Anugerah, malay annual singing competition is here again. Debuts on 9th August(special edition) and airs every Monday 8.30pm.

Although I am more into English songs coz I listen to more english than malay, I still watch it coz..its a singing competition show. Pluz, i can learn some new malay songs frm there. Rite now..da song RELAKU PUJUK by Spider is currently playing repeatedly in my head..



Out of all those who attend.. Only da best 24 are in da competition. Den down to Top 16. Andre Laksamana, a Chinese-Indonesia who is in Top 16, have to withdraw frm da competition becoz he has to go to Georgia, Atlanta in da US for his job commitment - which meant job promotion.

Darn..i find tat such a waste. In da first round (Top 24), he sang his own composition. [For those gundus who dun understand: He wrote his own songs and he sang his own songs] Hence, tat makes him in Top 16.

But luck wasnt on his side so he has to withdraw and I am proud of da person who took over him. Nurliza Dayana.. Although I dun knw her n she doesnt knw me.. I often (b4 da competition) saw her wandering around our neighbourhood! Yeah.. My mum also said so... my mum said Nurliza was Khalid's senior in both pri n sec schs coz both of them went to da same pri n sec sch. Hmm.. Khalid is now 15, I think she's 17 or 18. Well done! Keep it up..

In Anugerah.. 50% of da results will be by us! Another 50% by judges, unless it is da finals it will be 30% by us and da remaining 70% by judges.

So, as usual I watched da show not only becoz I want more knwledge on Malay songs.. but also to hehe.. drool at sum guys.. LoL..

Since there were 24...they were divided into 2 groups.. den down to Top 16 also split into 2 groups.. Every week i must NOT miss da show even if i will b at WESSC!! Coz in both groups have 4 guys making da gerls drool... Haha..

Here are da guys who make me drool n glued on to da TV.. (during da repeat broadcast on Sundays coz on Mondays at 8.30pm I was still at WESSC..juz finishing my tuition and too noizy to watch Anugerah.. huh? Yup..there's tv at WESSC)

*winkz* sshhh.... MY VERY FAVOURITE:


So..vote for da above guys OK? Hehe.. U knw wat? My mum commented, "Si Khairil cantik budaknya.. mata dia cantik.." I was smiling frm ear to ear..grinning to myself..drooling in front of da tv when she said tat!! Hmm.. she's rite though.. He does have beautiful eyes.. Hmm..dia single tak? LoL...

Amyria pours her heart out @ 7:52 pm   |

sobber heart always come wif a miserable life... perhaps its da way our thinking is... however, its juz hard for me to change tat mindset...

pple once said tat dreams r only real when u pursue in it... but wats da point of it when peers gave u mentally support whereas parents dun seem to agree to it? maybe and maybe dreams are only to be pursue when u have the ability to do so... without time and capital support, there is nothing much a young adult could do... there had been alot of plans going in and out of my mind... turning in to study of psychology, study of science, signing on, or simply ending all troubles by doing silly stuffs tat is enuff to end all. i am still at a lost...
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We r all creations of God. How ironical tat we spend most of our lifespan studying and working so as to survive to live a life tat does not even look worth it. Wat do we get out of it? Relentless as just to live a comfortable life. Even after all tat, nothing is guaranteed. So as to say, freedom from these tie-downs would come only after retirement. Nothing to worry about cos all is well but just look at it. Da end product is at extreme ends. A long punt forward isnt it? When you kick da bucket, wat do you get? U leave everything behind. So much for saying to urself tat u made it to live a happy life. Work over 60 years to achieve those credentials, then u roughly spend about 5 years trying to enjoy the fruits of labour then suddenly u die. U lose. So y does da secular corporate system work tis way? Totally sucks. U lose out in da afterworld. We need to get the best out of both worlds. How to opt out of this bloody system when the cold fact is tat u cant. Adapt. Difficulty may arise to balance both but we have our responsibilities. Wat is worthiness if it all comes easily? Good things dun come easy ok? Im speaking out just as to remind myself and others before its too late. Reminders to help da often astray human minds remember.

Amyria pours her heart out @ 9:43 am   |

WHY AM I BORN TO B A GIRL? WHY AM I BORN MALAY? A depression topic to discuss.

A question I have 2ask and its OK if u pple CANT answer it. IS IT COMPULSORY for WOMEN TO KNW HOUSEWORK (esp COOKING?) If i were 2 ans, "yes," don't u think its UNFAIR? I always hear da term 'Housewife' but how come there isnt any term for "Househusband"?

If I were to ans: "No", A LOT OF BURNING QUESTIONS like, "U're alrdy 22 n u sure dun knw how to cook a single dish?"

Anyway, if women dun knw how to cook, ITS NOT A BIG ISSUE, ISNT IT? Men can do da cooking too!

I KNW I DUN LIKE cooking, hence I DUN WISH TO LEARN. Coz WHENEVER IF I'M HUNGRY, there's always a food centre nearby. I WONT STARVE to death!

But y r my family members (my mum & grandma) FORCING me? I REALLY HATE IT WHEN PPLE FORCING ME 2DO THINGS WHICH I DUN WANNA DO!! Even if those pple r my family members!

Da only reason they gave me: U R IN DA PROCESS OF GROWING 2B A WOMAN. U SHLD KNW AT LEAST HOW 2COOK. Even if u DO NOT WANNA COOK, PPLE WILL NOT SAY U R LAZY; THEY WILL SAY U DUN KNW HOW TO COOK. Y HER FEMALE FAMILY MEMBERS DUN NOT WANT TO TEACH HER - our REPUTATION WILL B TARNISH

Y muz they care wat others say? They cant force me 2 learn cooking JUZ NOT TO LET THOSE IDIOTIC BUSYBODIES TOKING BAD ABT THEM?!

WHY AM I BORN MALAY? Malays have tis habit of 'jaga tepi kain org!' KPO! If they knw 'anak dara sulung Sapiah' dun knw how to cook, they will 'bawa mulut sana sini' & my mum will eventually got to knw abt it n will feel ashamed becoz of me!

I UNDERSTAND TAT! I HAD TOLD HER, "U dun haf 2worry abt wat pple gonna say abt u n granny." (Saying sumthing like, "Mak dia dan nenek dia tak mau ajar ke - Her mum n grandma didnt teach her cook ah?) Its not ur fault or granny's. I, MYSELF DUN WISH TO LEARN COOKING!"

But my mum said, "Kita kan org melayu.." (tis, I translate to Eng: It has been malay tradition since da olden days tat women are meant 2b housewifE! I find tat very CRAPPY!)

and she continued, "Even if u urself think tat u r da one who doesnt wanna learn cooking, will those pple knw? NO! All they knw is ur mum n ur grandman didnt teach u n will get a bad name!"

