Saturday, February 23, 2008
I read an entry from multiply. Its in malay, later I will translate it in English (in embedded: blue). Oh, names have been change too...
"Pagi minggu, dapat call dari DIA. DIA bertanyakan keadaan PGS. Aku katakan padanya kenapa tak tenguk sendiri.. Kenapa tanya aku? Mungkin aku kesal dengan sikapnya sejak kebelakangan ini. Dia seolah2 bukan sahabat baik yang aku kenali dulu."
(Sunday morning, received a call from HIM. He asked about PGS' condition. [Note: PGS, if u are reading this, hope u are recuperating well] I told him, why didnt he visit her and see for himself. Why have to ask me? I may be disappointed with his strange behaviour these days but he's somehow or rather no longer the best friend I have known before.)
"PGS tanya saya tak kenapa tak datang, ziarah dia kemalangan?" soal DIA lagi padaku. (Did PGS ask you why I didnt pay her a visit?)
"Buat apa PGS nak tanya pasal kau. PGS tahu kau masih marah dengan kita berdua mengenai si KOPEK SENGKUANG PAKAI KUKU TU (HAHHAHAHA.... I DIDNT KNOW THATS MY NEW NICKNAME! LOL.. CLARIFICATION: I no longer does that with my nails. I do that with a knife!! Already 'upgrade' myself.. Well, what to do...I'm a woman..... Wahahahaha) Lagi pula PGS faham kau sentiasa sibuk sejak2 kebelakangan ini. Atau pun sengaja sibuk untuk mengelakkan diri. Penjelasan kau masih menjadi teka teka bagi kita berdua tapi sebagai kawan baik kita berdua tetap menghormati keputusan kau walaupun ada rasa terkilan."
Before I translate the above... Let me say something... Thats why the entry for today is titled: 'Sorry, PLEASE PUT THE BLAME on ME.' (coincidently, the song by Akon: Sorry, Blame On Me keeps repeating in my laptop) I admit that its ALL because of me, hence the existence of the above malay entry in a multiply site.. Maybe HE puts the blame on the writer regarding the sms that was sent to me and I got kinda fed up. My friends told me that the sms was normal BUT (read the email sent by Bob which I have pasted in this blog: the date is 6 February 2008 for further clarification and explanation - as I dont wish to dwell on it again, please go to that specific date and read it yourselves. Thank u) Like I'd said... PLEASE PUT THE BLAME on Me.. and not to anyone else or not even to u.
Lets proceed with the embedded translation. (Why must PGS has to call u? She knows u are still mad with us regarding THE GAL WHO USES HER FINGERNAILS TO 'KOPEK' A VEGGIE... [I LOVE THAT NEW NICKNAME OF MINE BUT TOO BAD IT CAN NEVER LAST COZ I NOW USE A KNIFE TO DO THE SAME] Furthermore, PGS understands u always busy these days. Or u purposely make urself busy to be alone. Ur explanation is still remains like a quiz to the 2 of us but as a good friend, the 2 of us respect whatever decision u gave eventhough we feel upset.)
Aku tanya DIA lagi...kenapa boleh jadi begini eh akhirnya? Aku luahkan rasa kesal ku. Dulu kita bertiga bahagia sekali. Kemana sahaja selalu bertiga. Berkongsi cerite suka dan duka, memahami dan meraikan kejayaan bersama2. Kita akan bertanya kHabar dan menjenguk sesama kita sekiranya diantara kita sakit dan sanggup bercuti hanya kerana sebuah persahabatan. Tapi kini kenapa kau berubah.
After this embedded translation, I shall say out my comments. (I asked HIM again, how come he has become like this in the end. I voiced out my upsetness. Last time the 3 of us are very happy together. Wherever we go, always the 3 of us. Sharing fun and sad moments, understand and celebrate our success together. We will ask one another, 'Hows life' and will pay a visit should any one of us are ill and we even go on a holiday, all these because of friendship. However, u have changed)
My comments for the last para: I am not trying to create anymore conflicts or whatsoever so please spare me the comments... What I wanted to express is (in a mixture of English and Malay), janganlah kerana Puteri, kamu bertiga berselisihan faham. Puteri faham (after I relate that incident to few friends) why that sms was sent to me. And Puteri pun sudah meminta maaf kpd ketiga-tiga sahabat karib. And I felt relieve when ketiga-tiganya memaafkan Puteri. Terima kasih. However, seperti lagu Imran Ajmain, 'Sudah Tu Sudah", just put this behind. I cant say to forget about this because I have to agree with PGS' comments, "I can forgive but can never forget." I know the 3 of u able to forgive me but to forget about that incident.. *shrugs*, I dun know but as for me, I will not forget if the situation is really really hurting to me. That sms incident, was not that hurting to me, so I can forget about it.. Though I know, cara Puteri menulis di blog sounds hurting to the 3 of u.
My question to u.. (yes, u shld know who u are *smiles*) Adakah kerana sms yang dihantar kpd PUTERI, u behave that way to ur 2 best friends? FYI, I have a multiply account so I can read blogs from multiply, hence I know what was going on; U also play a part in that sms. Yes, I know. I read from multiply: " ..... Sedangkan sms yang dihantar atas persetujuan dan diketahui bersama oleh kami bertiga." Persetujuan dan diketahui, which means 3 of u have agreed to send that msg and know how the msg is delivered.. therefore u also play a part in the sms. If thats the case, why are u treating ur 2 best friends that way? Adakah u rasa bersalah doing that to me? Entah lah.. But I already put this behind me. I dont blame the 3 of u. I only blame myself. I am not angry with u and / or with ur 2 friends. I am angry at myself for my rash behaviour that time. Its just me who cant take a joke, as explained by Ziana's fan, a friend of mine. (Thank u for clearing the issue but dont do it often, I dun want pple to say that I need to depend on pple...)
