt sex! N if he were given a chance 2knw gals, he wanna try out on them first! Can u imagine he can ask: "Wat is ur fav position?!" do u knw wat tat means? It means tat there r many ways of making love!"
Her reply: Just DUN WASTE UR TIME ON HIM. HE IS NOT WORTHY OF UR TIME. WHY MUZ U WASTE UR TIME ON HIM!
At da same time, I also smsed Suresh. His reply: I dunno. U got to ask someone whose horny... I laughed at his sms. I DUN KNW ANYONE who is HORNY EXCEPT him! Besides, I neva tok 2him, how do u expect me to ask. So my sms reply was kinda like a joke: Hah so I'l haf 2ask him?! Heh. K neva mind hope u dun mind me askin tat juz now coz u shld knw me still not ok.
Suresh: Ha ha.. It's k.. I didnt reply 2his smses coz I already reached my destination - clementi. Wld like to reply him but guess wat? SURESH TOOK DA SAME TRAIN AS ME!!! But i was in da first cabin n he was sumwhere in da middle. We alighted at da same station!! He didnt notice me BUT I DO! So, I ran up n gave him a pat on his shoulder and he turned n saw me!! Da first thing he said: Nowadays, u send 'funny' smses ah. I looked at him blankly n juz smile.
Then, i asked if he was frm work. He said he juz got back frm a course. Huh? SPF haf course? He told me tat after da course, then he will knw where he was posted. He hopefully wants 2b posted 2 Clementi Police Station!! TELL U IF HE REALLY GET POSTED THERE!! I'M HAPPY!! EVERYDAY CAN GET 2C HIM. WAHAHA.. EAT DINNER TOGETHER.. WAHAHA.. He juz smiled.
Then he mentioned Hafidz. He said: "Woah, now u got 2knw Hafidz secret ah.. Easy lah for u 2get 2knw him betta." I was expressionless. I juz ignore wateva he said. Suresh asked if I was ok. Hah. I told him: "I am OK coz I saw u. Later at hm I will definitely b OK coz I met u n tok 2u." He jus gave a chuckle.
Oh yeah! I did mention tat Hafidz Basri is in SCDF - Singapore Civil Defence Force ryt? I was VERY Sure coz I saw him frm afar, he was wearing an SCDF T-shirt! But Suresh told me yestday tat, Hafidz was in CISCO. WAT?! CISCO? Hello, Hafidz is A level holder u knw! Frm wat I knw those pple in CISCO r those who r sec sch drop-outs. Not even a single ITE graduate/holder in CISCO. Hafidz has A levels, how could he be in CISCO?!
Also, Hafidz's English is superb, like I've written previously. His English is BETTER THAN MINE. So, y in da first plc did he sign up in SCDF?! He can go SAF - Singapore Armed Forces or like wat Suresh is in now: SPF - Singapore Police Force. These 2 Forces (haha) have more non-malays so malays tend 2speak english.
SCDF, if i'm not wrong, there r not many chinese n indians. Majority malay especially those in fire dept. Hafidz is in fire dept. His photo in friendster shows him in his SCDF fire uniform. Even Fadhil's uniform is different frm Hafidz's! Both of them in SCDF but Fadhil is in paramedics dept.
//Err, is there such depts call paramedics and fire? Emergency dept haf lah but I'm not sure if there's a paramedics dept and fire. Hah! Heck care lah!//
So majority of SCDF guy in fire dept r malays and definitely speak malay! Hmm.. maybe Hafidz wanted to brush up on his malay? Wateva for? He scored both English n Malay a B3 in O levels! So tat means both his languages r equally good! Aaa.. heck care lah!
I asked Suresh if he was sure. He said: "Yes, but now he no longer in CISCO. I think he got posted out frm CISCO to SCDF." Now, I AM CONFUSED. WAT DA HELL HAS CISCO GOT 2DO WITH SCDF? R THEY RELATED?! Hmm...
But i didnt voice out my confusion to Suresh as we had to part ways! :( He went to take a bus hm and I haf 2sit at da fountain 2wait for another sec sch frend of mine. I didnt tell Suresh I am meeting her. I had promised her not 2tell anybody. Heh. We had fix our appointment 2meet 4dinner after work 2day.
