Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Job Opportunity with Marina Bay Sands which I have applied almost a year ago is not successful. Oh well.
Sighz... I dun if I should be wishing them all the best or be sad upon knowing that they are leaving.
One by one of my colleagues - and the recent lunch buddy left. Well, it is common... people come and go but I dun know why I felt something different nowadays.. As U know... the decision for me to stay is still pending. So when I see people leaving, I told myself, "(so and so) leaving... when will it be my turn?"
Dun get me wrong... It is not that I am not happy working there anymore but I had tendered and I took back my letter and the answer to whether I can stay is NO. But I am still working! It has been 3 and half months, already celebrated my 2 year anniversary with a "prank call / joke" from a few happening colleagues haha and though the answer is NO, I am still working.. Why? Well, maybe Allah helps me. Allah knows the future. He knows that my rezeki will be there till He decides other options for me.
Sometimes I dun understand myself. When I do not want to leave just as yet, I resign due to some stupid problems. I took back and not once but twice the Director has said NO, I have to leave. I am still here. Then when I wanted to leave, because it really pains me to see others leave but not me coz I can't leave. I dun know if I am allowed to tender again (by giving a month's notice) or just leave within 24 hours (since my withdrawal is not approved).
Whenever I see others leaving, I always said, "It should be me instead..." Anyway, when these pple leave, of coz they have got hold of new jobs, that's why they leave. But for my case? If I did not take back my letter or if Allah decides that my last day is 19 Sept or 15 Oct, I may still be jobless now.
My best friend advised me to look on a brighter side of things. She said it is a good thing they left because I am still having space in the company. She said that it may be a sign from Allah telling me something. Maybe Allah is trying to tell me that 1) I will be staying for good or 2) staying till further notice or 3) anytime soon it will be my turn to leave... Yeah, this is just my presumption. Only Allah knows best.
I know I have to bersyukur to Allah coz I still got a job but it is sad to see others leaving and I am not. I know there are a few AMA - Anti Maria Association - in the office who BADLY wants me to leave. I dun mind fulfilling their wish but I dun have the final say. The Director has the final say. Yes, for twice he said NO.. My superior gave good comments abt me and with Allah's help, I am still here.
Hopefully, I will receive "B", then perhaps I will be looking around actively now for other job. I have my Marketing degree, I am not going to waste it. My family wants me to have a salary starting wit $2K, it is NOT possible but I will make an effort to try.
Please pray for my success.
