Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Tomorrow is Teachers Day. Usually, the school close on every 1 Sept & the celebration to honour the teachers is always the day before.
This morning, b4 I went off to werk, I went to JTSS(Jin Tai Secondary School) WOW! The school has changed so much! There is a small fountain n unused piano in front of general office. There are also many beautiful gardens planted NOT forgetting the classrooms( the wall outside) are decorated with beautiful paintings!
I was wandering around JTSS to admire the new scenery when Mdm Koh(or is it Mrs Koh?) saw me. She did not know my name but she knows I was from Jin Tai and I volunteered to help her print and photostate some stuffs. When she saw me, she said: "U looked very different. U looked prettier than u were in JTSS" I blushed.
*I dont like to wear makeup so how possibly can I be pretty?*
Ok then, I met my malay teacher, Mr Yatim(he taught me in sec 2 n sec 5). We chat and he then asked me: "Maria, bila awak nak tunang?" I was abt 2say sumthing 2him when he said to me tat he had to rush for class. DAMN!
*If he could give me 10 to 15 minutes, I wld say: "Cikgu tanya salah org. Sepatutnya tanya Nazrul. Masih ingat dia tak? Yg O Level Malay A2.. Dia dah ade ehem... Saya lum ade lagi.. Cikgu nak tau tak, Siti Zackyah dah kahwin.. Mungkin dah mengandung sebab dia kahwin pada bulan Februari.."*
Yah, tat was wat I wanna say 2 Mr Yatim but time is precious, he had to rush for class.
The last teacher I met is another one of my malay teachers. She taught me in Sec 3.. Her name is Mdm Roslinda.. She asked me a lot of questions. I forgot wat she asked but I remembered her 1st n last question.
Her first question(Translate to English): "After your O Levels, where did u go?"
ME: My results cant go to any computer/business course in all 4 polytechnics so I continue working and retook my O levels and also to save money in case I wanna go for private courses. After O levels, the results will be in 3 months so I worked first. At that time I worked as an ASSISTANT TEACHER at PAP Kindergarten. I continue working until 31 August 2001.. the children said "HAppy TeacherS DaY" to me too.
That answer made her proud.. She asked if it is expensive paying my own way to private degree.. (I had told her I am continuing for my degree).
ME: Yah, expensive.. tats y I continued working but now as an assistant clerk to pay for my montly course fees..
Mdm Roslinda had this worried look on her face. She asked, "how much? is it per month or per subject?"
ME: It is around $600 and it is per month. Mdm Roslinda was surprised and asked if I could cope.
ME: Insya-allah, boleh. (If God Wills It, there will be no problem)
Before she went for her classes n before I left, she wished me all the best in wateva I do. And she thanked me for coming. Too bad, I cant meet Mrs Chiang. She is my favourite teacher. She left in 2002 to look after her children. Why is she my favourite teacher coz she always there to help/console students who got bullied by friends/classmates/schmates. I was ONE of them.
During my lunch time, I smsed Ainn, Suresh, Fadhil, Rosliah n Nazrul. Firdaus, not sure if he wld reply coz he always had his hp switched off and Faridah has no handphone. Anyway, I smsed those friends of mine telling them tat I went solo visiting the teachers n so far only Nazrul n Suresh replied. Maybe the rest are working, no time to reply or lazy to reply.
Suresh replied tat he is at work n will call me later. Nazrul replied: "Oh, okie. How was the teachers there?"
ME: They r fine and wanna knw something?
Nazrul: Wat thing?
ME: Ade ke Cikgu Yatim tanya aku, "Maria, bila awak nak tunang?" Sepatutnya dia tanya kau betul tak?
Nazrul: YA, alah kau ckp je lah kau dah tunang dgn Hafidz Basri.. haha..
Argh!! Why must Nazrul mention His name?!! I dun wish to hear his name anymore.. Arghh..
