Sunday, August 20, 2006
listening to Never Had A Dream Come True - S Club 7 He: When can u ever beat me? Tat shows tat u have low I.Q. Simple games like tat yet can lose.. My fish has better IQ den u.. (WAT?!! He compared me with his pet fish!!!) He: Always lose to me in watever games we play.. U neva think of any strategy to play da game. Me: Even if I play any game and I win, wat I get? So juz play lah.. Win or lose neva gain or lose anything.
B4 I start tis entry of mine, may I ask a question frm u readers.. Do u knw ur bad pts?
Let me be frank and tell u, I have no idea wat is my bad pt.. I am aware tat each and everyone of us has our own bad pts but it depends if we realize it.. For me, I dun even realize wat bad pts I have!!! (tats becoz pple neva commented on my bad pts.. even if they did, i brushed it aside!!!) So, when pple asked me abt my bad pts, I juz dun knw how to ans.. If I am forced to, I wld juz make it up and who knws if pple thinks tat/those is/are my bad pt(s), I hit da jackpot!!
However, 'he' accused me of being a liar, dishonest, insincere and untruthful juz becoz 'he' found out tat da bad pt I told him wasnt not my sincere ans!!!
Who is tis 'he' I am referring to? Well, congratz to those who have guessed correctly, but sorry no prize haha.. Its B. yes, B.
On Sat 12 August, we logged on to MSN as usual for a chat. As we were bored, he invited me over for a game of tic tac toe. I accepted it. The stipulation of da game was, whoever lose have to give one bad pt. If lose 1 game, 1 bad pt. (B's idea)
Tic Tac Toe game, out of 4 games, we tied 3 games and guess who lose da 4th game? ME!!! Therefore, I had to give a bad pt. Gosh!! I was still for a moment and within 2 mins, I typed: Impatient.. He replied: Ok.
Another game, Reversi. Throughout da game, I was winning. But I wasnt concentrating enuff and at da last notch, I lost!! I mastered a score of 30 and B accomplished a score of 34. Oh no! Another bad pt!!!
Tis time, I was stumped and had no idea wat to think of for another bad pt. I took more than 2 mins.. B was awaiting for a response frm me.
B: Quick leh..
Me: Wait ah..
B: Y need to think so long one?
Me: Cannot ah.. Can dun give anot.. U have one alrdy.. Impatient.. U really think I am impatient ah..B: ya
(So, on tat day den I found out tat my bad pt is impatient!! I didnt even realize it!! Been spending my life on earth for more than 20 years and I didnt even realize Impatient is one of my bad pt.. Hah. )
B felt something amiss and typed out: U mean u anyhow say impatient issit?
ME: Err, yeah and I hit da jackpot!! Haha
B: so u not telling da true..u anyhow make it up... So insincere and untruthful
B: juz nice 2 bad pt..
Me: Wat u mean I not truthful and not sincere.. I really dun noe wat is my bad pt.. it is not tat i dun want to tell u my bad pt
(no reply frm him, all of a sudeen he went offline... tis argument shall be continued.. i am displeased with da criticism fact tat I am not honest, sincere and truthful by B)
On Sun 13 August, as usual we MSN. We played another MSN games. It was checkers.. I asked him if there was any stipulations.. He revert back to me, "nothing..we juz play"
So, we played da game checkers.. I admit tat I wasnt good in checkers game..hence, as expected, I lose da game..
Den..da "heated argument" (MSN style) began...
(Look!! It is easier for him to play coz he has a computer to himself!!! whenever he has da free time, he will play games.. but tis wasnt da case for me!! As u knw, me and my siblings shared da usage of our laptop.. I will let them use first and when it comes to my turn, I didnt even have da time to play any online games.. ASSIGNMENT more impt!!! So, how cld he say tat I have low I.Q juz becoz i lost a number of games to him!! Isnt tat insulting?!! I hate it when pple INSULT me!!!)
Me: Wat makes u think I have low I.Q?
He: nobody in tis company can be trusted yet as wat i can see. all neva been true and sincere to me.Me: Wat do u mean?
He: J and PW also not trutful to me.. PW dun say lah.. She loves telling stories.. with loopholes.. and J, I think underestimate me.. and u...
Me: ?? ME ??
He: not true and sincere also..
Me: Excuse me? y do u say tat ?
He: K, remember u told me tat u like a guy and u wont tell da guy u like him coz too shy rite?
Me: yes
He: den how come yestday u shared to me tat u got rejected b4? didnt express how to reject?
Me: a friend of mine told him..
He: u also said u dun even want to tell ur friend. how come ur friend noe?
Me: Aiyah c my body movement, she can tell..
He: for ur info, I have very gd memory.. i remember wat pple tell me. den I ask them. I will go and analyze. I can tell tat they r lying when i ask da same question to them on different times and they answered differently all da time..
He: no one in tis company is gd to me. I can sense there r hiding certain facts abt themselves frm me whenever i ask them abt those certain things
Me: tats becoz pple dun really knw one another tat well so cant possibly tell everything abt themselves..