FCUK is a perfect vulgar to use to those idiotics busybodies out there who like to 'jaga tepi kain org!' Becoz of tat.. AKU JADI SASARAN!! I STRESS!!! I WAS BEEN PRESURSURIZE by all these!!! If only my mum wldnt knw those busybodies aunties!! Wldnt tat b better?!

AKU NYE SUKALAH AKU NAK LEARN COOKING OR NOT! In my opinion, COOKING IS NOT IMPORTANT! Like, I'd written, if we're hungry, we can buy food frm fast-food restaurant, kopitiam or hawker/food centre. Y worry?! In fact, those pple in hawker/food centre..they earned a living..dun u knw tat? They earned a living n have to pay da rent of da stall every month.. if we all cook n dun wanna buy frm them...how r they themselves gonna live?!

I did tell tat 2 both my mum & grandma but they said, "Everyday u buy food there for more than once if u want..money not wasted ah?! And those pple cook, they didnt use NO CHOLESTROL COOKING OIL, they used da usual cooking oil, wait u fall sick or grow fat..how?" Argh!! WATEVER I SAY DOESNT WORK!

Sumtimes, my grandma likes to mock at me, humiliate me saying sumthing like: "Ur cousins since age 10, has learnt how to do housework and now learning to cook. BUT u r 21 gonna be 22 n.. " She went on n on...

Born a guy better! coz if dun knw how to cook, no issues watsoever, n not compulsory for guys to learn cooking..

I think its FATE.. So wateva consequences/criticisms I faced, I have to endure. I wanna be myself. And being myself is 2do wat I want n not doing wat I dun wan

Those pple who happened to read tis entry, if u knw me, dun even think of asking silly questions like, "How to marry if u dun knw cooking." to me coz I AM NOT GOING TO ENTERTAIN~~ Juz shut ur bloody mouth up and leave me 2 lead my OWN LIFE ALONE!

tis issue abt me not knwing cooking or/and others making such a big fuss abt it..does not end here..it will continue..

Amyria pours her heart out @ 9:51 pm   |

Cant rem tis is part no wat alrdy. Rem i rewrote my past diary entries since Feb? I kinda forgot to continue it in July! So here goes, da continuation n REMEMBER: TIS WAS WAT I WROTE EXACTLY IN MY PAST DIARY, I DIDNT CHANGE ANY WORDS/PHRASES or WATEVER!! And also, aft knwing sumone's disgusting secret, i used pseudonym "H.B" As i dun wish 2rem his name - although, there is tis new member who joined WESSC has da same name as him. Neva mind. Cant help it. - THe world tend to have many pple wif da same names.

22 SEPT 1999

Hi, 2day is dan 2nd week i stayed at home. Tmr, i will have a birthday invitation. On Sat, I have to accompany my younger sister to Science Centre Trip. So, i guess, wont be a boring day for me.

N Level examination has juz ended last week in sum schools. I am still brooding over wat will b da outcome of my N Level results. H.B scored 6 points for best 3 subjects! I muz score same as him or even better! Haha! He scored ONE for ENGLISH, TWO for History (i think) and THREE for GEOGRAPHY or MALAY? DUn knw. HIs Science n Maths, i heard, he scored a FIVE. Hah! Hmm..how is his preparation for his Os?

Speaking of him, 2day, when i was going to send my brother to sch at abt 12.48pm, I saw..guess who?? Hafidz Hassan, H.B, Hairi, Haidir, Hisham! (THe "H" Gang!), Nazri and Nasir! I wonder y were they back so early? Oh! Now i remember! For two weeks, 14 Sept to 25 Sept is da PRELIMINARY EXAMINATIONS 'O' Levels. No wonder, I 'caught' them going to Ginza Plaza. Since I was going there too, I followed them, as usual, spy.

But, da moment i reached Ginza, I cant find them anywhere! Where da hell they gone too! Hmm.. Aku nak cungkil rahsia pun tak boleh.

THen at abt 4.52pm, tat Nazrul left me a voice msg on my pager. I almost could not recognize his voice! If he didnt knw how to leave a msg, dun leave! He left tis msg: "Hello, did I disturb u? I juz want to wish u gd luck on I dun knw wat." Huh? He xiao oh wat?!

23 SEPT 1999

Oh! 2day is da worst day! If i do not need to take or fetch my younger siblings frm sch, it wld not happen. But.. wat to do, when u've got to go, u've got to go..

k, at 11 am, I was at West Coast Community Centre waiting to fetch my younger sister home when i saw Diatomic Harmony members, Haidir, Hairi and H.B. YES! HIM! When i saw them, I juz acted as if I had seen nobody.

Then, I juz watch where they were heading. Ceh! Want to go shop, juz go other way la, y muz walk at West Coast Community Centre?

24 Sept 1999

Wat do u knw? Its da O Level Prelim exams. No wonder i saw them yestday at around 11a.m outside sch.. i thot they ponteng or cabut, so its becoz they had finished their paper!

2day, I saw da same guys again at da same plc. I think, they knw I will be at West Coast Community Centre to fetch my younger sis so they went there. When they noticed tat i was actually watching them, H.B picked up a public phone n "call" sumbody. Hmm..if they wanna use public phones, cant they use da public phones in our sch? In fact, we had 2! Mereka sengaja tau!
But it gd also lah.. can still c H.B.. hehehehe

7 Oct 1999

2day, I didnt go to sch. Not to worry. N LEVEL EXAMS r OVER! Why have to go to sch? Do wat? We cant play games unlike when we were in Pri 6, aft PSLE..still have to come to sch, we played games.

Den Nazrul called me. We had a chit chat. He asked if i wanna come to sch tmr. Hmm.. I think y not.. in fact, i didnt even do anything at hm besides listening to CDs.. so i told him, "Yes."

As tmr is Friday, he laughed n said, "Buat pe kau nak dtg sekolah?! Buang masa je!. Oh aku tau..nak jumpa H.B kan..." Sigh.. Nazrul ni tak abis-abis lah.. always sakat me n him!!

20 Oct 1999

(sigh) i am tired! Y? Today we went to excursion to Singapore Navy at Tuas! Not only it is tiring but boring! If I had knwn its gonna b boring, I wont come or go to da excursion!

When we reached sch aft da excursion. I saw da Sec 5s and Sec 4 Express outside da Science laboratory. Oh! I forgot! It is their 'O' Levels Practical Exams. I wish "them" luck. Who's "them". U shld have knwn by now.