During dinner time, we tok abt our work life, sch life, abt Hafidz (usual thing) and blah blah. She still kept in touch with Suguna! Gosh! Suguna is another of my sec sch frend! Nazrul like to matchmake her with Suresh! Oh c'mon! Juz becoz both their names start with "Su"? Duh! I knw Nazrul during sec sch very notti,love to disturb frens so I guess he was juz disturbing da 2 of them. Heh..
She tol me tat Suguna is now in Australia!! Wow! How I envy her! Indian families also as conservative as da malay families n I was surprised tat she can study for her degree in Australia!! While me, even if I am not working, studying full time, I wasnt allowed 2go overseas n study!! Argh! She tol me tat Suguna is now taking a Degree in Tourism. But she cant remember which university or part of Australia Suguna is in now. Suguna has like abt 2 years more. Hmm.. Maybe Suguna in da same class/degree/university as another "Su" - Su An, my ex-classmate? Coz Su An is now in Australia too, (Melbourne).
Then I asked her abt another "Su". Haha.. juz how many "Sus" r there in Jin Tai Sec? But tis "Su" is a malay! Sulianah aka Nana. She said Nana n her bf still together. Great! All da best 2 da 2 of them. Both of us forgot wat's Nana's bf name. Funny huh? Nana n her bf same sch with us - JTSS. But I remember one thing: Both Nana n her bf short haha! And my frend, she said: "Dun say like tat lah! Pple already very short leh!" And i went OK OK.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
Exam results for Dec 2004 were out on 11 March. B4 da exam results were out, I have this premonition tat i will fail accounting. However...
I CANT BELIEVE I PASS ACCOUNTING WITH a C GRADE!! Wahaha!! Surprising ryt? Phew! But, it's da opposite.. B4 da exam results were out, i have tis confidence tat i wil pass my Marketing n fail Accounting but its da total opposite!! YEAH!
I PASS ACCOUNTING BUT FAIL MARKETING! Funny ryt? Difficult subject pass, easy subject fail.. Damn! I will need to fork out money again 2pay for my Marketing failed fees! I do not knw how much coz I am now in degree level, i am not sure if da payment is da same.
My exam for IT Management has just been over. It was on 4 March. And da result will b out sumtime in June.. Hmm how do i fair?
Friday, March 11, 2005
its abt him again. dat guy (read march 10, then u knw who i meant)
i did smsed with sum1 who revealed his dark secret 2me but da person didnt wan me 2post our smses here. ok no prob.
ok these smses were on 10 march, a day after i found out da dark secret of sumone.. i was still in a daze confused mood. like couldnt believe y a smart guy like him can be such a jerky horny guy.
i first smsed nazrul. my sms 2him: kau kan rapat dgn hafidz basri asal kau tak tau dia horny
he replied: since when i'm close wif him not me la.
(woah, bukan main lagi dia nak step bebual english dgn aku ni..)
ME: not u ke? opps! salah org. sorry but kau tau dia horny time sec sch?
HE: (i think he was feeling very irritated) i dun knw lah!
(hebat seh si nazrul! i smsed him in malay, he replied in english)
ME: so kau baru tau lah yg dia horny semlm?
(i waited n waited till next morn, he didnt reply, i guess, dia tak kuasa nak layan. hey, org tngh confused mood, need sum1 2tok too lah.. i cant kol ainn coz confirm she didnt pay her hp bill n hence i cant contact her. her parents lived separately, i haf her dad's house no but she wasnt at hm..i guess she was at her mum's plc n i dun haf her mum's hse no.. sigh)
later i went on 2sms suresh. my sms 2him: u were quite close wif hafidz ryt how come u dun knw he is horny?
(silence. i cant take it anymore)
ME: u bz ah? y neva reply? reply me! me now in a confused foul mood! msg me sumting ah yes or no den i ok but u kept quiet only. argh! say sumting la. :(
(for abt an hour still silence den..)
Suresh: Say yes or no?
ME: i dun knw. wat u think? since u knw him more den i knw him.
Suresh: no.
ME: oh ok so u knw tat he is horny only yestday? sorry ah ask so much coz me now in confused state need sum1 2chat to.
Suresh: K
ME: huh? wat k? i was asking u, u only knw he horny when i msg u yestday ah?
Suresh: no..i knw anything hardly abt him. coz we hardly mingle.
ME: Oh ok, so were u surprised at my sms yestday?
Suresh: can say
ME: ic :) ok den thanks 4ur time 2entertain me. i'm a lil ok now. if me still not ok i'l msg u again can?
Suresh: sure
ME: :) thanks gd nite..
Suresh: k gd nite take care...