*Tak habis2 nak kenakan aku dgn dia eh si Nazrul ni!*
Saturday, August 28, 2004
*Hey...I am back.. Its been a while since I last blog in. Well, the reason being was: MY LAPTOP WAS SENT4 REPAIR so I was 'away' from N chat room 4 a few days or so.. sometimes i went to cybercafe to check my emails as it may flood with unnecessary emails or wateva..*
Anyway, the title: Am I fat?
This is always the question I have been asking to myself. And I need SOME ANSWERS!! Both my mum n grandma think that I am fat!! Even my younger sis, Atikah is siding them! But I look myself in the mirror, I'm ok!!
If I am fat, I shld hv been in T.A.F club in sec sch. But for my 5 years in sec sch life, I WASNT EVEN been called to join T.A.F(Trim n Fit) club. That shows tat I am NOT fat!!
If I'm fat, my clothes wld be in the size of XL or XXL but I'm wearing size 'M' or 'L' (Most of my clothes r in 'M' size, the 'L' size clothes are bought by my mum for me.. )
If I'm fat, my weight shld exceed 55kg coz I am 1.6m BUT my weight is in the range of 5okg to 55kg. Neva more than 55kg so shld be ok ryt?
Whenever I'm hungry N wish to eat, my grandma will know. *Well, of course, coz she's always in the kitchen.* When my grandma saw me eat, she will nag! Yeah! Nag! She would be telling me "Eat again! Then grow fat!Your hips are alamak big already! Soon, ya body!" Didnt she know tats a bit insulting?! But its ok coz she's a family member of mine.. only family members can insult or criticize me.. NOT OUTSIDERS!!
I think the reason why my mum n grandma always pick on me was simply: Both of them are thin, overly thin(underweight category) so they think I am fat!! Argh!! (I'm in the normal weight category!)
Stress lah!! I'm already stress coz of other things n now I'm stress over this issue of being fat or not fat!! My grandma n mum insult me its ok BUT my younger sis...also!! I knw she is a family member but she is younger than me!! And she insult me!! How to endure?!?! Is like she has no respect for me for being the elder sis! She said, "Actually ah, ya height 1.6m n ya weight ard 50 to 55kg consider fat!! Fat! FAT!!" Thats WAT she says!! *Help me!*
Saturday, August 21, 2004
Today is my last day of exam!! Hooray!! *sigh* normal Saturday to me again. My brother was allowed to go watch movie(ALien VS PRedator) at West Mall with his friends and thank God I have exam today SO I can go out!! If not, I wil be bored to death sitting at home!!
My exam starts at 3.30pm but I went out frm my house earlier coz I told my Grandma tat I wanna study outside.. Hah, she believed me! Actually, I have a so-called "date" with Mokhtar's friend.. Nope, not the one who fetch me (Aug 8 entry) but another one.. Hehe...
So, we met the bus stop opposite Hotel Rendevous and had lunch (McDonalds) at Paradiz Centre! He is a great guy.. I am a quiet and shy when it comes to meeting new pple but he made my day..he made me laugh with his jokes..etcetra..
Then at 3pm, he walked me to my sch at Plaza By The Park branch for my exam.. He wished me good luck.
At the exam hall,
The CS214(Java Applications) exam paper was ok.. Can do though.. Hope can pass this time.. (I failed this paper b4 and I am retakin it!)
After exam, I took bus 106 go ALL THE WAY to Bukit Batok to meet Anura and the rest. Nothing really, just accompany Anura to shopping for handphones..haha...
Not again...
B4 we headed home, Anura gave us a treat at McDonalds!! I had lunch at McDonalds and again, Im having my dinner at the same restaurant but at different outlet.. Nvm, as long as I am full!! Haha..
So much so for my Saturday Aug 21 routine... Dun think for other Saturdays will be the same as this.. It will be the normal Saturday as usual...
