Monday, August 20, 2007
This entry will be in CAP LOCKS because while I wrote this I was feeling purple in rage! so with CAP LOCKS, will explain HOW ANGRY I WAS!!! NEWS OF NOT ONLY ME BUT A FEW OTHER PPLE WHO GETS THE INCREMENT HAS REACHED TO THE EARS OF THOSE WHO DO GET INCREMENT BUT NOT MUCH AND THOSE WHO DO NOT GET INCREMENT AT ALL. (Management has to be fair! Have to give increment to all the staffs to avoid disputes!) AND GUESS WHAT? NOT HAPPY LAH THEY ALL! I HAVE HEAR SO MANY "STORIES" ABOUT ME THAT CAN MAKE ME ALMOST BROKE DOWN TO TEARS! BUT I STAY FIRM AND WOULD WANT TO BLOW MY TOP BUT MY FRIENDS HAVE ALWAYS ADVISE ME AND COUNSEL ME WITH, "SABAR MARIA.. SABAR.. KITA ORG ISLAM HARUS BERSABAR." I KNOW THAT! BUT LET ME ASK YOU THIS, "IF ISLAM AJAR KITA SURUH BERSABAR, TAKKAN ISLAM TAK AJAR KITA JGN BACKSTAB ORG! SO IF DIA BACKSTAB ORG..TANDANYA DIA PEDULI APALAH DIA ISLAM KE TAK? SO WHY CANT I DO THE SAME TOO?! BLOW MY TOP ETC TANPA MEMPEDULIKAN I AM ISLAM OR NOT!" AKU YG TAK BERTUDUNG LEBIH TAU APA TU DOSA DAN PAHALA DARI YG BERTUDUNG! BUAT APER BERTUDUNG IF MULUT TU BUKAN MAIN LAZERNYER!!!! IF MULUT TU NAK BERLAZER, LEBIH BAIK BUKA SAJA TUDUNG TU TAK PAYAH BERTUDUNG.. JGN NAK EKSYEN ALIM! YES I AM TALKING ABT BACKSTABBING AND I AM VERY ASHAMED TO SAY THAT ORG KITA SENDIRI YG BACKSTAB BANGSA SENDIRI! U GET WHAT I MEAN? MELAYU ISLAM LAH! NORMAL BACKSTABBING IS FINE, TAPI KALAU BACKSTAB SAMPAI TERJEJAS PERIUK NASI ORG >> TOO MUCH! OK.. TOO MUCH! THEY ARE TESTING MY PATIENCE! BUT THEY ARE LUCKY THAT I DID NOT BLOW MY TOP! IF I WERE TO DO THAT, MY SERVICES WILL BE TERMINATE AND U KNOW THESE DAYS VERY HARD TO GET A JOB! MY GRANDMOTHER WILL BE UNHAPPY.. SO BECAUSE OF MY GRANDMOTHER, I DO NOT WISH TO BLOW UP THE MATTER. FIRST STORY: I HEARD WAS ABT ME TENDERING! W.T.F! I HEARD THAT STORY A DAY AFTER I RECEIVED NEWS THAT I GOT $50 INCREMENT. BEFORE I RELATE THE SECOND STORY, LET ME TELL YOU THE POLICY OF DONALDSON. EVERYONE WHO HAS WORK IN DONALDSON SHOULD HAVE KNOWN THAT DONALDSON WILL GIVE INCREMENT TO STAFFS WHO HAVE COMPLETED FIRST YEAR. For staffs who has worked in Donaldson for more than 2 yrs do not get increment until they have served 5 or 6 yrs in Donaldson! Thats what I heard. I do not know if what I heard is rumours. But that's what I heard. THEY STUPID OR WHAT? THEY FORGOT THE POLICY ISIT?! I HAVE SERVED ONE YR AND A FEW MTHS IN DONALDSON THATS WHY I GOT THAT INCREMENT!! IF I DIDNT GET INCREMENT EVEN AFTER I SERVED MY FIRST YR, DUN U THINK THAT'S RIDICULOUS?! THE SECOND STORY I HEARD: "HOW CAN MBS GET INCREMENT?! LAST TIME SHE DO 2 PORTFOLIOS! (I did blog abt me couldnt cope with 2 portfolios, now I am concentrating with 1 portfolio) NOW SHE DO ONLY 1. IF OTHER LAW FIRMS AH.. HER SALARY KENA CUT ALREADY! BUT WHY SHE STILL GET INCREMENT?! NOT FAIR LAH LIKE THAT! FROM 2 PORTFOLIO REDUCE TO 1 AND YET GOT INCREMENT! SHE DOESNT DESERVE TO GET INCREMENT! HER SALARY VERY HIGH ALREADY" WHAT THE FCUK! WHO THE FCUKING HELL DO U THINK U ARE SAYING, "I DUN DESERVE AN INCREMENT?! ARE U TBH?! ATBL! LST?!" ONLY LAWYERS HAVE THE FINAL SAY IN THIS MATTER! I