Thursday, March 10, 2005
Yesterday, all of a sudden I received an sms frm Shuiyan, my friend frm sec sch. The smses were a gr8 shock 2me. Sumone's dark secret has been revealed...
SHE: Actually I wanna ask u, u still in love with hafidz huh?
Note - Him here refers to Hafidz and alamak! Y she made it sound until like tat? Is like not love. Like n love 2 diff meaning.
ME: I dun knw. Actually i also dun knw if i still like him anot.
SHE: Beta give up..he is just another horny fellow
ME: Huh?! Horny? U mean he likes 2do tat thing with girls?
SHE: Thing u neva get is alway wonderful
(I dun really get wat she meant till now)
I was thinking of a reply when she smsed me again.
SHE: I was looking through my phonebook, realise I got his no, so i try msg c if he change his mobile no anot. Still d same, den...
ME: Den wat? U wanna pass me his no?
SHE: No, i wont pass 2u. Dont wanna get u in trouble.
ME: Ok, but wat u mean by: Still da same den...?
SHE: Aiya..i also dun knw how 2explain.
(she still explain 2me, I didnt write here coz she said: Dont tell anyone, a secret between u n me. U my friend so i tell u)
I replied tat sms and she again tol me sumthing which i dun think is appropriate 2write it here so i just kept it 2myself. Then i smsed her again.
ME: I think he frm sec sch alrdy watch those R(A) shows tats y. Tell u hor me last time in sec sch got his house no but i didnt kol him too shy. I asked my friend help me kol den she tol me da next day n subsequent days tat their conversations ah very yucky he asked her a lot of disgusting horny things.
(its true, i got hold of his house no n was too shy to break da ice with him by phone so i asked my friend who was frm another sch to help me ko n check if it is da rite no n if it is, 'make friends' with him when she told me da following day n subsequent days tat he talked a lot of horny stuff 2her n ask me how da hell i can have a crush on tat guy. Tat time, i didnt believe tat da guy she was toking to was Hafidz. I tol her, maybe his brother or cousin. NOW I KNW MY FRIEND DIDNT LIE. SHE DID TOK 2 HAFIDZ 6/7 YEARS AGO)
P/S: I DID WROTE ABT MY FREND HELPING ME TO TOK 2HAFIDZ ON DA PHONE IN MY DIARY BOOK YEAR 1998. I DIDNT REWRITE IT HERE COZ... aiyah..i also dun da reason y!
(Also, no wonder his english is superb! He watched those kind of shows! Those kind of shows are in english so not only he picked up some proper grammar/vocabulary usage of english frm there BUT ALSO.. dun say already)
SHE: Ya, he neva change..alway so horny. I will believe if one day he becomes a sex maniac.
ME: No wonder he no gf i think gals scared tat he may do tat 2them unless they also like it. Thanks 4telling me after all dis while. :)
SHE: Ya,wat in his mind is 2try out all girls gain experience in bed blah blah. So wat 4 2b in love wif dis guy, whereby u wont get 2c him also.
(I dun understand 'whereby u wont get 2c him')
ME: I think ah he also not virgin anymore
SHE: He alrdy not lah he already say he is learner still learning
ME: Sigh y ah clever guys like tat one. He O level go A level clever leh but y horny other guys who not tat clever not horny
(Its true. Hafidz is quite clever. He WAS FROM NORMAL ACADEMIC SEC 5 O and AFTER O, HE WENT TO TAKE A LEVEL..other Normal Acad malay guys after Os, they went poly or ite n other Express malay guys go Poly or ITE after O Level, he outsmart those express malay guys, is tat clever? - dont care chinese, they're diff.)
SHE: Is like tat, tis world got alot of people u never c before one..
ME: Oh ic ok thanks again 4revealing his dark secret. U knock off frm work alrdy?
SHE: hehe gals muz help gals me finish at 6.
ME: Me at 5.30. Ok lor if free or anyting msg me hor. Take care.
SHE: Okie..take care
I also smsed Nazrul. Right after Shuiyan told me tat Hafidz is just another horny fellow, I smsed him: Oh my god! Shuiyan kata Hafidz Basri horny fellow!
NAZRUL: Sorry the late reply. Aku bz baru abis meeting anything I msg u okie..take care. (I forgot to reply him as Shuiyan was smsing me abt da phonebook thing)
P/S: I smsed Suresh too but he didnt reply. Hmm, maybe both of them knws abt Hafidz dark secret but didnt wanna tel me thinking tat i may not believe it? C'mon guys! U're my frens since sec sch of coz I trust U! Sigh..