I woN a free ticket in da PERFECT 10 Quiz!! Ahh!! Its a movie ticket: You Drive Me Crazy starring Melissa Joan Hart. But there's one thing to worry! I have to get da ticket at Orchard Cineleisure - my grandma doesnt like me to go to Orchard.. no idea y. hUh? Go there secretly.. Dun think so... scared.. God knws wat i did. Sigh.. Y cant i b like my friends? They have freedom but not me. I cant have freedom. So, maybe becoz of her not giving me freedom, all those schmates/classmates of mine thot i am very introvert, unfriendly, unsocialble n etcetra. How i wish i could b reborn again and be a different Maria aka Amy Maria...

Oh..tmr is H.B's birthday!!!

Amyria pours her heart out @ 3:46 pm   |

Da reason y i wrote tat particular entry is because:

If i dun allow my family members STOPPING Me frm applying at NIE, I also allow dun allow pple outside my family to stop me as well!

Well, if u'd read my blog entry on 8th July, (i think) i blogged abt my mum. If u can remember, I said, my mum DIDNT KNW DA MEANING OF PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL. She interferes wif my privacy. I hate it! Yes, I knw - to tell her - tat i dun wan her to interfere my privacy - but i ended up being scolded instead! Her ans is always, "I am ur mother n u r my daughter. I have da right to knw wat u r up to." CrapZ!

U see, I applied at NIE using my private Diploma. I knw tat my private diploma will not going to be recognize. I have asked NIE b4 hence I dun wanna apply as yet. But ever since da day, I signed my name as a gurantor for my cousin - her application to be a trainee teacher is successful - so I tried again to apply.

Den juz recently, i think my mum checked da letter box b4 me. Like I have said, she DIDNT KNW DA MEANING OF PRIVATE N CONFIDENTIAL. So when she saw an envelope FOR ME wif da words, PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL, she is da one who read it first!

So when i came back, she approached me n asked, "when do u apply?" I have no idea wat da hell she was asking till she showed me da letter. Dratz! she read it first before me! I was too tired to ans her but i knw my mum! She will wait till I ans her question. No choice, I told her.

I thot tat was over. But aft having my dinner, and I was enjoying myself comfortably listening to songs in my laptop when she came into my room n bombard me with questions again. And tis time, my grandma heard it. She thot i applied for a job n she wanted to knw more like wat kinda job was tat. My mum told her tat i didnt apply for a job but i applied for a teacher-training.

Guess wat?! She fired up at me! She said (translate to English), "U ah... not tired ah! When u wanna stop studying?! Dun follow pple - she was referring to Nadiah." When i told them tat i didnt follow any pple, I follow my heart n i told them tat I HAD ALWAYS WANNA B A TEACHER, same thing...no use: They fired up at me!

My mum doesnt allow me to apply tat teacher training ever again! She said dun ever apply. My grandma alrdy gave me a warning, not to apply, if apply get accepted, she will tell all my cousins n uncles n aunts NOT to be my gurantor!

WHY?! All mothers shld b encourage have their child tlo apply a profession like a teacher! But y is my family da opposite! They said Nadiah apply as a teacher not becoz she really wans 2b a teacher but becoz she applied to a lot of jobs along wif her Chinese friends but her Chinese friends got da job n not her. Since they said tat, I talked back at them, "Tats Nadiah. I am proud of her! Being a teacher is not her ambition (altho it is but they thot otherwise) n she applied. For me, teaching has always been my ambition y cant u let me apply?!"

But still they said NOT TO APPLY! They said if i were to fail, who will wanna pay tat bond? I knw tat being a teacher, n we failed, we had to pay a huge amt of money. They said, "who's gonna pay? u will go crazy u knw! where to get $60,000 to $70,000?!" C'mon! Y r they thinking negatively?! Be positive!!!

It is all tat bloody news fault! Remember da article sumtime in February abt Siti Suhana Sa'at - tats her name, i think? Because of tat article, maybe tat was da reason Y my mum n grandma discouraged me frm applying. They scared tat if i were to fail (they knw i will, they said my voice is not loud n clear n firm enuff) i will have to pay a certain huge amt tat can neva end up paying till my age is 50 or 60. And y grandma said, "pple at tat age shld have enjoy life but u paying ur debts. Like tat men dun wanna u coz u no money! u use ur money to pay ur debts!" HELLO! Y is my grandma saying tat?! Who says i wanna marry?! As wat Anura had said, "mulut aku masin", n so if i said i dun wanna marry, i will not want to marry!

Anyway, mayb b coz of tat article..i WAS DISCOURAGED by them!! Cant they think positively for a while? They shld b happy of tis ambition tat i have. Abt da bond, they shld say sumthing like, "I knw u can do it. Pass da teacher-training exams n da bond u do not need 2pay." But INSTEAD OF SAYING TAT, i was ASKED NOT TO APPLY!!!

MY mum..she said, "lain yg aku suruh kau apply lain yg kau apply." Meaning, she actually asking me to apply for tis job at ICA >> Immigration Checkpoint Authority as a Customer Support Assistant/Officer. Salary is $1600, Diploma level, $1300, 3 GCE O levels and $1000 for 5 N levels passes. I had guess it! I dun no y my mum is too money faced! She kept on pressurizing me to apply to ICA job coz of da salary! She said if my pirvate diploma wasnt accepted, i can still get da job with da pay $1400 at least coz i have more than 3 GCE O levels. Duh... Also, she heard of another job >> Customer Service n da pay is $2000. She wans me to apply.

When i told her i dun wish to apply, she went enraged man! She said, "I cant believe u so choosy abt jobs." How i wish to tell her tat I AM NOT FUSSY OR CHOOSY ABT JOB! SO WAT IF DA JOB, DA PAY IS VERY HIGH BUT ENDED UP I DUN LIKE DA JOB?! If u wanna apply for a job, den salary is da last few things you shld care abt.

Also, she heard tat tis Sheng Shiong Supermarket at Clementi, newly opened needs a clerk. I knw, i saw tat notice right at da doorstep when i came in but i dun wish to apply. Why? Juz read da name of da supermarket: SHENG SHIONG. It is a chinese kinda name. Definitely they need those who can speak Mandarin for their clerk! I dun wanna waste my time to apply! However, my mum went there on a later half of da day n saw tat notice. Apa lagi, when she came back, kat depan pintu tu jugak she shouted across at me as i was in my room, "Kau talipon nombor ni. blah blah.. Sheng Shiong nak pakai clerk. Kau call esok (becoz tat day was a Sunday). Mana lah tau kau call esok, dia panggil interview ke. Dpt kat situ dekat. Gaji $1200 pun alrite." Did I call? Apparently on Monday (yestday) i forgot. Wah.. My mum during her lunch time, called me u knw! while i was on my way to workShe called to ask whether I had call tat no. I told her no. She was damn frustrated man! So i told her, "I have a sch assignment which is due tis Thursday. Since my woking hours are 1pm to 5.30pm, y not i make use of da morning time to do my assignment. Tats more impt." Sigh.. No use my mum said, "U juz called da no, it wont take 3 hrs! Its juz 5 mins. Its a matter of u wan or dun wan!"