DIDNT ASK FOR INCREMENT! & I ALSO DIDNT ASK FOR ELK (he has resigned) TO TAKE AWAY 1 PORTFOLIO AWAY FROM ME. AND $1600 SALARY THEY THINK IS HIGH?! I DUN FIND MY SALARY "VERY HIGH"! IF MY SALARY IS $2000 AND ABOVE, I CAN UNDERSTAND LAH BUT ITS ONLY $1600 AND THEY SAY "HIGH"? *eyes rolling* THE THIRD STORY: (Name of lawyers) SO STUPID AH.. THEY THEMSELVES KNOW MBS ALWAYS MAKES MISTAKES AND YET THEY GIVE HER INCREMENT! (Yes, I still do make mistakes - We are humans! Bound to make mistakes! Lawyers did approached me saying that my typing speed is indeed fast but not that accurate because I have typo errors. Fine. I will work on that. I know I still make the same mistakes - typo errors. If I noticed the mistakes, I'll reprint. If I didnt because of too much work, I may have overlooked, I didnt reprint the letter so of coz lawyers spotted the mistakes) LET ME TELL U (IF U HAPPEN TO READ THIS!). ONE OF LAWYERS CAME TO SEE ME AND SAID TO ME THAT I HAVE BEEN PERFORMING VERY WELL. I CAN CONCENTRATE MORE AND I CAN CLEAR MOST OF MY BACKLOGS EVER SINCE ELK TOOK AWAY 1 PORTFOLIO FROM ME. I SMILED TO MYSELF BECAUSE KERJA AKU DIHARGAI. HOWEVER, HE MENTIONED THAT I CAN GET MORE INCREMENT, HE DID STATE THE AMOUNT BUT TO AVOID ANY DISCREPANCIES (in case they happen to read this, I do not wish to state the actual amount here) INSTEAD OF $50 BUT BECAUSE I HAVE TYPO ERRORS IN MY LETTERS DURING THOSE 1 YR OF WORK PERFORMANCE, THEY HAVE TO SETTLE FOR $50. THIS IS WHAT I REPLIED, "Its Ok. I appreciate it still. Well, low or high increment, it does not matter to me. I am not that money face. I find my salary is already reasonable enough for a DIPLOMA holder. Even after this increment, my salary is still within the market salary for a diploma graduate." He nodded. FOURTH STORY..
I REALLY WANNA RESIGN! THE SOONER THE BETTER! I HAVE ENUFF! DAH BAGUS TAU I DIDNT BLOW MY TOP! IF I WERE TO DO THAT, DONALDSON SHOULD HAVE GIVEN ME A 24 HR TERMINATION NOTICE LONG AGO! YEAH! I THINK ITS BEST FOR ME TO BLOW MY TOP THE NEXT TIME, SO THAT DONALDSON CAN TERMINATE ME.. AND I WILL BE GONE FROM DONALDSON! THE SOONER THE BETTER! !!!
WHATS WRONG WITH THESE PPLE?! THEY HAVE BEEN WORKING IN DONALDSON LONGER THAN I DO, I AM SURE THEY SHOULD KNOW THE POLICY! THE POLICY IS.. DONALDSON WILL ONLY GIVE INCREMENT TO STAFFS AFTER THEIR FIRST YEAR. FOR THE NEXT YEAR OR FOLLOWING YEARS, IT WILL DEPENDS ON THEIR WORK PERFORMANCE.
I JOINED DONALDSON ON 17 MARCH 2006. TODAY, I HAVE SERVE DONALDSON FOR ONE YEAR FIVE MTHS AND THREE DAYS. 17 MARCH 2007, MARKED MY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY IN DONALDSON. I SHOULD BE GETTING AN INCREMENT IN THAT MONTH OR IN THE NEXT MONTH. I DIDNT. I GOT AN INCREMENT ONLY IN JUNE. (W.E.F 1 JUNE 2007). Reason: The management wants to give increment in the mid of 2007. Fine.
SO.. WITH AN INCREMENT OF $50, MY SALARY AS I HAVE MENTIONED HERE IN MY BLOG: $1650. WHAT CAN I SAY? ALHAMDULILAH. SYUKUR. $50 or $100 or whatever is the amount, its all blessings by Allah S.W.T. I KNOW ITS NOT MUCH BUT STILL ALHAMDULILAH. JGN TAMAK. TUHAN TIDAK SUKA PADA ORG YG TAMAK.