Now I knw y during sec sch, some of da girls who knw both me n Hafidz gave me a smear look. I dun care. At tat time, there are alot of girls who had a crush on him. So, when they gave me tat smear look, da 1st thing tat comes 2my mind: They were juz plain jealous.
NOW AFTER 7 YEARS(I LIKE HIM SINCE YEAR 1998), I KNW Y DA GIRLS N SOME GUYS GAVE ME A SMEAR LOOK. I WAS SO STUPID 2HAVE A CRUSH ON A GUY LIKE HIM!! Y WAS I SO STUPID AT TAT TIME??! Y ? Y? Y?
Girls, if u r reading tis, my advice: Dont judge a book by its cover. Dun judge a guy juz frm his looks or his brains or his talent. U neva knw he can be a bad guy.
So abt wat I said previously tat I will rewrite watever events in my diary year 1999 n 2000, will it stil be continue? YEAP! this is my blog, SESUKA HATI AKU LAH. In fact, Coz watever i wrote in my diary book in year 1999 n 2000 wasnt only abt him BUT my life in sch, me, Nazrul, shuiyan, Ainn, Fadhil, Suresh blah blah.
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
U shld knw tat I'd alrdy forward HIS profile 2both Suresh and Nazrul. Ok, I shall not beat around da bush. HIS I'm referring is: Hafidz. Muhd Hafidz Basri. If u'd read my entry dated February 2, 22 and March 4(dun worry, there's more 2come), u shld alrdy had guessed da person.
On Sunday (6th March), i smsed both of them (suresh n nazrul)if they had checked their friendster n browse through his profile coz I forwarded his profile to them on Tuesday n send them an sms on Wednesday n both told me tat they can only checked their friendster on weekends as weekdays they tend 2b bz.
On Tuesday, da day I found him in friendster, I forwarded his profile 2them and send them sms: I forwarded sumone's profile 2u. Go and check it out. sumone from Jin Tai. we knw him. Suresh didnt answer but Nazrul did. He asked if da person is a guy or girl. I replied guy. Then silence, he didnt replied. Hmm..
On Sunday, like I've said, I smsed them to ask if they had checked their friendster. Nazrul responded via sms: Dah lah. Hafidz Basri kan? I smiled when I read his sms. I responded: Pandai pun ;p Suresh also responded my sms tat day. His sms: I did, Hafidz ryt? I was smiling. Great 2have them as friends. They can still remember! Remember wat? Well, more to come in my blog so juz wait. Heh.
Yesterday (Monday), I was bored while on my way home from work so I smsed them: Hafidz in friendster, he still look da same huh, his looks I mean. Hehe. Suresh didnt replied. I think he was like 'apa kena dgn budak ni, malas lah nak layan' hah.
Nazrul did respond tat sms of mine. He answered: No la, muka mcm katak gitu kau masih suka dia? WAT? HOW could he call him tat?! Oops, I shld be specific - How could Nazrul call Hafidz 'katak'?!
I answered tat sms of his. MCM katak? Ok la tu, Mcm cerita fairy tale - The Princess and The Frog. He's da frog n I'm da princess. Haha. :P Hmm, utk menjawab pertanyaan kau sama ada aku suka kat dia, entah, aku pun tak tau.
Was my sms very bombastic malay? I dun think so. Wat abt u? Not tat bombastic ryt? WHY was I asking tis? Well, Nazrul replied: Eh, jgn nak berbahasa melayu yg bombastic sgt nanti aku gunakan bahasa melayu aku (coz he scored an A2 in O Level Malay - tak hairan lah) kau tak bleh angkat.
I responded to tat sms. ME: "Setahu aku bahasa yg aku pakai tadi tak la bombastic sgt." NAZRUL: "Ya la dun be so formal la its juz a casual remark from me to ur katak." Amboi! Berbahasa English seh kawan aku yg seorang ni! His English not bad also. Good, well done! So try 2guess did I answer his sms?
I did. ME: Aku tak pelihara katak aku pelihara kucing. So mana bleh kau kata my katak? He didnt reply my sms. Aku rasa dia pun malas nak layan karenah aku. Haha.
Monday, March 07, 2005
On Saturday, 5th March. I went to Career Fair 2005. I didnt want to go but my mum wants me to, so being a filial daughter, I went to Career Fair 2005 held at Suntec City Convention Hall 601 to 603.
