Tuesday, December 25, 2007
My astrologies... Amyria, When working with others, try to smile even if you don't care about what they're saying. Let someone's story sink in before you decide whether or not to believe it. Don't pretend to believe if you really do not. Improving a relationship will first involve improving yourself. I agree. I always smile. I really do not want to care about what others say but I am emotional enuff said.. U will know what's next: Vent it all out in my blog!! Hahaha.. I totally agree that I have to improve myself first before improving / committing / starting a relationship. Which is what I have been slowly doing.. I need to improve myself in my sense of clothing.. I tend to be simply dress lah.. Now I am a secretary.. I have to wear something presentable.. Hmm, I have bought a few dresses and those trendy blouses but coz my grandma she doesnt like me to waste $$ on clothing. I'd told her, "Nenek kan mmg nak Maria jadi secretary.. Ni dah jadi pun, mesti lah berpakaian lawa sikit.. Baju-baju cam ni (showing to her those simple clothing) mana leh pakai, nanti org kata Maria ni secretary sengket." But to no avail.. =.= Faham-faham ajer lah.. old pple.. Sighz.. Amyria says: My graNdMa even mistaKen that I am n0w 'kurang ajar' didnt want to listen to her.. Duhz.. 0f coz I still respect her because she's my graNdma . . . . . Little Miss Buzy says:u need to talk rationally and must sound calm and mature....i havent got the courage myself to talk to my own parents My comments: Really really not easy.. I know my family situation. Its not that I do not want to fight for my freedom. I just cant be bothered! I have very complicated family issues. My family matters are not like most of the pple's family.. I have a stepfather and a father who was an ex-drug addict. I cant suka-suka have freedom go out here and there.. My grandmother afraid other pple will have the wrong perception: Kalau bapak dah dadah, anak kacang hantu. She worries that pple will say that..although I kept telling her, "biarlah apa mereka nak cakap.. mulut orang.." However, she wants me to have a good name.. *eyes rolling* P/S: There's something personal going on with the webmaster of Aliff-Aziz.Com and Aliff Aziz himself and because of that the webmaster want to leave the Aliff-Aziz.Com community.. The webmaster contacted me if I want to replace him. *shock* as he knows I have knowledge of HTML skills.. Alamak.. I have up to 31 December 2007 at 2359 hrs to give him the answer! Hmm..
Make a plan and follow it until you reach your goal. Trust your instincts and everything should go your way today. You may begin to notice unwanted changes if you have recently given up on a diet or exercise program. Your sweetheart is looking for less talk and more romance.
??? Sweetheart?!! Hahaha... I am still single lah dey! However, I agree affirmatively with the first sentence. Yes.. I always plan first before anything.. Now I have plan ahead for my future! I have planned that after I have passed my degree exams in March, (of coz I will go for graduation) I mean after graduation.. I will go for.. for.. DRIVING Lesson!! Hahaha.. Yes, I have make a promise to myself, before I got married, I MUST HAVE A DRIVING LICENSE! :P
Amyria,
Your leadership skills are honed and you're ready to take on the task at hand. Your friends are looking for more of your attention, but now is not the time to give it. New connections with powerful people will offer you exciting opportunities. Give yourself a pat on the back, and be proud of what you have managed to achieve.
Which is true. B and J did ask me out for pool and karaoke but I have to turn them down because:
1) I am still in debt.. pool and karaoke needs $$ ok.. I'm not saying I am selfish but I have debts to pay.. all thanks to the stupid bloody fraud.
2) I have no idea whether I'll be comfortable with my new job at ECSF. I have a new role now and I have to treat it seriously. Once I am comfortable and to release stress, sure I will either play pool, go arcade, watch movie and/or even karoake!!! Whee!!
A chat log....
This chat log is not from the beginning.. The beginning is not relevant to what I want to say.. Little Miss Buzy is the younger sis of one of my idols.. Definitely NOT Taufik AND Hady... They are the youngest.. Taufik and Hady mana ada adik lagi.. :D So, I leave it to you to guess adik siapakah si Little Mis Buzy ni? (1 more clue: Little Miss Buzy is not Aliff Aziz's younger sister too.) *winkz*
Little Miss Buzy says: Okay, lemmie ask u... how old are u?
Amyria says: 24
Little Miss Buzy says: if i were u, i'll fight for my freedom... sampai bile u want to depend on them.... ure an adult already n theY should have trust n respect on u already..
Amyria says: I am a gal.. t0 them is like n0t nice for gals to stay outside till dawn..
Little Miss Buzy says: i know but
Little Miss Buzy says :its like, life got to go on ya noe....
Little Miss Buzy says: i understand coz im a gal too (duh), my family oso strict... but i langgar for my freedom
Little Miss Buzy says:i know whats rite n wrong
Little Miss Buzy says: seriously i think u shld sit n talk to them
Amyria says: ouh.. erm..
Amyria says: k.. I will sit n talK to my mum & my graNdma especially..
Amyria says: My grandma is the obstacle..My mum is ok.. my dad is the dun care dun care type.. (the dad I'm referring to is my step dad.. Pple who are not that close to me, I shall not reveal much abt my personal life - I rather do it here thru blogging.. )
Little Miss Buzy says: is ur grandmum the kampung type
Amyria says: Well, my graNdma is the 100% kaMpung type..
Amyria says: Sometimes, when I try to talk to my grandma.. I ended up crying coz I am a loser..
Little Miss Buzy says: u just got to be strong and firm.. it is ur life after all.. other ppl can only advice and guide... but we must cntrol our own life, n0t by others....
Little Miss Buzy says: y u think ure a loser?
Amyria says: coz whenever I talk to my graNdma.. I always ended up crying. I caNt get wHAt I want which is Freedom, so I ended up crying.. coz I felt that I am a loser n0t wanting to fight m0re..
Little Miss Buzy says: but they at least know what i want n kadang-kadang they kasi
Amyria says:ic.. Ok. Like, I'd mention.. I try.. Hope for the best for me ..
Little Miss Buzy says: :)
Besides I have a stepfather.. My grandmother wants me to show my good side to my stepfather, coz my stepfather doesnt like his children (my step siblings) to come home no later than 10 pm. Later than that, they will get a slap on the face! Both my step siblings got it before.. I witnessed it! I am an exception for certain days due to nite classes. If it wasnt for nite classes, I will also kena not from my step dad.. From my GRANDMA! So, how to go for the countdown?! My grandmother will tell me: Kau kena tunjuk pada dia yg kau tak suka keluar malam mcm anak-anak dia." So, u tell me now how am I going to the countdown (for the very first time in my life) ?!!
Replying to my chabox msg:
MAM! Hello! Thanks for dropping by.. Hows everything in Donaldson? OK ? Hahaha.. I am doing OK in ECSF. InsyaAllah will do more than just OK. Amin. Will update abt my life in ECSF in future k.. :D
I am going for Taufik's Teman Istimewa Album Launching and Signing session at Jurong Point this Sunday!!! Tak dpt jumpa Hady, Taufik pun jadi lah.. Heehe..