SO THE FOURTH STORY:-
"NOT FAIR U KNW! ZJ DO PATENT. KR ALSO DO PATENT. MBS DOES NOT DO PATENT. BUT HER SALARY MORE THAN ZJ AND KR! HOW CAN! IF ZJ AND KR GOT HIGHER SALARY THAN US, WE UNDERSTAND LAH ITS STANDARD.. PATENT VERY HARD SO SHLD GIVE MORE PAY. BUT MBS ONLY DO HER STUPID GAZETTES! AND THOSE GAZETTES ARE TRADE MARKS GAZETTES! THEN HER SALARY IS $1650 ... (Yes, they know my salary because the HR/Payroll dept also not happy that I get that high salary compared to most of the pple in Donaldson so she voiced out her unhappiness! How do I know about this? Do not forget, B and J are still working in Donaldson and they are in accounts dept.. Accounts, HR/Payroll dept are just next to each other. News reached them, they informed me)
...ZJ DO PATENT AND MIND YOU SHE IS A SECRETARY TO A PATENT PARALEGAL AND HER SALARY HAS NOT EVEN TOUCHED $1600. KR WHO HAS THE EXPERIENCE FROM D & N and his designation is PATENT EXECUTIVE, his sal HAS NOT TOUCHED $1500. THEN SHE DO ONLY TRADE MARKS SAME AS US ONLY A CLERK NOT EVEN AN EXECUTIVE, GET MORE THAN US/THEM?! (thats because ZJ joined Donaldson in November 2006! and KR just joined Donaldson this year in March! If they have served their first yr, I am affirmative that both ZJ and KR will get an increment and after that increment, will definitely be more than my sal - WHY CANT THEY JUST THINK NATURALLY AND RATIONALLY?! FIKIR LAH DULU SEBELUM MAIN HEMBUS JER!)
ZJ knows about this. She tak kisah. She said its rezeki masing-masing. She also does not seem to understand the attitude of pple in Donaldson! Sighz.. Pple also have been talking abt her. I just dun understand lah! THESE PPLE IF THEY SEE THE PPLE THEY DISLIKE THEY WILL SURELY "MAKE UP STORIES". IF THEY LIKE THAT PERSON, THEY BEFRIEND THAT PERSON!
FIFTH STORY: "SURE OR NOT MBS HAS DIPLOMA? I HEARD HER DIPLOMA FROM PRIVATE INST..ALAH.. EKSYEN SAY SHE DIPLOMA GRADUATE.. HER DIPLOMA TAK BOLEH PAKAI LAH.. NOT FROM POLY NYER.. SO HER SALARY SHOULD BE MARKET SALARY FOR 0 LEVEL! BECAUSE SHE USED THAT USELESS DIPLOMA OF HERS, THATS WHY SHE GET THAT KIND OF PAY! IF OTHER LAW FIRMS, THEY WILL SEE WHAT DIPLOMA IS THAT LOCAL OR PRIVATE.. OF COZ PRIVATE WILL CONSIDER AS 0 LEVELS AND JGN HARAP DIA BOLEH DPT GAJI CAMTU!"
HELLO?! IS THIS LAW FIRM A GOVERNMENT SECTOR OR PRIVATE?! DEFINITELY PRIVATE SO I SHOW MY DIPLOMA WHICH IS FROM PRIVATE >> ACCEPTABLE WHAT?! ITS NOT AS IF I AM APPLYING A JOB IN HPB (HEALTH PROMOTION BOARD - a statutory board) or in IPOS (INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY OF SINGAPORE @alias Registry of Trade Marks, Singapore - a statutory board) or in MOE (Ministry of Education) WITH MY PRIVATE DIPLOMA! OF COZ IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE! STUPID!
MY DIPLOMA USELESS ?! (tak boleh pakai?!) THEN WHY THE HELL I STUDIED AND PAID ALMOST $5k FOR IT?! U DO NOT KNOW THE REASON WHY I OPTED FOR A PRIVATE STUDY RATHER THAN GOING TO LOCAL POLYTECHNICS SO SHUT UP UR ASS OK?! (I can go and study for some courses at local polytechnics but I opted for this route. I have my reasons.)
FINAL STORY: THIS IS ALREADY TOO MUCH! I HAVE ENUFF. NASIB BAIK WHEN I HEARD THIS STORY, I DIDNT GO AND CONFRONT THEM AND SIMBAH AIR PANAS KAT MUKA MEREKA! A voice sumhow whispered to mee, "Bersabar.. Bersabar." (Be patient. Be patient.) IF IT WASNT FOR THE VOICE.. DAH LECUR LAH MUKA DIA KENA AIR PANAS - KOPI PULAK TU!
I was away from my desk for an hour to go to the filing room which was located at 13th floor of the same building. Reason: The filing guys had to go to IPOS for some urgent matters. So we, the secretaries, executives and clerks, should we need to retrieve certain files, we have to locate ourselves. Since, a lawyer wish to have that particular file urgently, I took the initiative to go down to 13th floor to locate it myself.