When i got back hm, i told my grnadma its not tat i dun wanna apply. But i knw definitely they need a chinese person coz da name of da supermarket sounded so. She said juz call da number tmr(which is today) to appease her. I did. And I had alrdy expected it. When I call, they asked, "chinese or malay?" Of coz I answer tat I am da latter! Den with their broken english, they said, "We want Chinese coz we all english no gd, sum cannot even read english so if have chinese working for us, can help us translate those paper work." Dun understand? They merely said, "Sorry, we expecting a Chinese to call us because our knowledge of English is unlimited. We need a Chinese to help us read and deal all the invoices, quotations.. blah blah." I had told tat 2my mum. She juz kept quiet. She asked how da way they speak English 2me. I had alrdy told her, "dia mcm nak ckp word ni in English, lama dia baru boleh ckp, abih words lain dia ckp pelat."

Translate: "She was like struggling to say a certain word. It took her quite a long time to say tat certain word. And some of da other words, she cant pronounce properly." Den my mum said, "Oh...Cina kampung la tu semua yg kerja kat situ." Den i said to her: "Dah tau mcm tu, asal suruh org apply?" She: "Try aje!" Yeah rite! Like tat i can also 'try aje' to apply as a teacher!

It is all da news fault! Da article sumtime in February abt Siti Suhana Sa'at. Because of tat article, my family has no faith tat i can b a teacher successfully w/o a need to pay da bond! Y muz she published her story in da papers?! Watever for? to tell all those teacher-wanna-be to think b4 applying da job? To worry all those parents of teacher-wanna-be?! Or to show her sad mourning face (she didnt show her face in da paper, guess to ashamed or da newspaper reporter doesnt wan to? No idea) n gain sympathy frm readers?!

Maybe also coincidently tat it was a Thursday! I have nite class every Thursday so my mum checked da letter box n da letter frm NIE/MOE is in there. I have said it n gonna say it again, my mum will tear out da envelope n read da contents of da letter coz da envelope says, PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL and she thot i had applied for any government job w/o her knwledge so she wanna kaypoh read. When she read tat it was actually a teacher training course, all those things happen! ARGH!

Y!!! I HAVE THIS KIND OF FAMILY?! FIRST, WHEN I APPLIED FOR CURTIN UNIVERSITY OF TECHNOLOGY for my Bachelor of Comerce in Information Technology, den I changed course no longer want computing coz i have enuff of programming so i changed it to business course. I have to go there for 2.5 yrs for my degree. YES! There in Perth, Australia. Coz they only allowed distant learning for Information Technology degree n not other degree! IF i dun change course, i dun have to go there, for my I.T degree juz study here but since i wanna change course, I have to go there.. to PERTH, AUSTRALIA. I dun mind... But wat happen? I wasnt allowed! They said i am a girl. Too dangerous lah blah blah.. Sharon Ismail went to pursue her studies in England a few years ago, Haney Hadad studied in Australia a few years ago! Oh and Farah aka Falalala is now in Melbourne, studying at RMIT University. How come their parents allow them? How come their parents can think positively n not mine! Dun they knw tat is an advantage to study overseas? We can b independent! We r all alone in pple's country so we have to b independent! Definitely we can find friends frm Asia or better still frm SG and we wont b lonely!

Becoz of tat, I have to change university which doesnt require me to go there for exams or studies n tats tis university which i am their distant learning graduate now: University of Wales, United Kingdom. I cant get to any other Australian degree coz all offer distant learning to Computing degree n not Business degree n i have enuff of programming. I have read da overview of degree subjects.. So many programming words i found in there!

Sigh.. I had always want to have an Australian degree, but ended up getting UK degree instead. Still i dun mind coz it is also an overseas degree but sumhow i think Australian degree is better n well recognized than any other overseas degrees! :(

I will continue to apply at NIE via online after my graduation, Sept 2007. Hopefully or mayb they had forgotten abt it n changed their mind n if they didnt, I dun care! I am determine!

P/S: Watched Shooting Stars juz now... OH MY GOD!!! I SAW HIM!! SAW WHO?! H.A.I.Z.A.D!!! HAIZAD!! AW... must not goin 2miss it, definitely there will be more of him.. (",)

Amyria pours her heart out @ 9:24 pm   |

This is wat i learn, "Always believed tat I wld achieve my dreams. The world is unpredictable. It is not anybody to tell ME wat I can do, and wat I cannot do. So give MY dreams a shot. Fear of failure is da only thing tat will stop ME frm achieving wat I am capable of. But if I dont try, I will neva achieve anything."

And tats wat i'm gonna do. Keep on applying to NIE >> NATIONAL INSTITUTE OF EDUCATION no matter wat!

As I'd written, if i dun try, i will not gonna achieve anything. So i am gonna try n try n try till i get it! Even if it takes me 100 yrs, i will try n try n try. So for those pple who believes tat i cant be a teacher, juz shut ur fucking mouth n sit quietly in a dark corner ok? Dun b a busybody to life!!

Amyria pours her heart out @ 11:42 pm   |

Hi. My name is Maria Slamat and i can be much of a crap. I can crap non-stop despite having gotten into trouble many times before coz of it.

Hi. My name is Maria Slamat and I am odium (is tat how u spell it?) towards low morale pple. Odium towards pple who didnt show any care n concern towards animals ESP cats! Odium towards pple who didnt really knw me but they say lotsa exagerating things abt me as if they knw me pretty well!

Hi. My name is Maria Slamat and I love to sing. My mum loves to sing. My younger bro loves to sing. It runs in da family. I dun care wat pple say abt my voice or watever, I juz love to sing. Singing has always been my passion since young.

Hi. My name is Maria Slamat and I have many regrets in life. I REGRET MANY TIMES WHEN I DID NOT STAND UP FOR MYSELF, till I GET BULLIED N idiotics morons called me SILLY NAMES. I regret when i feel vulnerable and taken advantage of and i regret being naive.

Hi. My name is Maria Slamat and I have a determination. Determination tat I can achieve my childhood dreams of being a teacher n no f***ing idiot or pple or obstacles can ever stop me.

Hi. My name is Maria Slamat. I admit I'm nice and I wont bite.. I may crap a lot but tats juz an exterior,. deep down inside, i'm as soft as a pandan sponge cake.. YUMMMMMM...