Waste my trip and waste my Saturday! Career Fair 2005 was a bore! There were many booths but not about companies wanting for new employment BUT most of the booths are from schools like MDIS(MANAGEMENT DEVELOPMENT INSTITUTE of SINGAPORE),TMC, SIC(SINGAPORE INSTITUTE OF COMMERCE), SIM, NTU, SMU, NUS, blah blah n not forgetting: INFORMATICS n THAMES! Hah! Hey, Thames and Informatics are same ryt? Watever..
Career Fair is more abt 'wat path to take after your O/A levels, ITE/Diploma, blah blah! Guess who I saw there? The moment I step into the hall, I saw one big booth which says: INFORMATICS ACADEMY, and its sub-booths: INFORMATICS COMPUTER, INFORMATICS ENGINEERING, INFORMATICS PROFESSIONAL CENTRE and THAMES BUSINESS SCHOOL. Hah!
2 of my lecturers: One from Computer school(Mr Lim Jyh Ren who taught me: Oracle Database Operator for Windows NT, Data Management, System Development and Introduction to Data Server) n da other from business sch(Mr Francis, will be teaching me once I am in 3rd year degree *smilez) saw me and handed me out a leaflet. I told them no need but they said just take coz it cost them money to print the leaflets. Oh well..
There are other booths abt some companies having a few job vacancies available. I do not knw wat was in my mind when I just went to a booth which published CHOICES magazine and applied for.. Part time writer since da available vacancy is part time. Crazy huh? Writer? But hey, i knw that i can write. I have ideas and imagination. I am not trying to boast but i scored high in Paper 1 English n Malay. Paper 1 is Essay writing(Section A) and letter writing or report writing (Section B). I admit I didnt do well for Section B BUT for Section A i did well. The teachers love my story haha. Lucky we have choices for Section A if not, I dun think I can score tat well coz Section A for Essay writing have 5 choices, Argumentative, Narrative and i forgot wat's da other 3. Of course, I chose Narrative! If they didnt have a choice for Section A..if Section A have to write and Argumentative Essay..I would have failed my english coz Paper 2 which is grammer usage, vocabulary and comprehension, I scored a borderline. Hmm, oral? well, if reading only, it can help but if conversation and picture conversation... u knw my type, I am not outspoken.. Alhamdullilah... I passed my GCE O levels English! Phew!
K, back to da Career Fair. B4 I went to Career Fair, my mum said to me: "Kalau ada kerja kosong kat polis, kau apply la. Tu government." (If there is a vacancy at SPF: Singapore Police Force, apply for it.)
And I was like, huh? "Lembik mcm gini mak nak Maria apply polis? Polis tgk Maria lembik, they also dun want la!" (Huh, I am not daring, very soft and not strong, u want me to apply in police force? They also do not want me ah.) But my mum said i got da wrong idea. She wants me to apply in SPF (non-uniformed) as in worked as an Administrative Clerk in SPF. Ceh! Didnt want to say earlier!
So did I apply? Well, there was no SPF job vacancy BUT there was a Singapore Prison Services job vacancy. I applied for Management Support Officer-handle administrative duties. Other vacancies were also available like Senior Prison Officer, Prison Officer and Liasion Officer - uniformed! I dun want and besides, 'siapa nak jaga si banduan tu semua! Malas lah aku!'
So was tat trip fruitful? WASTE! I wanna applied some other job but I was told to apply ONLINE! Waste my time 2go there. I can juz read up in da newspaper and apply online. I dun have 2come all da way 2Suntec City which is so packed with thousands of pple walking in and out!
U muz b wondering y do I still want to apply for job since I already got a job. My grandma la! She said: "Arent u ashamed of urself? Other pple study at nite but their job, da pay is very outstanding amt of S$1200 n above per month but urs is less than S$800 per month." Sigh.. grandma..grandma..
To me, salary not a problem as long as I am comfortable with da job and happy with da job (i am happy with MY JOB coz I can 'PLAY' Java Games! Haha tell u more some other days) but my grandma she said if I am O LEVEL holder with dat kind of salary, she didnt mind but she said I am a Diploma holder n study for Degree so she mind dat I have dat kind of amt for a salary. Sigh..
Friday, March 04, 2005
Cewah! My malay not bad ah.. Ok..I copied this from my diary book year 1999.. That year, I made more new friends.. that was y the title "A new beginning of friendship" (translated to english).