Hmm...maybe one of ur best friends is right, u're busy but adakah itu betul? Atau alasan? I read from the same multiply: "..... Ajakan puteri untuk keluar makan sempena birthday girl pun DIA beri seribu alasan. Apa lagi untuk menonton wayang,bowling dan karaoke."
Allow me to laugh.. HAHAHAHAHA... Sorry if I antagonize any one of u again but did u and ur 2 best friends really think I seriously ask u out? Org tanya main-main jer lah.. Bukan tanya betul-betul..(Like what Ziana's fan mentioned in the comments: She can joke with pple but pple cannot joke with her - the way I deliver that invitation sms is sekadar joking jer... Minta maaf sekali lagi sekiranya 3 of u salah anggapan) Besides, takkan ah during my birthday I only want to celebrate with u..? Lainlah if we are couples.. But we are friends jer and so definitely I sent the same sms to my friends..none of them are free BUT I still have my celebration. FYI, I like to plan last min..that explains why most of my friends cant make it. *Knp suka plan last min... alahai... Puteri ni kan cucu kesayangan nenek.. so terpaksa lah berbuat demikian. *
K, now we get back to this...
Like I'd mentioned.. I still celebrate my birthday.. After work, went to have dinner and window shopping with 3 of my ex-colleagues... However, that celebration didnt last long because I remembered: There was a Rhapsodi Remix featuring Aliff Aziz (AA - only use AA for Aliff Aziz... Other pple.. dont use the letters AA, very confusing for me..*tongue lashing*) and of course, HADY MIRZA ku... So, yg mana lagi bagus? 1)Ask u to celebrate with me, 2)having friends celebrate with me or 3) watch Hady Mirza on tv? Sudah tentu ah no 3): watching Hady Mirza on TV..... Hahhaha..
I hope this clarification clears the misunderstandings among us.
Before I end this entry, I really hope u are still friends with ur 2 best friends. And janganlah kerana Puteri ataupun kerana that stupid sms joke, u treat ur friends that way. From what I read from multiply, the 3 of u are really the bestest friends ever. Even me and my best friends cannot challenge the 3 of u. The way me and my best friends being the bestest friends are way different from the 3 of u. Me and my bestest friends can never be like the 3 of u. I salute the 3 of u for that. From what I read in multiply.. u have photos of the 3 of u together in ur room and at ur office desk. Definitely I admire u for that coz although I have best friends but none of us have photos of ourselves decorated in our room or office desks.. Kita cuma simpan di photo album, laptop, internet and etc tanda kenangan. Furthermore, the 3 of u sanggup bercuti to go holiday together. Frankly speaking, me and my best friends never done that..
Plus when 1 of u falls sicks, u will go and visit. To be frank, me and my best friends never done that too. Yes, we still know one another fall sick, when that happens, we just sms one another asking one another to take care, takes lots of vitamins, rest etc etc.. Puteri doakan agar persahabatan kamu bertiga berkekalan sehingga ke akhir hayat.
*Hmm... Puteri rasa biarlah Puteri berundur diri bagi menyelamatkan keadaan, menyelematkan persahabatan kamu bertiga. Mengundur diri tak semestinya tidak keep in contact; seperti biasa.. tanya khabar berita like normal friends will do, cuma tak seperti dulu..sekiranya situasi sudah lega, Puteri akan kembali tapi tak seperti dulu...*
Before I end, I would like to express my thanks to u for treating me sebagai teman chat and sms. I appreciate those moments.. Nope, I tak marah. (kalau marah kena jual) I treat u more than a chatting and sms friend, which is kawan biasa jer; juz like how I treat my kenalan and my friends..so kalau tersalah anggap..I'm sorry. In fact I shld undur diri.. Like what 1 of ur friends say.. I'm not worthy to be ur friend because of my character...behaviour.. A friend of mine used to say this to me: Sesiapa yg ingin berkawan dgn kau kena kenal kau inside out.. kena sabar melayani kau, kena faham dgn tingkah-laku kau... alah kau faham-faham ajer lah perangai kau tu cam ner.. :D Anyway, thank u, once again for giving me the opportunity to know u as a friend. Oh! And I would also like to express my thanks to ur best friend for this nickname: SI KOPEK SENGKUANG PAKAI KUKU >> the BEST Nickname I ever received.. Tapi dah terlambat. I dah belajar cara kopek sengkuang menggunakan pisau so that nickname dah takder ertinyer lagi ah.. Heehee.. But thanks anyway..I LIKE IT! *THUMBSUP*
Before I end this entry, I would like to share something, which is related to why I must undur diri. There's this chinese song from Jay Chou, "I'm Not Worthy." So the below is the translation of the song which I edited it to reflect for the above entry as some of the lyrics dont deem suitable... Enjoy reading it everyone!
Days are no longer as green
I have yet the time in detail
But I have already left with a smile
Just a little bit more,
I am silently repeating to myself,