Amyria pours her heart out @ 11:08 am   |

Hmm... didnt go to da Padang, for da National Day parade as usual.. But me n family (except Khalid, who wished to go for Soccer Game instead) went to Jurong East!! Watever for? For da National Day celebration la! But damn! We went there a bit late. At 7pm, n my dad cant even park da car, as there were a lot of vehicles too. Wow! Wat a lot of pple!! There r all over! a few hundreds outside Jurong East Library, another few hundreds outside my sch campus (INFORMATICS), a thousand (i think) standing at da overhead bridge..juz to wait for......

yeap! to c da FIREWORKS! Wat do u think?! I took da above pic in our car coz we cant find a plc to park da car so when we saw da fireworks, me n my sis snatch a few shots. Of coz it was cleared coz I was in da car. A few more pics coming up...

stupid bus! move over!

tis is close up..




Tat was all da pics.. Huh? Goody bags? Of coz we do get!! Haha.. How? Well, let me elaborate more. At 5pm, Atikah and my dad went there first. My mum was lazy to go n bloody hell Atikah didnt wait for me, I was performing my prayers!!

So, when they reached there, they got 2 bags. They got 1 each. Damn! Den, Atikah feeling drowsy, she asked to go hm.. Spoil sport!

If Atikah were to have waited for me, there will be 3 sets of goody bags! So we went again aft 7pm, hoping to get 3 more sets of goody bags (me, my mum n Atikah - my dad wait in da car) but cant coz heavy traffic!!!

Amyria pours her heart out @ 12:17 am   |

On Sat, I watched 2005 bahas finals. Guess wat was the debate about?

Blog Adalah Ruang Peribadi.

or in english: Blog is an area for privacy.

It was an interesting topic for a debate though its kinda biase for the opposition party. Da topic is considered wide, although it sounds so simple.

As a blog user myself, I agree a blog is for the public's reading pleasure, so doesnt mean a blog is for public reading, u can keep one too w/o having to publish the template - like a private diary - except that u had to use a username and password to access it whereas a traditional diary is hard to keep as some kaypoh pple will tend to read it without your permission like my younger siblings (if u'd read my entry on 29th July)

I think on tat Sat, its kinda hard for da opposition team (PENYANGGAH) frm Madrasah Wak Tanjong Al-Islamiah to find points to relate to the topic. Like i've said, its kinda biase. Well, da opposition team won (No doubt! Madrasah wak Tanjong is champion in debates! Whether they r in PENYANGGAH or PENCADANG, they always da champion)

Anyway, I have my own topic of debate.

BLOGGERS HATE PUBLICITY BUT LOVE ATTENTION

Q. How many times have u heard a blogger rant about how they write for themselves and nobody else, and yet, they are happy if more people read their blogs?

B4, I ans da above "debate" question, I admit to tat.. I love da attention my blog is getting! There are 2 kinds of readers in my blog! Da eager one, n da disgusted one. Eager as in, eager to knw wats my life is abt or how's my life getting on. Disgusted as in, some of my contents can make pple really angry until give unnecessary comments. Unnecessary comments like not related to wat i blog. I blog abt sumone, n i received comment telling me tat i cant afford things which tat person can afford? Huh? I dun think is Related at all! Crappy!

Anyway, back to da above "debate" question. I'll 'debate' more. N help me k? Aft reading wat i enter below, plz tell me whether i am da PENYANGGAH or PENCADANG.. Heh..

In da olden days, when we wanted to write 4 ourselves, we had tis thing called, Diary. And if anybody were 2read our diaries behind our backs, we definitely scream n yell at them!

I love bloggers (coz I am a blogger myself) and I do think tat some of them, such as Mr Brown and Xiaxue, are excellent writers. Me? Nah! I am not gd in judging myself. I let my readers decide.. *winkz*

Plz dun make A* example out of me.

P/S: My grandpa had been discharged yestday. His condition has improved but still very weak. Doctors in NUH had warned us, not to let my grandpa fell down buttocks first again coz da doctors said if he were to fall down again, he can neva walked or stood up forever. Doctors has confirmed he has tis 'bisul' at da buttocks, tats y da firm warning.

Amyria pours her heart out @ 11:33 pm   |

I was blog hopping as usual... its was boring though. but tat is one way to kill time, ryt? Comparing some trash english written by some ah lian to sophisticated english speaking lass blogging abt life and issues. I happened to come across this couple of blog. I was kind DISGUSTED by the entries if i were their frens... good thing i am not!

It was abt performing sex... and hell they need to blog out wat they have done???!!! And well... it was kind crap but i juz read on. Here wat i have seen... juz to come it and maybe pass some pennies of my tots.

Its kinda shame to know if i were to be their parents... maybe i belong to those one of the prudes that found australia... this girl, who was waiting for public transport to be home, but at the midst, she got a msg from her love, she took cab to his place. somehow she managed to access into the unit, she waited... till the moment, the guy appear at the door, she jumped and kiss at him. Next... its predictable, they went on to have sex... the guy strip her bare naked, but she was having some blood surge at her vagina, period if needed to be explained... she refused sex. instead she blow... hell ya... come came, and (i imagined this, with a slutty look and dripping semans onto the groin area of the guy) she wipe it clean off her mouth and him... then now this is interesting... she is experiencing the highlight of all her relationships... (tat sounds to me like sum kind of dumb blonde bimbo...)

okie, i got to admit this... its kinda hard to type out wat the fuck she said in the entry... HOWEVER, its 95% close to wat she blogged.(I copied frm it exactly, juz tat i changed da "I" to she n her!)

Well, my comment....


SHAME ON! life's better wif such entries ard isnt it? much better than reading some repeated schedule day over day again... blog on to keep my mind aroused!!!

Amyria pours her heart out @ 9:07 pm   |

Mana perginya Muhd Daniel Zahid Shah aka Mati bakar, bekas kekasih Daniza?? Knp dia berdiam diri? Knp dia tak menyuarakan hasratnya atau apa yg terpendam di hati?

Mungkin dia dah merantau jauh sudah tak mAu ambil kisah ttg PENGTENGKARAN antara 3 gadis yg dia kenali?

Jantan apa dia tu?! Mungkin dia dah RANCANG ni semua!! Dia menelefonku pada 11 Mei 2005, 2 atau 3 minggu selepas Daniza berlepas ke Paris untuk 2 tahun - bukan untuk belajar, setakat jadi MAID lah - dan oleh kerana itu, aku tulis di blogspot. Dia tak rasa ke yg org akan kata ini semua rancangannya? Ialah baru 2 ATAU 3 MINGGU Daniza not in SG, dia dah call perempuan lain to strike a conversation? Kan mcm ada udang disebalik batu tu...Kalau selepas 2 atau 3 bulan dia call aku, aku tak melenting gini. Ini belum pun 1 bulan, dia dah cari pasal..