4 January 1999
I am now in secondary 4.. Cant believe time passes very fast. This year, I am taking a crucial examination: N LEVEL. My new class: 4N1. Any new classmates? No. However, there are a few new students in 4N3. Which sch were they from? Well, they were not from any sch but from last year's sec 4. I will tel u who later.
I am happy to be back in sch,staying at home for damn 2 months - BORED! Now, i am back! Happy to c all my friends again! And I am also happy that Nasir, Hafidz Hassan, Mustaqim, Hisham and Hafidz Basri passed their N levels and promoted to Sec 5.
So, those new students in 4N3...are Suresh, Nazrul and Fadhillah. Well, there are a few more (girls - malay n chinese, and chinese guys.. malay guys..well i knw for sure they cant pass! coz "banyak main!") Why i mentioned Suresh, Nazrul and Fadhillah (i called him Fadhil- cant understand y his parents gave him a girl's name?!) Anyway, da reason y i mentioned Suresh, Nazrul and Fadhil becoz I was shocked to c them in Sec 4N3 today! They are among the "rajin" and smart students. How could they had not do well in N levels and had to repeat? I remembered, to pass N levels, we must score less than 10 for any 3 subjects. Score more than that, either repeat sec 4 or go ITE. So, i guess, they are the lucky ones to be in sec 4 again.
Today, i did not get the chance to break the ice with the 3 of them. During our malay lessons, i did not get a chance to talk to Nazrul. (C'mon! He was only sitting behind me!) I didnt get the chance coz the malay teacher was busy saying all kinds of things to his previous students whom he had taught b4. He said "Jumpa lagi kau orang semua. Senang punye exam tak boleh naik ke sec 5? aku tau knp.. kau orang semua sengaja tak nak pass, ialah tahun depan dah pindah ke sekolah baru, jadi kalau kau orang semua tahun ini sec 5, tak dpt merasa sekolah baru tu..jadi kau orang sengaja tak mau belajar..tak boleh naik ke sec 5..kan?" Woah.. this malay teacher, (he had never taught me malay b4, only this year..first time) 'macam menyindir je'. That was y, i didnt get the chance to speak to Nazrul. I feared Nazrul may think 'aku pun nak sindir dia'.
11 January 1999
I had break the ice with Fadhil.. Well, maybe coz he approached me first. Wat abt the other 2? Well, maybe some other day. Why do i want to break the ice with 3 of them? Becoz of Hafidz Basri? Hmm... i shld think so. As u know, 3 of them knows Hafidz Basri. Suresh was in da same class as Hafidz Basri last year. Nazrul and Fadhil were in da same class as Hafidz Hassan and Nasir. Their classrooms last year were just a level away. Malay class combined. So in my mind, i was thinking.. if i am too shy to break da ice with da Hafidz Basri or Nasir, y not befriend their friend first? Ryt? Since their friends are in sec 4, same level as me. Hehehe..
15 January 1999
I almost wanted to break da ice when da 2 of them started to break da ice first but in an annoyed manner!! Tell u y now.
When da bell rang telling the students that recess time was over, we had to queue up according to our classes. The principal wanted to have a word with 4N3 class becoz one of their classmate played truant and the principal wanted to know if any of 4N3 students knew abt da matter. So, they had to stay back!
One row by one row, went back to their respective class. 5N1, followed by 5N2, 5N3 and 5N4, then 4E1, 4E2, 4E3 and 4E4. Followed by my class and so on.. So, when my class was on da way to our classroom, we walked pass 4N3 and those 2 guys were at da back row. And i was just trying to "sakitkan hati si F.M" who was in 4N3: 'Haha, kena stay back'. But Nazrul and Suresh, "terasa" and they immitate da way i speak: 'Haha, kena stay back', but they are guys and they tried to sound like a girl..so like irritating, annoying and paranoid ryt?! Argh! I think maybe by behaving tat way, marks the beginning of a new friendship? Hmm...
(right justified) To be continued..
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
I cant sleep a wink last nite. Coz I was so damn HAPPY! Why? Well yesterday after work, i went straight to Informatics. Lessons are over, n time for exams but I was asked to go there becoz..I have to go there PERSONALLY to get my exam entry card! (read my february 27, u'l understand wat is entry card) ;p
Anyway, as I was saying I cant sleep a wink ryt? Why? After receiving my exam entry card, I went to da school library to surf internet n i log in to friendster.
