This entry is a simpler edition (all in perfect English) for the entry dated 10th September. *smiles*

All along since the year 2002 / 2003.. I have a secret admirer. I just got to know this recently.
He's younger than me and he's my best friend's bro. I have know this best friend of mine since sec school and ever since the year 2002 / 2003 I kept going to her house for a visit. Furthermore, she shares the same "family issues" with me - her parents are divorced. The diff is, her family life is not as complicated as mine.

So I suspect since 2002 / 2003, the younger bro may have an interest in me. He didnt tell this to her sister. Only on 8th Sept, my best friend invited me over to her house for breaking fast. Furthermore, she will not be in Singapore after the 10th Sept (She's off to Poland for a job offer for a year.) So, she invited me over since I am unsure of when I will be free before the 10th to meet her. I agreed on that day.

The brother was there as usual. I didnt suspect anything. He was acting normal, and he addressed me as Kak Maria. As soon as I got home, I received an sms from an unknown number. I didnt reply to such smses especially from an unknown number. However, the same number kept giving me missed calls and numerous smses that I smelt something fishy and I replied. I receive a reply, "(the name of my best friend)'s brother. Dun tell her ok?"

So I just brush it off as, "Ok. What can I do for u? And (my best friend) gave u my number?" He replied that he wants to make friends with me and the house phone has a caller ID and he got my number from there. When we exchanged smses, I got the hint that he wants to be friends and later on ended up as couples.... From one of the smses, I got to know that he has been liking me since 2002 / 2003.

At first, I always "berpegang" to this principle: Its kinda weird if a guy is younger than u.. Furthermore, u know how complicated my family life is.. so I dun know if I can be ready for this.. I mean if this friendship will lead to a relationship, I am not sure if I am coz of my family issues.. Yeah.. its my grandmother... She is the one who find it not right if a guy is younger than the woman..

I have asked a few acquitances / friends and two of them advised me to give this a try.. I will never know if I never give it a try.. but how do I start off with? Yes, I know I can meet him as a start but one day my family (esp my grandmother) will find out I have been going out meeting "this" friend, I will be questioned! Yes, I know.. I can inform them abt him... There's a catch here..

As u know I've graduated.. That guy is 3 years younger than me, that makes him 22 this year. (born on 15 November). He has just started work last year and his job is not a permanent.. but on contract basis which clearly explains this: He didnt earn much. At first I had always want a guy who earn more than me.. (Remember my entry dated 17 May 2008?) But after much thought, even if the guy earns more than me, will he know how to manage his finances? I earned much more than some of my friends (will earn more after I showed the management that piece of paper - crossing fingers la) and I admit, I dun know how to manage my finances... whereas those friends of mine who earned lesser than me, can even affford to buy the latest handphone model for $500++ to $600++!

So the problem is, my family will definitely has restrictions.. U know halangan.. They are positive that the guy is only befriending me for my $$ etc etc.. FYI, the guy is only NTC-2 level. Its fine with me as long as he has any qualifications ABOVE N Levels...

Furthermore, if u could remember the same entry of 17 May 2008 (expectations in a guy), I expect the guy to be pious: in malay, mesti bersembahyang. I know he didnt. Coz my best friend has never solat before. If she didnt, I'm sure he didnt too and I'm right. I've asked him and he has never ever perform any solat.. This adds to more problem if my family were to find out he is not performing his prayers! *slaps forehead*

So shld I give it a try with this guy? What I meant is, to give him a chance. And to give myself a chance too.. In fact, some of the peeps I've asked advice tells me that its absolutely normal for a guy to be younger than a lady. I know a few couples:

1) Norfasarie (a Suria artiste - the same age as me) with Baikhakki (my secondary school junior - he's a year younger than me)

2) One of my aunts (a bank officer - in her mid 40s) with her husband (a police officer - in his late 30s)

3) My best friend (the guy's sister - aged 26) having a relationship with a guy who is the same age as me (he's not Singaporean)

4) Their parents, like I've said divorce BUT their mum remarried to a guy who is younger than her, So their step father is younger than their mum!

5) My idol, Hady.. Hady's step dad is younger than Hady's mum.. :) *mesti ada pasal Hady, tau in my blog! hahaha!*

6) I just found out a fellow HapyHady (babe, u knw who u are) who is 23, I think is in relationship with a guy 2 years younger than her.. and their parents already know.. =) Psst, they have been dating for err, 6 mths? 7 mths? Something like that la.. *winks*

I am totally confused.. I am now thinking of the future.. I mean what will happen /what will I say to my family shld they found out... And yeah, I have to know him more too...*From the conversation and smses so far, he's a bit kiddish still...*

P/S: Shld I let my best friend know abt this? I did mention this to him, he said please do not inform his sister. Its not the time yet. Sighz..

Amyria pours her heart out @ 10:56 pm   |