Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Is it wrong to meet a guy everyday? I know he's not a bf yet but its not ME who wants to see him, but he wants to see me, he insists.. I didnt ask him why.. Maybe thats his way of showing that he really wants me? I did ask him why and voice out my concern and he just lamented said, "why bother what they say? its our life.. our privacy.. our wish ah to meet everyday.." *shrugs* I dun know.. Its his life, why bother BUT..
PLEASE STOP WITH ALL THOSE GOSSIPS! IT HAS BEEN HURTING ME! I've been hearing "rumours" that I have no shame everyday go see him.. I've been labelled as narrow-minded and cheap uni grad la... etc etc..
DO THEY THINK I REALLY WANNA MEET HIM... ITS HIS WISH, I CANT STOP HIM, Sometimes I told him I wanna lunch with colleagues, he also joins in, which clearly means, wherever I go, he goes. *mcm gini susah ah I want to go for Hady Mirza, Taufik or Revalina.. takut dia jealous nanti.*
P/S: Yes he is working BUT as a contract and he purposely ends work at 11.30am (working hrs: 6.30am to 3.30pm) half day so that he can see me for lunch though I advise him not to do so unnecessarily.. sometimes I also suggest to him to use that free time to search for a permanent job.. Tapi dia degil la..
So maybe my colleagues find it weird or simply wrong for us to meet everyday as they also want some moments with me, the rumours starts.. Because of the rumours, it has begun to affect my work. Yes! My work performance is slowly not doing so progressively.. The management said my work performance is slowly going bad.. and they wanna know why.. I have no idea.. All along I thought I am doing OK.. BUT after much thought, must be due to the rumours, thats why I have not been performing well.. Besides to add on to it, its the recession.. so maybe the management trying to find those pple with a bit of higher salary to 'retrench' them? Who knws?
And there have been rumours abt A.. I've been hearing colleagues assume that A is rich.. HAHAHA.. If he is rich, I will be very happy already.. My nenek will definitely approve despite the age being younger than me, my mum sure agrees even if he has lower education than me.. But because he's not rich la thats why my life is such a mess.. I am seeing and meeting him in discreet ok! Kalau dia kaya, aku tak susah mcm ni.. so please lah SHUT UP.. DUN ANY HOW ASSUME!
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Kak OLIN:
Oh wow, thats bad girl, susah sikit nak nasihat pasal dia, kalau dia degil nak jumpa u, nak cakap apakan.. maybe once he got a permanent job, will be better, I hope.
In terms of ur work, after management call u, I suggest u shld talk to ur superior. I think u shld approach her and ask her the truth abt what she feels abt ur work, ask her to be frank and dun beat around the bush, also u dun have to be afraid, that way would be better for u to improve urself.. u know sometimes we are unable to see our faults dear, maybe u shld try to speed up on ur work (since they claim u're slow - though I noticed, u type quite fast) and concentrate on ur work rather than think abt problems with him / abt him.. U can do so after office hours.. Dik, I too got lots of problems in my head, but during office hours, I shut off everything... just focus on work, try that method ok? Dun be negative when management calls u, its for ur own good to improve urself, abt gossips in the office, why must it bother u? Pple loves to gossip, u cant control their mouth.
DCJ:
As for me, I dun label u as what those pple said of u (cheap uni grad la, shameless etc etc). I believe u are the one who seek happiness and love is very funny in many ways.. Its nothing wrong with u finding Mr. Right who seek to spend the rest of ur life with him.. Thats why he meets u everyday, he is searching for happiness; i.e, if u're the one for him, can u make him happy? Husbands and wives meet everyday so he is doing that now. Maybe thats his method of seeking happines...
Let people say u are cheap, narrow-minded and list go on blah blah blah... u have to be strong and brave to fight for wat u wan in ur life. Even if many things happen to u, ur stance for life must be consistent and firm. At the end of the long tunnel, u will see light and everything will go smoothly according to ur plan. Ur family accept him and people will say sorry for what they say and give u blessings.
U may face trials in love but it is good for u so that u can see true colours, gain more experiences and be ready to take on challenges in future. Remember to keep it to urself.. If u need to share ur problems, share with this guy, Allah and ur close friends for advice.
Remove hurt frm ur heart and u feel free. Must fight for ur guy to get ur parent blessing. It is good to defend this guy since u know him well.. I cant judge this guy coz I dun know him so I'm not permitted to give comments right? Remember no one is perfect and learn to live with dignity and content heart.