Remember da February 28 entry? If u cant remember or havent read, go on, read it in my february archive! Or scroll down till u c February 28, dun b lazy! Hah! ;)
A guy named Faizal from Jurong Institute batch 2000 to 2002, a member of friendster replied me. Well, Yuhan referred me to him (if u had read february 28, im not goin 2repeat) and i asked da same question i had asked Yuhan.
GUESS WAT WAS FAIZAL'S REPLY? HE KNWS HIM!! YES! YES! HE KNWS HIM!! Haha!! Finally!! Sigh.. I shld asked Faizal LONG TIME AGO! Coz Faizal's friendster account stated, he was a member since September 2003 and I have been searching high n low for HIM since last year, 2004..so i shld asked him instead of asking a wrong person. Well, they were not exactly wrong but it was just tat they said: Heard his name, but not close, knws him, notice him but wasnt close..blah blah.. Oh man! On 27th February, I asked Faizal n happens to be da CORRECT person to ask coz Faizal knws HIM very well as they were in da same clique! :D
HOORAY(2x) n guess wat? HE is also a member of Friendster since September 2004!! But I cant view his profile! It seems tat HE set his account to private. Argh!! However, I was able to view his pic in friendster!! Haha!! I saved tat photo.. ;p
Oh, was his name in friendster? Well, if he were to put his name in friendster, 'dah lama aku jumpa dia di friendster' but HE used a nickname in friendster. No wonder when I typed in his name in desperation to search for him, i was directed to others' profile (those who has da same name as him)
Huh? His nickname in friendster? WONT say it here! Tats for me to knw n for u 2find out! Haha.. Only me, Suresh n Nazrul knw. Yup! I forward HIS profile to them! :)
Did I add him? Like I'd said, if I cant view his profile except his photo, how to add him? Send msg? I decided not to first because.. HIS friendster account stated tat HE last login on Friday, 4 February!! WAT?! Tat's almost a month!! So if I send him a msg I dun think he will login today n replied!
Ok! Got to work! I am posting my new entry for my blogspot, discreetly.. haha.. I am STILL under SUPERVISION at work! *Eyes rolling* Gotta go! See ya!
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Its going to be 3 months since I worked in Kyocera. I am working in Kyocera which deals with Java Games for handphones. Cool isnt it? Everyday, i come to work, other than answering phone calls by customers who have problem downloading, I also can 'play' with ALL kinds of Java Games!! Wahaha.. Dun b jealous ah!
Now, I was browsing nokia.com.sg. 4 new phones will be out by this year: NOKIA 6101,6235,6680 N 6681. Cool.. I like Nokia 6101, flip flop phone.. hehe..
Abt Nokia 6101: The Nokia 6101 is a small and sophisticated phone that complements your spontaneous and fun-loving personality. Reliable and easy to use, you can take portraits of yourself in your new hairdo, chill out to your favorite songs via the FM stereo radio and stay connected to your friends and family. The Nokia 6101 ? less fuss is more fun!
Nokia 6235: Nokia 6235 CDMA shows off your creative skills and individuality. Capture and view your images with the integrated VGA camera and video recorder. Connect to the intervet via the WAP 2.0 Browser to share your images or for the latest in news and entertainment. With enhanced features to express your unique personality such as voice recording as ringtones, this phone is a top-notch performer!
6680: See more with the stylish and powerful Nokia 6680 smartphone. Fast connections with WCDMA and EDGE and two integrated cameras enable you to experience video calls, allowing your caller to see you and your environment in real time. It has a powerful email client that provides a push email type of experience and office document viewers to support you on the move. You can take high quality pictures with the 1.3 megapixel camera that has 6x smooth digital zoom, integrated flash and a camera slide for control and activation. You can also print your photos directly via USB to PictBridge compliant printers, Bluetooth wireless technology and from MMC.
Lastly 6681: See more of life with the stylish Nokia 6681 smartphone. Equipped with advanced imaging features such as the 1.3 megapixel camera that has 6x digital zoom, integrated LED flash and a camera slide for control and activation, you are assured of a rich multimedia experience. You can share high quality images and videos via email and MMS. You can also print your photos directly via USB to PictBridge compliant printers, Bluetooth wireless technology and from MMC. Fast connections with EDGE technologies enable you to experience convenient web browsing (HTML/xHTML/ WML). It has a powerful email client that provides a push email type of experience and office document viewers to support you on the move.