Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Remember my entry dated 6 August 2006, (http://puteri-maria.blogspot.com/2006/08/b-tks.html) abt a confession B revealed to me? B4, I go on any further let me tell u tat da confession made is neither a good or bad news to me.. I will tell u y aft I revealed to all of u da confession.. Me and B.. are close..yes.. Very close but my definition of close is FRIENDSHIP.. I didnt treat him like a colleague anymore.. I treat him as a friend.. Juz a friend.. not more than tat.. I was abt to ask him but b4 I cld ask, he admitted to me.. NOTE: He didnt revealed everything to me all in 1 day.. He told me bit by bit daily via sms, phone, MsN and face-to-face talk. I compiled everything into one entry.. Me: U havent had any gf u alrdy talk abt quarrel??!! He: Wat u look for in a guy? Me: responsibility, sincerity, honest, reliable, hardworking, fun, easy-going, truthful, lovable, loving, caring, concern, kind, considerate, loves to make me happy Me: Den wat u look for in a gal? He: 1) Neva like to spent my $$$. 2) Let me spend her $$$ and 3) give half her salary to me.. He: Tat is my serious ans.. (i den heard laughter on da other line) He: no lah.. Ok u ask me again.. Me: (feeling annoyed and irritated) Wat u look for in a gal? He: Sumone whom I feel comfortable with watever i do lor.. Me: Ok Me: Abt ur question da other day.. Y do u ask if we cld work things out? (there was a pause.. )He: Well, I dun want u to think tat I am leading u on.. or get wrong idea. Me: (in confusion) huh? He: If I say i juz want to be friends with u and no intention of being more than a friend yet, anything gonna happen to u? My god!! He made it sounds like I am desperate for his love and I will sumhow 'commit suicide' if he is not my bf?!!! C'mon la!! I am not tat type!! Me: U think I am interested in you ah? (Allow me to repeat >> Abg Sufian has emphasized to me many times to play hard to get = jual mahal) He: U not interested in me? Me: no lah.. u not interested in me rite? He: ya, no.. if not i stress.. Me: U stress? y u stress? HE: ya lah if i interested in u means i have to make u my gf but aft u b my gf, i will stress.. Me: How come? Wat pressure will I give u? He: u didnt give me pressure.. our situation give us pressure.. both of us working and studying wat.. da money we earn is to pay for our course and for our other expenses.. to go dating we need money..if no money..how to date.. Me: (I do have to agree with his statement) So.. ? He: So, we r only friends la.. Me: Set. He: U not upset ah? Me: Y muz I b upset? U think I so eager one ah? He: ya lar.. i thot u misunderstood da idea.. coz of wat i'd done.. Me: Wat have u done? He: Escort u to sch, to mrt station, sms u asking where r u, reach hm alrdy so call being concern to u lah and b4 i went reservist.. i sms u chinese character msg da chinese proverb and ur chinese teacher help u translate and ur chinese teacher said da msg is abt missing sumone.. i scare u get wrong idea..yes, i will going to miss u but as a friend. Me: I understand He: And i dun wan u to misinterpret PW's msg to u. She told u I want to get to knw u rite? I want to get to knw u as friends.. Me: I knw. He: But i scared u may think I am interested in you tats y I want to knw u.. Me: No la.. Want to get to knw a person has 2 meanings wat.. A gal can also get to knw another gal NOT becoz she is interested in tat gal but to extend friendship.. Ok wat.. He: (nodded and smile) So, B and I are officially friends.. We are more than juz colleagues.. We are friends but we are not close friends as yet. It takes time to knw each other. Wat we like and dislike.. Like I'd mentioned, tis is neither good or bad news to me.. For now, I prefer to remain single. I have lots of achievement to fulfil. Having a bf will be an obstacle to me frm achieving wat I want. I wish to think abt my future and tat future is not to have a bf.. Tat future I wish to accomplish is more impt than having a bf. To be happy, one does not necessarily need to have a bf. As for me, I am only happy when I have attained wat I want for my future.. So, tat is my explanation for his above confession. I have no hard feelings abt it.. Tis is merely a friend to friend talk and not a situation whereby I was rejected. Let me repeat once again.. P/S: Congratz to JS for da birth of her baby gal.. :) B and me are friends.. Friends who can mingle very well.
He: I think aft i finish studies then can find gf.. I am not superman who can do many things at one go.. I need to work, go for classes, do assignments and revisions.. Where got time to date. Agree?(Since I am working and studying too, I have to agree with him so I juz nodded my head)
HE: Furthermore wat if i quarrel with my gf when exam time.. (tis is going overboard..)
HE: Must think ahead wat..
ME: But if ur gf happens to be da understanding type.. Shldnt b a prob..
He: But sometimes, I dun understand women
ME: Y?
He: sometimes they can be nice to u but then in the next minute change all of a sudden
Me: r u referring to anybody?
He: ya
Me: including me, J and PW?
He: ya (I was amazed by his ans but i didnt dare ask him further as tat particular question might have something to do with his past. I barely knw him so I dun think it is very pleasant to knw or ask of his personal life. I suspect it muz be abt his past love life b4.. Didnt wana ask much. So juz forget it)
He: now lets talk abt us
Me: us?
He: ya us
Me: (feeling uneasy) Wat is it abt us?
HE: How u rate our friendship being 1 is da lowest and 10 da highest..
Me: 5
He: Ceh, 5 only and u bother me so much
ME: (shocked) i bother u? Sorry, i dun get u..
He: nvm
Me: den wat abt u? how u rate me?
He: y u like to ask back da same question I ask u?
Me: y cannot ah? (at first,there was silence, den...)
He: Out of 70 i say 50.
Me: 50 over 70?
He: ya
Me: tat means I give u low marks la like tat.. i give u 5 over 10 convert its 50 over 100.. u give me 50 over 70 convert its 71.4 over 100. so high ah..? (he didnt ans anything)
He: Do u think da 2 of us can work things out?
Me: (*eyes wide open*) no lah how can, we friends only. (abg Sofian had emphasize me many times: Play hard to get.. dun b too hopeful)
Me: Y u ask?
He: nothing
Me: ok