Before I left, we have to informed our colleagues who are near to us, should anyone came looking for me, please tell them I went to the 13th floor. I did inform those sitted near me. I heard, "OK." So I went down to 13th floor. Indeed, a Trade Mark paralegal came to my desk to search for me. She has been searching for me for a few times already and then she asked, "Where's MBS?"
WANNA KNOW THE REPLY?! "DUN KNOW." YES, THAT FELLOW ANSWERED, "DUN KNOW!" KAN ANIAYA NYER KERJA TU! I CAME BACK AN HOUR LATER AND BEFORE I COULD JUST SIT DOWN TO REST, THAT SAME PERSON, "MBS JUST NOW YAC LOOKING FOR U. I SAID I DUN KNW WHERE ARE U." I WAS PETRIFIED! I STOOD UP AND SAID THIS, "I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU ALREADY I WENT TO 13th floor to LOCATE FILE?!" THAT PERSON, "OUH ISSIT? DIDNT REALIZE U WERE ACTUALLY TALKING TO ME."
I WANTED TO SCREAM, "U DIDNT REALIZE I WAS INFORMING YOU?! BUT U SAID OK?!" AT HER! BUT THAT BACKFIRED. SIGHZ.
SHE DIDNT REALIZE I WAS TALKING TO HER SO I WAS TALKING TO THE "WALL"? I WAS TALKING TO A GHOST?! Then I saw a note by YAC asking me to fax the letter for her. (her secretary was on leave so she loves to ask me take over her secretary's work, I have no idea and of coz pple in donaldson were green in envy! because I was given a red carpet everytime when her secretary went on leave.)
Fine, I will fax the letter. As I was about to go to the fax machine, LST came to me and he said he wants to see me. OK. Sure. Of COZ.. THEY ALL HEARD IT ALREADY LAH.. SO DEFINITELY GOT ANOTHER STORY TO MAKE UP LAH! After I faxed the letter, I went in to LST's room. He asked abt the file whether I have got hold of it. I told him that I went down to 13th floor to locate it but I sumhow couldnt find it. I also told him that I understand the urgency and rest assured that I will get one of the guys to locate it first thing tmr morning. He agreed and nodded. I left the room. I went to YAC and passed her the letter and the confirmation fax report. I also told her that I was at 13th floor locating for file when she was looking for me. She got what I meant and nodded.
AS I WAS WALKING PASS MY TABLE... "LST WANT TO SEE YOU FOR?" U KNOW WHAT I ANSWERED, "WHY? U THINK WHAT? YAC COMPLAIN TO HIM THAT I WASNT AT MY DESK ISSIT?! HE CAME LOOKING FOR ME BECAUSE HE WANTS TO DATE ME OUT.. HE SAID AMONG ALL THE CLERKS HERE AH.. I AM THE "CLEVER" ONE COZ GOT DIPLOMA MAH.. SO HE ASKED ME OUT LAH.. WHY? JEALOUS AH?!"
Silence for a while. Tercungkil nak keluar so I went to the toilet. I WAS ALONE IN THE TOILET WHEN I HEARD ANOTHER PERSON (THE SAME PERSON WHO HAS BEEN SAYING THOSE STORIES ABT ME) COMING IN WITH HER "KAKI" AH.. AND TALKING ABT ME!
"SURE OR NOT SI MBS TU GO 13TH FLOOR LOOK FOR FILE? SHE BROUGHT HER HP ALONG TAU! SHE WANT TO LOCATE FILE OR TALK ON THE PHONE! PANDAI PULAK TU DIA JAGA PERIUK NASI DIA!"
I DIDNT EVEN GO OUT FROM THE CUBICLE. I STAYED IN THERE UNTIL THOSE 2 LEFT THE TOILET! FROM THAT CONVERSATION, I KNOW.. THAT PERSON PURPOSELY DO NOT WANT TO TELL YAC I WAS AT 13TH FLOOR. PURPOSELY SAID "DUN KNOW" SO TO GIVE AN IMPRESSION TO YAC THAT I WASNT DOING MY WORK!
I WAS FUMING MAD AND CONTROLLING MY ANGER. NAK AJER AKU KELUAR DARI CUBICLE TU AND TAMPAR MUKA DIA! ALL THESE WHILE THEY HAVE BEEN TRYING TO SABOTAGE MY RICE BOWL!
THE MENTION OF 'PERIUK NASI' (rice bowl) ONLY, I HAVE KNOW WHAT HAD BEEN HAPPENING ALL THIS WHILE. AND I ALSO KNOW WHY (name withheld) ANSWERED, "I DONT KNOW", TO YAC WHEN YAC ASKED WHERE WAS I. TRYING TO SABO ME!!!
I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE..
STRAITS TIMES CLASSIFIED... HERE I COME!
