I guess I am someone who can really hide how I feel. I have to constantly remind myself, tis is not da time to break into pieces. Tis is not da time to crumble into bits n start to sort out my mind to get ready for everything all over again. Just becoz, tis is not da time yet.

But how much can we control our fate? Our mind? Our emotions? Sometimes I guess we cldn't control as much as we wanna control to be. Guess getting tired of everything n juz wan to run away frm reality is a part & parcel of life tat every single one will go through. I am no exception. But how long can one feel like this? I myself won't wan it to sustain for too long, becoz I knw it will hinder me in every work I do. But how much am I able to control how I feel?

I am alrdy tat someone who can just cry readily when I feel like crying. I am alrdy tat someone who may just pour every single bits of problems I have in my mind when I am really very vexed. But I wish tat I am a someone who does not need to hide my emotions. Yes, I do complain, I do whine. But to a certain extent, I realise I am not being truthful enough to myself. How truthful can one be in front of ur friends n folks? I can be very truthful, but definitely not to how I feel.

I guess dilemma exists in every situations. But how do I take control of it? Dun ask me now. My life seems to be in a mess. Call me a deep thinker. I dun care. But maybe I am really one. Something I shld really go and learn. Is to be truthful to how I feel.

Amyria pours her heart out @ 9:21 pm   |