Aku sekadar menulis summarize version je. Dan ada beberapa pertanyaan seperti, "Siapa lelaki tu, kekasih lama u ke?" Oh TIDAK! DIA tak SETARAF untuk digelar my old flame!Pertanyaan lain seperti: "Asal lelaki tu pinjam duit Anura?" "Knp Anura dan Daniel dah tak bersahabat?" "Apa rahsianya Daniza yg sudah dibocor sehingga Daniza marah sangat dgn Anura?" Soalan2 ini semua inginku jwb..satu demi satu..

Maka dgn daya kreatifku, munculnya cerita ku, "Cinta Sensasi". Dgn bahan-bahan dari blogspot lama Anura, aku cantumkan untuk menjadi cerita yg menarik perhatian para pmembaca ku..

Sejak ku tulis cerita hebat tu...mcm-mcm dah berlaku.. Kesalahan masih lagi dilemparkan pada Anura.. Knp mesti babitkan dia? YG TULIS CERITA "CINTA SENSASI" TU ADALAH AKU..Bukan Anura.

Lagipun, aku sememangnya MALAS nak tulis cerita "Cinta Sensasi" tu. Biarkanlah dgn mereka.. Aku tak mau peduli tapi.. sejak panggilan telefon pada 11 Mei 2005, aku tulis di blogspot. Aku sebenarnya tak mau panjangkan cerita.. Jadi aku tulis secara ringkas..

Kerana ada beberapa para pembacaku keliru ttg apa yg terjadi... aku menulis cerita hebat ku itu dari A hingga Z.

Dan kerana itu juga, 3 wanita gaduh kerana seorang jantan yg bernama MUHD DANIEL ZAHID SHAH. Aku tau dia mesti bertepuk tangan sendiri dan ketawa melihat 3 wanita "bergaduh" pasal dia.. SORRY AH.. Kalau dia jantan yg ada hasil tak pe juga.. perkerjaan takde, duit pun takde...nak MEMIKAT pompuan pinjam duit kawan dan tidak mau bayar balik! Knp masih ada manusia seperti dia? Hanya pompuan gila saja yg akan tergilakan jantan seperti itu..yg tiada pekerjaan maupun pelajaran...

Seperti apa yang pernah aku diberitahu dahulu, perkara ini tidak akan berkesudahan dengan baik.. Masing-masing ingin menunjukkan kebenaran dan kehebatan. Inilah penjelasanku...agar keadaan menjadi tenang dan kita boleh berfikir dengan matang dan kepada siapa yang harus disalah nanti.

Di antara kita bertiga yang paling lama mengenali jantan itu adalah Anura. Anura kenali jantan itu lebih 7 tahun. Biar apa alasan teman-temannya menuduh itu dan ini Anura sebenarnya hanya ingin menjadi sahabat umpama dua tangan. Sahabat yang sentiasa membantu bila teman nya susah dan sama-sama ketawa bila temannya gembira. Memang persahabatan mereka mesra kerana pada masa itu jantan itu belum mengenali dua gadis teman Anura sendiri. Tapi entahlah mungkin kerana dia kesunyian maka Anura kenalkan kepada seorang sahabat baiknya, J yg dulu pernah membantunya menyelesaikan account bisnessnya.

Entah bertul entah tidak aku tak tau..... Anura begitu keberatan sekali untuk mengenalikan mereka berdua.. Anura punya sebab tertentu tetapi bukan kerana Anura cemburu atau pun jatuh cinta...........

Anura sangkakan bahawa perkara ini akan habis begitu saja, kerana dia enggan memberikan no talipon J. Tetapi sangkaannya salah. Ragamnya semakin menjadi bila dia minta dikenalkan dengan AKU. Memang ketika itu perkenalan kami tidak jujur sekadar untuk dia mengusik AKU saja. Jantan itu meminta Anura memperbaiki ayat-ayat dan setiap perkataan di dalam surat cinta (yg aku ceritakan di blogspot ku pada tarikh 18 Mei 2005) itu. Sebagai sahabat, Anura cuba membantu apa yang dia tahu.

//Tak jujurnya! Tak pandai nakl atur kata ke sampai suruh kawannya tolong. Aku tak bodoh lah. Tak pikat pun dgn surat tu. Aku rasa nak muntah ada!//

Dan bila jantan itu selalu meminta pertolongan saja dari Anura, Anura jadi bosan dan timbullah satu perjanjian. Apabila Anura sudah kenalkan kepada AKU, Anura akan menarik diri dan antara Anura dan jantan longkang itu tidak akan berhubungan lagi. Tapi mereka tetap sahabat seperti dulu. Akhirnya AKU tak kuasa melayan KARENAH jantan itu....

Sejak "kehilangan" AKU, jantan itu ingin megenali J sekali lagi bila mereka berdua berbual dan Anura ada menyebut nama J. Aku tau knp. Jantan tu tau yg J ada kereta. Jadi dia mau "megenalinya". Sorry J tak sebodoh itu. Anura juga tau apa motif jantan tu sebenar. Hanya kerana J ada kereta dia mau megenalinya bukan lebih dari itu.

//Daniel yg minta Dikenalkan kepada J sekali lagi TAPI Anura enggan kenalkan.. Dia juga minta dikenalkan kepada aku dan Daniza bukan Anura sengaja nak kenalkan. Anura tau Daniel orgnya mcm mana. Mana mungkin Anura nak kawan2nya mengenali jantan seperti itu!//

Sejak itu, jantan tu minta dikenalkan kepada Daniza. Mulanya memang Anura tak setuju kerana perbezaaan umur. Tetapi KERANA DIDESAK, Anura pun mengenalkan kepadanya. Seperti AKU juga, Anura beritahu jantan tu untuk menarik diri dari persahabatan ini kerana Anura dapat rasakan sesuatu akan terjadi...tapi jantan tu cakap, "kau jangan takut aku tidak akan pernah jatuh cinta dengan anak abu itu."

Sejak itu mereka chat dan jantan tu jarang lagi menelipon kawannya lagi. Walaupun dia tak cakap apa terjadi tapi Anura dapat menduga. Sejak mengenali jantan tu, Daniza kerap online.

Pernah satu hari mereka bertiga berada di online tetapi mereka berdua tidak menyapa Anura. Keesokkan Daniza memberitahu Anura, jantan itu tidak mahu mereka chat bertiga. "Buat bodoh saja dgn dia," kata jantan tu!

Sampai hati kan?! Kata kawan dunia akhirat! Asal dah ada gadis lain untuk jadi teman chat, kawan lama dibuat bodohkan?! Dan bermula dari situ semua berubah. Daniza lebih percaya kata jantan tu dari nasihat kawan sendiri.