Me: Since u want pple to be sincere to u.. I have sumthing to tell u.. Remember we discuss abt our salary.. We both knw it is confidential..
Me: FYI, my salary IS NOT $1200. It is higher than tat. (He is earning a salary of roughly ard tat amt)
He: Oh, J also earning more than me.But she always emphasis tat I am earning more than her.
Me: Issit? She told me her salary same as me >> as in $1200
He: Last year, she told me $1,000 only
(as it was abt 2.am, we both logged out as da next day we had to work. he had informed b4 hand tat he wont be lunching with me da next day - tat was b4 da argument started - so it was o.k. i cldnt sleep. i was in deep thought abt da whole thing. i was kinda displeased with da criticism fact given by B.. b4 i cld start with my soul-searching, i fall asleep)
When I woke up on Monday morning, da 1st thing came to my mind was: da argument between me and B.. I had decided tat I wont be going out with anybody for lunch. I wanted to go elsewhere alone to sit and examine our conversation da previous night. . . . .
Aft lunch, I received his sms...
B: how come 2day u didnt lunch with J?
Me: I busy.. I told her alrdy
B: ya i noe so i lunch with her
Me: I thot u have sumthing to do?
B: she alone wat so i accompany her. u lunch in ?
(since he loves pple to be sincere to him, I honestly replied to him)
Me: Actually I didnt lunch in, I lunch out. I want to be alone. I want to do some thinking
He: thinking abt da things I said yestday?
(bingo!!! he got it right!)
Me: Yes. I am trying to analyze it but still havent came to a conclusion
(We didnt even waited for each other. Aft 5.30pm, I knocked off. In da train, I continued with my broodiness. I wished to clear da air with him. I have my reasons on why I kept certain facts abt myself frm him and/or why I didnt really tell him any truth.. Like wat he told me in MSN, 'no one in tis company can be trusted' so I had to think twice b4 telling anyone including him more abt my personal life)
I waited for him to log in to MSN. J was there too.. But I didnt really chat much with her. I was only interested to clarify things with B.. but it turns out...
(Wat a surprise, he approached me first!)
B: hi
Me: ya, hi
B: so wat u think today ?
Me: After all allegoration, my mind is still stumped, still cant came up to a closure
(den, silence.. maybe he was chatting abt sumthing else with J)
Me: had u ever been insulted b4?
B: ya
Me: When u feel insulted, how u feel? do u feel kinda of pissed off
B: ya, aiyah come straight to da pt la
Me: Ok. I am pissed off lor..
B: by me?
Me: yes
B: so i think we lunch separately..
Me: until i cool down ?
B: see how lor
(there was a another pause)
B: wat is it tat i say tat u not happy?
Me: abt last nite la..
B: ya y?
Me: juz becoz i lose quite a number of games to u, how cld u say I have low I.Q? and u compared me with a fish.. i dun think tat is a joke.
(i knw he meant it as a joke but tat was kinda hurtful..)
B: ok
Me: all u can say is ok?!!!
B: sorry lor
Me: Now u tell me, y u said i am not being truthful to u..
B: K, if I lose I wil tell u my bad pt.. I dun make it up
Me: How I knw wat is my bad pt.. Where have pple knw their bad pts?
B: wat if i say i knw my bad pt..
Me: tat is u.. not me..
B: ok
B: u can actually say no to da game..
Me: I thot I can win, how I knw I will lose to u again..
B: i tel u how much i earn.. but u lied..
Me: I thot u said to always be humble, didnt u ? so i was juz being humble la
B: humble and lie two different things leh
Me: Look here!! If I wld have to tell u how much I earned when we both juz got to knw each other... U wld think tat I am too proud or even u wld think tat I am pushing u down coz u earned lesser than me.. So tat was y..i was juz being modest and tell u a sal of a lower amt than urs..
(there was a loooonnnnggg silence.. I guess it was his turn now to do some thinking.. so I continued)
ME: U didnt knw me tat well yet. So there are some facts tat i dun wish to let it out.. And den u can tell me tat I lied... ?!!!!!
(no reply)
(since I was getting very sleepy, I need to log off but he still hadnt replied yet. So...)
Me: U have anything to say?
Me: If nothing to say den I go 1st.. bye
I den logged off... I was still very pissed.. Oh, in between da heated argument, I didn chat with J since she send me a msg.. I cant be tat nasty to ignore her, can I? She suspected sumthing not rite between me and B.. (I guess, B might have told her too in MSN) So, I shared with her.. She wasnt on anyone's side.. She juz hope da 2 of us (Me and B) will be on gd terms again..
Wanna knw wat happen to me and B for da whole week at work? Did we really didnt go for lunch? Hence, u have to stay tuned for da continuation.. I have to stop her coz tis entry is alrdy getting very long and it will be very banausic (for some who didnt knw wat is banausic - boring/dull) for reading tis so, it shall be continued..
Song listeing to now : Radja - Jujur
