Friday, February 09, 2007
Ever since I watched Curse of The Golden Flower movie, da law firm I am currently working in now is sumhow undergoing a "curse" since da starting of da new year. 1 by 1 staffs - including 3 lawyers (ELK is one of them ) and secretaries (ELK's secretary is one of them) - tendered.
Reflect back to what I rant on 5 February 2007. By Friday, 9th February, I hope I get a call soon. If not, I wont give up to find some other jobs. AFTER WHAT I HEARD, IT MAKES ME MORE DETERMINED TO RESIGN AS SOON AS POSSIBLE BECOZ I CANT TOLERATE THIS ANY LONGER!!!
W.E.F 2nd Feb, ELK, da lawyer in charge of TM dept spoke to me and BB. Referring to my entry dated December 16 2006 , he feels that I need reinforcement, hence he gave one portfolio away from me and gave it to BB.
My 2 portfolios are doing da CD 29, CD 64, CD 17 and BRUTM27 as well as handling gazzettes and journals of not only Singapore TM files BUT also Malaysia and Brunei. 2 portfolios may sound easy or not that many BUT IT IS MANY WHEN U SEE FILES KEPT PILING UP TILL SUMTIMES I HAVE TO STAND WHILE TYPING OUT DOCUMENTS BECOZ DA FILES ALREADY TAKING UP MY SEAT.
So, he took one portfolio away, which was, CD29, CD64, CD 17, BRUTM 27. And I am left doing da journals. It didnt matter to me at all. He wants to lessen my workload, I'll accept it. He's da boss, he has da right to decide. HOWEVER....
Da day when I have to train BB on that portfolio of mine, OMG... Many busybodies la in this company. 1 by 1 kept asking me. They eagerly wanna know and they insist to know that very moment. Fine.
"Eh, why ah u have to teach BB?"
"How would I know? He wants me to teach, I teach ah."
"He didnt tell u why?"
"How would I know."
I am so fcuking fed up la.. IF THEY WANNA KNOW SO MUCH RITE, WHY DUN THEY GO IN AND ASK HIM DIRECTLY, "Mr ELK, why does MBS have to train BB?" What will they get for an answer!!! Bunch of busybodies!!! CANT THEY MIND THEIR OWN FCUKING BUSINESS?!!!
BUT AFTER I HEARD THIS VERY HURTING PLUS INSULTING REMARKS,I HAVE PROMISED MYSELF THAT I MUST RESIGN FROM THIS COMPANY BEFORE I BLOW MY TOP!!
BB told me this morning that she almost want to cry when pple said da same remarks to her but she controlled her tears. When she told me of da same, I was angry. I speak as loud as I can so that da others can get to hear me and know how ANGRY I AM. Although BB didnt mention any names to prevent any controversies, still I talked as loudly as I can. Let them know HOW ANGRY I WAS!!!
DA INSULTING REMARK WAS, "So, BB..Now u have TO CLEAR ALL HER SHITS la.."
DUN U FIND IT FUCKINGLY INSULTING!!! CANT THEY JUST SAY BACK LOGS? WHY MUST USE SUCH A CALUMNIATING WORD SUCH AS SHITS!!! HELLO!! DUN THEY REALIZE THAT I AM DIPLOMA HOLDER. IF HE GAVE ME, A DIPLOMA HOLDER "SHITS", WHAT ABT THEM THEN, WHO DOESNT HAVE DIPLOMA? WONT THEIR WORK BE FAR WORSE THAN SHITS?!!!!
LET ME JUST VENT IT OUT.. SO THAT I WILL FEEL BETTER. TO WHOEVER FUCKER WHO SAID THAT TO BB, I JUST WANNA TELL U THIS, "SINCE WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR DA PAST 11 MONTHS IN THIS LAW FIRM ARE NOTHING BUT SHITS, I TAKE IT. I DUN MIND DOING DA SHITS I AM SUPPOSED TO DO COZ I WAS PAID TO DO IT.. AND MIND U, MY SALARY THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME IS $1,600. YES..FOR ALL DA SHITS I HAVE TO DO, I WAS GIVEN THAT SALARY! AND I AM HAPPY TO DO DA SHITS THAT I AM SUPPOSED TO DO. HMM, MAYBE U ARE AWARE THAT I WAS GIVEN THAT KIND OF PAY FOR DOING ALL DA SHITS, SO U'RE KINDA OF ENVIOUS THAT INSTEAD OF PASSING TO U TO CLEAR ALL MY SHITS, ELK PASSED IT TO BB SO U SAID THOSE OFFENSIVE REMARKS. IF U WANNA INSULT ME, PLEASE HAVE SOME LIMIT. DUN MAKE IT TO SUCH EXTENT. IF U ARE A LAWYER AND U SAID THOSE REMARKS TO BB OR TO ME OR TO, I CAN ACCEPT IT BUT UR POST IS DA SAME AS ME, AND YET UR WORDS ARE SO ABUSIVE! TRYING TO SHOW UR "AUTHORITY"? U ARE HUMAN. I AM HUMAN TOO. HUMANS HAVE FEELINGS. DA WAY U BLURT OUT DA WORDS, U DIDNT EVEN WANNA THINK OF HOW I WOULD FEEL? U ONLY THINK OF URSELF!! FINE. LET ME ASK U SOMETHING, IF U ARE BEEN INSULTED DA WAY THAT I HAVE BEEN INSULTED, HOW WOULD U FEEL? DEFINITELY U WILL FEEL DA SAME WAY AS I DO. IF U DO NOT FEEL DA WAY I FEEL WHEN SUMONE ELSE INSULTED U, THEN U BETTER OFF BE A MONSTER THAN BEING A HUMAN COZ U DUN HAVE FEELINGS WHEREAS, HUMANS DO!! EVEN ANIMALS HAVE FEELINGS!!
BEFORE I END, MY FINAL NOTE, I HATE IT WHEN PPLE WHO ARE LOWER EDUCATED THAN ME INSULT ME. I HAVE NO IDEA ABT UR EDUCATIONAL STATUS BUT I AM PRETTY SURE MOST OF DA STAFFS - except da lawyers - HAVE AT LEAST O LEVELS. SO FAR AS I KNOW, I AM DA ONLY ONE WHO IS DIPLOMA HOLDER. I DUN KNOW I DUN CARE I DUN BOTHER! LET ME REPEAT, I HATE IT IF PPLE OF A LOWER EDUCATIONAL STATUS INSULT ME!!! I REALLY HATE IT!!! SO IF U HAPPEN TO HAVE A LOWER EDUCATIONAL STATUS THAN ME, READ THIS AGAIN: I HATE IT!!! REALLY HATE IT!! "