P/S: Finally, a Semi-Finalist for Singapore!! Singles Women Table Tennis.. Could it be a medal on its way for Singapore?
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
*Hoobastank whinging in the background. Oh wait.
They've stopped*
The Olympic spirit is thick in the air and it's infectious.
Probably because Australia actually has gold medal winners.
Hah. I'm leeching off the whole notion of Aussie pride. I feel happy for them.
As long as they don't sing Waltzing Matilda when the athletes return,
I'm happy.
Hope tat Ronaldo Susilo do Singapore proud in going to the next
round for Badminton Singles Men..
Sunday, August 15, 2004
FRIENDHIPS
Friendship is not won by the
giving of things but by the
giving of the heart.
GOOD FRIENDS
There's wisdom in taking time to care
There's wisdoms in giving and
wanting to share.
There's wisdom in grace and
making amends.
There's wisdom in having and
keeping good friends.
Friday, August 13, 2004
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Now it is time for me to say a little bit about my Informatics friends.. I have been in Informatics Computer School from April 2002 to August 2004..
The above picture was taken in January 2003, as u can c the date at the picture.. Who is HE? Well, absolutely NOT my boyfriend!! He is just a friend.. His name is Mohd Syafiq bin Syafiee. He is from Brunei Darusalam.. He is a year younger than me..
He is no longer in Singapore.. He left Singapore in July 2003 coz his student pass expire and although he wished to renew it, his parents in Brunei wanted him to continue his studies in Informatics (Brunei) as they missed him!
Actually, Syafiq could be a half Singaporean, half Bruneian..coz his mum is a Singaporean and his uncles and grandma lived in the north side of Singapore.. His dad was formally a Melakan but migrated to Brunei when his dad was around his age..so his dad is a Bruneian.. Since his mum married his dad, his mum had to be a Bruneian..
Although it has been one year, he left his Singaporean friends, we still kept in touch via MSN and emails and he said to pray that he had enuff money to come to Singapore during Hari Raya and visit all his Singaporean friends! Aww.. how nice..
He went to a lot of schools haha like: PAP Community Foundation Kindergarten(Singapore - Toa Payoh), ST Margret (Primary Sch in Brunei, Seria), ST Georges (lower secondary in Brunei , Bandar Seri Bengawan), S.M.J.A school(upper secondary in Brunei, Bandar Seri Bengawan),
Informatics Computer School (Singapore, Tanjong Pagar) and FINALLY Informatics Computer School(Brunei, Bunut).. Phew!!
More abt him: love to bring his computer Gadgets whenever he leave his house.. love outdoors activities with frens... shopping(computer), sightseeing, into sports (cycling), taking photos...explore the unknoWn.. Out of all, he loves to spend Money on anything that he's interested with!!! hahaha...
Next, is Ari Rahman.. He is a year older than me and he is very Intelligent! Always get As for most of his subjects... He actually wanted to go Poly but since he didnt have Singapore O levels, he cant and so he had to attend a private institution: Informatics .. Nothing much to tok abt him just tat he is one of my closest Informatics friends.. I forgot..he is from Indonesia and he was surprised to know tat my race is Javanese.. haha...
Now its the ladies turn.. From left is me, Vanitha, Indurekha and Ami... These gals were the first friends I got to know the moment I step into Informatics. I was from Informatics Jurong East branch but me and a few others(except Ami) were transferred to Tanjong Pagar and Woodlands.. We were transferred becoz we took different majors and hence we had to be "separated"..
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
After National Day Parade, I watched Singapore Idol Auditions.. More like a comedy to me.. Lucky I "so-called" backed out. Hehee... Because while I was watching, I kept thinking: "Imagine if I was the one on the show.. after I sang, the judges will be comment on me.. U knw I cant take it if the comments are very 'pedas'.. sure I will cry one"
Yup, I am like tat...If pple like say their comments to me (a gd one) but tend to be 'pedas' I will cry.. I dun wanna cry on TV!!! Except if I had to act on TV! :D haha! Im looking forward for tmr's episode 2 of Singapore Idol auditions...