Bila Anura tahu mereka bercinta, Anura bertanya sama ada benar atau tidak? Mulanya Daniza keberatan untuk memberitahu tentang hubungan dia dengan jantan itu kerana menurutnya belum tiba masanya untuk memberitahu Anura. Tapi bagi aku sebagai sahabat yang dianggap dunia akhirat rasanya tidak salah kalau Anura mengetahui hal yang sebenar dan mudah untuk Anura mengundurkan dirinya.. Walau pun menurut Daniza, dia tak kisah kalau jantan tu masih lagi menghubungi Anura....kerana Anura kenal lebih lama ...tapi siapa boleh menduga kecemburuan perempuan; di depan lain di belakang lain. Sejak tu, persahabatan menjadi semakin renggang antara Anura dan jantan tu...Dia akan mencari aku atau Anura sekiranya dia teringin untuk berbicara dan sesudah dia melayan Daniza.

To make it short, semakin lama Anura rasa disakiti dan diperbodohkan oleh sikap kedua temannya. Jantan tu akan menelipon Anura dan sengaja hendak berbual panjang bila Daniza berada di sisinya. Untuk apa jantan tu berbuat begitu? Untuk sakitkan hati siapa? Atau untuk menarik perhatian Daniza kembali? (Masa tu mereka telah putus buat kedua kalinya)

Anura sakit hati dengan kelakuan jantan tu dan terus memberi kata dua. Dengan rela, Anura menolak jantan tu untuk menjadi sahabat dunia akhirat kerana dia tak nampak jantan tu bersikap adil. Dalam diam dia banyak mencari KESALAHAN Anura. Aku masih ingat lagi di blogspot lama Anura: Daniza tahu kepulangan jantan tu dan orang pertama yang dihubunginya adalah Anura. Sebagai kekasih Daniza begitu hampa...tapi sebagai kawan, Anura tidak pernah fikirkan dirinya sendiri. Anura sanggup dihina oleh kedua manusia ini demi tidak mengaku kesalahan diri masing-masing. Jantan tu pun pernah MENGHINA Anura..MEMARAHINYA mcm anjing, apa lagi memaki Anura lantaran tak mahu Daniza tahu tembelangnya yang menipu.

Di sini aku tidak mahu minta simpati dari sesiapa untuk Anura... aku cuma mahu para pembacaku semua berfikir...di dalam hal ini kenapa Daniza tidak pernah menyalahkan jantan itu sedangkan jantan tu pernah menuduh dia bukan perempuan yg baik? Kenapa masih sudi berkawan sedangkan dia di perbodohkan? Walaupun sekarang dia masih bersahabat dan bukan sepasang kekasih.

Jantan itu pernah berkata pada Anura, "Apalah ertinya sebuah percintaan kalau tidak di akhiri dengan perkahwinan". Padanya, setiap perhubungan selalunya ingin di akhiri dengan sebuah perkahwinan, dan lambang sebuah percintaan yang mana jelas membuktikan kejujuran, keikhlasan dan kesetiaan.

Jantan yang begitu tidak boleh dibuat suami. Takut nanti kalau dah kahwin, isteri pula di suruh melacurkan diri kerana diri sendiri malas nak kerja. Sanggup berlutut dan mengharap bila perlukan duit. Aku masih ingat lagi dia seperti peminta sedekah meminta Anura meminjamkannya duit. Muka tak tau malu! Meminjam duit dgn seorang perempuan! Takkan dia tak ada kawan-kawan yg lain? Kawan lelaki? Pinjam saja lah dgn mereka? Aku rasa dia takut dihina oleh kawan-kawan lelaki nya tu kalau dia pinjam duit mereka. Ataupun dia memang tak ada kawan lain?

Anyway, hanya perempuan yg bodoh saja yg ingin membuatnya sebagai suami. Perempuan mana yg hendak pada lelaki yg pinjam duit dari titih peluh perempuan?!

Aku tahu, masalah ini adalah antara Anura, Daniza, dan jantan tu. Cuma aku hanya mau menyedarkan Daniza. Ialah, kenapa Daniza cuma mendengar kata dari jantan tu saja tanpa mendengar dari pihak Anura? Adilkah itu? Aku rasa, jantan tu bersorak suka kerana perempuan-perempuan bodoh ni masih pertikaikan jantan yang masih terkenang zaman kegemilangannya yang telah lama berlalu yang sampai kini menanti rezeki datang dari langit dan jatuh ketangannya, kelihatan baik dan senang berbicara tetapi tinggi EGONYA untuk mendapatkan hanya sekeping hati.

Aku sudah rasakan yg semua ini adalah lakonan jantan itu semata, menunjukka rasa kasih, cinta dan sayang pada Daniza, yang nyata jantan tu sendiri tidak pasti antara cinta dan suka. Dia keliru dan memutar belit kata. Kalau lah persoalan ini di kemukan kepada Daniza ...pastinya jantan itu mesti kena ombak dengan Daniza. Mana mungkin cinta jadi pura-pura setelah merayu setengah gila?

MUHAMMAD DANIEL ZAHID....kau puas dapat memecah belahkan antara Anura dan Daniza. Kau tidak akan dapat memiliki Daniza tapi kau tetap tidak berputus asa....kini dengan cerita yg pernah kau janji bersama Anura tidak akan dibocorkan.. kau pecahkan kepadanya....dan Anura dipersalahkan lagi. Kenapa kau EGO? Kau tidak mau mengaku kesalahan kau?

Sepatutnya perkara ini boleh selesai lama dulu. Tapi semua sudah terlambat kerana kepercayaan itu tiada lagi. Anura yg salah atau jantan tu mengambil kesempatan atas semua ini??

Fikirkanlah Daniza, Anura bukan seperti yang kau sangkakan. Dan jantan begitu yang kau percaya dan banggakan sehingga kau menulis poem yang cukup bermakna?? Knp tak tujukan pada orang lain yang pernah kau cintai terlebih dulu sebelum Daniel Zahid?

To be continued ...

Amyria pours her heart out @ 11:57 pm   |

To Farah aka Falala n Nadiah aka Kaoru, thanks for ur comments. Yeah, S'poreans couldnt b bothered wif stuffs tat is not to their concern! they dun give a face to pple who distribute brochures even if they really think it is a decent job.

Abt da dangdut thingie, I forgot to include tat Mr Daud is da one who bought those tickets for Us - da volunteers as a token of appreciation frm him. I Knw tat BECAUSE Mr Daud Told ME personally when i was in his office, photocopying some tuition materials. He even showed me those tickets! I told him straight to da face, me not interested. He told me da same thing but he cant do anything becoz he has to go! When i told him, i dun really like dangdut n dun wish to go, he was OK wif it. But still, I said thanks to him.