On 8 August, I went for an engagement ceremony.. The nite b4, me and Mokhtar's friend has already fixed the time to meet.. Free transport mah!!! Boring everytime take bus n mrt... So, I had fixed the time with him. Y not with Mokhtar? Well, he went JB on 7 Aug n will be back on 8 Aug dun knw wat time..dun wish to trouble him.. So, I asked his friend. Mokhtar introduce us b4 so no problem to meet him at all...
But, in the end, I went there alone by bus n then mrt.. Lucky, Mokhtar's friend called me after I just left the plc (where the engagement ceremony was). He said: "Sorry I just woke up" And I was huh? At 6pm? He just woke up? But I dun wanna be a kpo queen so I said its ok and asked if he could fetch me at Causeway Point coz money in my ex link card will not be enuff for my wack back home. And so, he did fetch me..
*If only I had my own car. How to have ur own car if u dun have a driving license? How to have a driving license if My Grandma DOESNT Allow me to learn driving?!!! She ah everything this cannot that cannot!!*
Saturday, August 07, 2004
In case u r wondering.. Mokhtar is just my "abg angkat" and not more than tat.. :p
His words:
manusia dinilai pada janji bukan pada harta atau kekayaan
biar kita miskin atau papa...janji tetap dikotakan...
* can any kind soul help me translate this to english?*
His advice:
Me here always pray that you score in whatever you do.If in one way or another you stumble,pick yourself up and strive to do better.Everyone fails sometimes in their lifes.Take it as a challenge. One more thing if i may add.Don't care what others say about you.Most important tell yourself; am i being honest and true to myself.Don't ever give up hope and prove to those people wrong..If in anyway you are having any difficulties,my shoulders are yours to hang upon.Jaga diri....
Friday, August 06, 2004
You picked me up when I couldn't stand,
when I cried you held my hand
when I was down
you made me smile,
you made me feel like life was worth a while
you made me feel special in every way,
even from all the pain of yesterday
you were always there when I needed you
you're the guardian angel that was sent by God
you and I are like colors we always blend
I just wanted you to know you're my best friend.
Sunday, August 01, 2004
I am the eldest of 3 siblings. Sometimes I hate 2b the eldest. Sometimes I like being the eldest. I'l tell u why in time to come,
Although tat I am gonna be 21 this December, I dun think I can have FREEDOM!! I am still been treated like a kid!! I WANNA GROW UP!!
My grandma especially. She ah.. everything this cannot tat cannot. Sometimes I envy my friends; they can go out N have fun but I cant! She wants me to "rot" at home! She also said I shld trust my friends tat much..
Whenever I am trying to make my own decision; to be independent..she found out N she scolded me! She said I shldn't behave tat way! WAT?!
*Then how am I gonna be mature like tat? A lot pf pple had comment tat I am still immature! How to if my own family wont let me?*
She dun even trust my friends!! She told me not to trust outsiders so much!!! WAT? Duh...
I cant tel my mum to tok some sense 2 my grandma. Since young, my grandma was the one who took care of me > my mum had to work; till now, she is still working. So everything I'll do, I have to "discuss" with my grandma!! Except for my studies.
I am a private institute student. The fees are damn expensive. My grandma scolded me for entering into this kind of sch N she even lecture her daughter(my mum) for listening 2 my nonsense!
Even clothing.. I dun like to wear sexy clothes so tats not the issue. I bought normal clothes, the ones I usally wear - long sleeves, 3/4 sleeves. If the pattern nice, she'l keep quiet. If the pattern is not nice, she'll hurl at me!! *Muz I need 2 depend on her 2 buy my own clothes?!!! Plz can sumbody tel her tat I NEED N WANT to be MATURE!! I cant let others think tat i am 21 n still hasnt mature!!*