And Sorry for those whose names r mentioned in my blog abt da dangdut thingie. Remember to Read my disclaimer. *tongue lashing*

K, enuff of tat part. Lets come to da funny part. I posted it in friendster bulletin. Dun knw if u guys have tried it out. Hehe.. Try it! Damn funny! Check tis site:

www.jobpredictor.com

Here's wat it says abt my names n wat r my suitable 'jobs'!

Maria, Your ideal job is a porn director.

Amy Maria, Your ideal job is a Brain Surgeon.

Amyria, Your ideal job is a Topless Model.

Wahahahaha!!! Crazy sia tis stupid site! All 3 jobs dun even suit me! Porn director? Crazy! So disgusting! Topless Model?? Tats even more disgusting! Brain Surgeon is da only one which is sensible.

Hurry! Check da above site n play around wif ur names! I tried to play around wif my cat's name, Tompok n it says: Tompok, Your ideal job is a dentist! Wahaha! My cat's a dentist! Haha!
So, wats urs? *winkz*

Updates abt Shooting Stars.. NOT ONLY TAUFIK WILL BE IN DA DRAMA... HAIZAD WILL B IN TAT DRAMA TOO!! ARGH!!! I am damn jealous of Alfarahizah!! Y? COz Taufik plays as her bf n HAIZAD plays Taufik's RIVAL IN LOVE!!! ARGH!! JEALOUS SEH AKU! *angry smilez*

P/S: To da fanatics of Cinta Sensasi. Dun worry. Continuation of it will b revealed later tonite. Now, me rushing to go to work later.

Amyria pours her heart out @ 10:05 am   |

Updates abt my weekends on 30 Jul n 31st July. Well on Sat, 30 Jul, i was working (as usual) to give out brochures. Since it was raining, I went to distribute at Orchard Underpass, but due to other pple there giving out brochures too, i walked over to Scotts Underpass. Abt 2 hrs later, went up n phew! it was raining anymore n went on distributing outside Heeren!

Hmm.. I dun knw if it is a PAISEH job! Ok, da question i'm posting is, do u think distributing brochures is a PAISEH job? And I cant believe S'poreans r very unfriendly! When they c pple handing out brochures at them or to them, they looked away! Some even stared at me wif tat pathetic looking eyes!

C'mon! Aku kerja cari rezeki yg halal! I dun go to high class hotels at Orchard or declasse hotel at Geylang to fuck wif guys! I am doin a decent job by distributing brochures! Y give me tat sickening look?

I dun distribute those brochures for fun or free! I was paid to do so! Y cant those S'poreans understand? They very da hell unfriendly! They thot i was invisible! Cant they juz think wisely like, "hmm..these pple r standing for more than 4 hours drizzling or shine n distribute brochures/pamphlets/flyers n not many pple take those stuffs frm her. I better juz take."

They dun have tat bloody thinking! They think they were so great, walking w/o having anything at their hands n didnt even took an interest to knw wat da hell da brochures i was distributing!? If aft taking da brochures n not interested, its ok - as long as u take! But i passed to male, female, young, old, malay, indian, chinese, eurasian - 25% only take those brochures! Da remaining 75% bloody unfriendly!

At Clementi n Jurong East, i saw da same person distributing flyers abt a school tat have mandarin, japanese or other languages courses. He was there every day w/o fail. And how many percentage of those passers-by took those flyers? Less than 50%! Pathetic ryt? Tat man was doing a decent job mind u! Since now is economic downturn, he needs da extra bucks in his pocket for his family or watever so he was there (either at Clementi MRT or Jurong East MRT) every day frm morning till evening! I knw coz when i went to work, I saw him at Clementi mrt. I took one frm him. When i got back hm, same plc i saw him again! Hardworking, isnt he but do da Singaporeans even notice him?! I dun think so!

I am blogging abt tis coz i wan those S'poreans to at least take an interest n learnt tat in order to promote stuffs, to give awareness of a certain product, by distributing brochures is da only way. Dun worry, i am not selling illegal stuff or watever, i'm juz distributing brochures! I cant seem to understand wat S'poreans actually think of brochures distributors. Do they think its da same as distributing drugs!?

Pple who distribute brochures, lose their sense of shame, dont u knw tat? They tried not 2b PAISEH when distributing da brochures. So those passers-by shld at least understand da pain of those distributors, standing under da sun or shelter, walking through n fro, here n there n approached pple to give brochures n pple can still "buat bodoh"?! or pretend i wasnt even there? When they walked "through" me, they didnt even apologize by saying a "sorry?" they juz walked off like tat! How fcuking ironic!

Hmm..so shall i continue wif distributing of brochures? I will! Its a decent job! I got paid. I can exercise by walking up n down, through n fro n give out da brochures. And plz for pple who r reading tis, take a look at those pics of mine carefully coz if u ever to c me anywhere in SG, distributing brochures, u better take it frm me! Even if u dun want to, dun stare at me wif those sickening, pathetic look!

P/s: Met Ainn on tat day! WE chit chatted for a while. I asked abt her application to NIE/MOE to be a trainee teacher since she had graduated wif a Diploma frm LASALLE-SIA College of Arts. She told me, "Nah, i m going back to sch tis Oct." ME: "Oh really? For ur degree?" SHE: "Yup." Kudos Ainn! Yeah, we both have another thing in common then! Dratz! Forgot to ask is she going back to sch as full time or part time coz she was in a hurry n i had to continue doing my work.

Ok, now on Sunday, which was yestday, me, my sis n myself went shopping at Clementi Central. Well, i was supposed to have Tuition at Nur Afiqah's plc, but it was cancelled becoz her mum wished to bring her to da wedding invitation. B4 i went shopping wif my sis n mum, i received a call frm WESSC asking if i were to be free later tat nite coz we were invited by da Supervisor to attend tis Dangdut thingie at West Coast C.C. I dun wish to go coz me not interested in dangdut - not my kind of music - N besides, AT da SAME time, I wanna watch, "President's Star Charity". EverY YeaR i watched tat show n i dun wish to miss it. Sorry! I bet u guys had fun last nite huh? I think u guys did! I THINK I Heard Ijah saying Ariff bukan main lagi gelek seh!!! But i dun think is him only. Shld b others too. Power!!

P.P/s: Rem if u ever 2c me anywhere distributing brochures, u knw wat to do - take it ok?! I will repeat: Distributing brochures is a decent job n not a disgusting job like going frm hotel to hotel n sleep wif men, so plz dun give me a weird stares coz I AM NOT DOIN DA LATTER!

Amyria pours her heart out @ 11:26 pm   |