Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Da reason y i wrote tat particular entry is because: If i dun allow my family members STOPPING Me frm applying at NIE, I also allow dun allow pple outside my family to stop me as well! Also, she heard tat tis Sheng Shiong Supermarket at Clementi, newly opened needs a clerk. I knw, i saw tat notice right at da doorstep when i came in but i dun wish to apply. Why? Juz read da name of da supermarket: SHENG SHIONG. It is a chinese kinda name. Definitely they need those who can speak Mandarin for their clerk! I dun wanna waste my time to apply! However, my mum went there on a later half of da day n saw tat notice. Apa lagi, when she came back, kat depan pintu tu jugak she shouted across at me as i was in my room, "Kau talipon nombor ni. blah blah.. Sheng Shiong nak pakai clerk. Kau call esok (becoz tat day was a Sunday). Mana lah tau kau call esok, dia panggil interview ke. Dpt kat situ dekat. Gaji $1200 pun alrite." Did I call? Apparently on Monday (yestday) i forgot. Wah.. My mum during her lunch time, called me u knw! while i was on my way to workShe called to ask whether I had call tat no. I told her no. She was damn frustrated man! So i told her, "I have a sch assignment which is due tis Thursday. Since my woking hours are 1pm to 5.30pm, y not i make use of da morning time to do my assignment. Tats more impt." Sigh.. No use my mum said, "U juz called da no, it wont take 3 hrs! Its juz 5 mins. Its a matter of u wan or dun wan!" When i got back hm, i told my grnadma its not tat i dun wanna apply. But i knw definitely they need a chinese person coz da name of da supermarket sounded so. She said juz call da number tmr(which is today) to appease her. I did. And I had alrdy expected it. When I call, they asked, "chinese or malay?" Of coz I answer tat I am da latter! Den with their broken english, they said, "We want Chinese coz we all english no gd, sum cannot even read english so if have chinese working for us, can help us translate those paper work." Dun understand? They merely said, "Sorry, we expecting a Chinese to call us because our knowledge of English is unlimited. We need a Chinese to help us read and deal all the invoices, quotations.. blah blah." I had told tat 2my mum. She juz kept quiet. She asked how da way they speak English 2me. I had alrdy told her, "dia mcm nak ckp word ni in English, lama dia baru boleh ckp, abih words lain dia ckp pelat." Translate: "She was like struggling to say a certain word. It took her quite a long time to say tat certain word. And some of da other words, she cant pronounce properly." Den my mum said, "Oh...Cina kampung la tu semua yg kerja kat situ." Den i said to her: "Dah tau mcm tu, asal suruh org apply?" She: "Try aje!" Yeah rite! Like tat i can also 'try aje' to apply as a teacher! It is all da news fault! Da article sumtime in February abt Siti Suhana Sa'at. Because of tat article, my family has no faith tat i can b a teacher successfully w/o a need to pay da bond! Y muz she published her story in da papers?! Watever for? to tell all those teacher-wanna-be to think b4 applying da job? To worry all those parents of teacher-wanna-be?! Or to show her sad mourning face (she didnt show her face in da paper, guess to ashamed or da newspaper reporter doesnt wan to? No idea) n gain sympathy frm readers?! P/S: Watched Shooting Stars juz now... OH MY GOD!!! I SAW HIM!! SAW WHO?! H.A.I.Z.A.D!!! HAIZAD!! AW... must not goin 2miss it, definitely there will be more of him.. (",)
Well, if u'd read my blog entry on 8th July, (i think) i blogged abt my mum. If u can remember, I said, my mum DIDNT KNW DA MEANING OF PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL. She interferes wif my privacy. I hate it! Yes, I knw - to tell her - tat i dun wan her to interfere my privacy - but i ended up being scolded instead! Her ans is always, "I am ur mother n u r my daughter. I have da right to knw wat u r up to." CrapZ!
U see, I applied at NIE using my private Diploma. I knw tat my private diploma will not going to be recognize. I have asked NIE b4 hence I dun wanna apply as yet. But ever since da day, I signed my name as a gurantor for my cousin - her application to be a trainee teacher is successful - so I tried again to apply.
Den juz recently, i think my mum checked da letter box b4 me. Like I have said, she DIDNT KNW DA MEANING OF PRIVATE N CONFIDENTIAL. So when she saw an envelope FOR ME wif da words, PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL, she is da one who read it first!
So when i came back, she approached me n asked, "when do u apply?" I have no idea wat da hell she was asking till she showed me da letter. Dratz! she read it first before me! I was too tired to ans her but i knw my mum! She will wait till I ans her question. No choice, I told her.
I thot tat was over. But aft having my dinner, and I was enjoying myself comfortably listening to songs in my laptop when she came into my room n bombard me with questions again. And tis time, my grandma heard it. She thot i applied for a job n she wanted to knw more like wat kinda job was tat. My mum told her tat i didnt apply for a job but i applied for a teacher-training.
Guess wat?! She fired up at me! She said (translate to English), "U ah... not tired ah! When u wanna stop studying?! Dun follow pple - she was referring to Nadiah." When i told them tat i didnt follow any pple, I follow my heart n i told them tat I HAD ALWAYS WANNA B A TEACHER, same thing...no use: They fired up at me!
My mum doesnt allow me to apply tat teacher training ever again! She said dun ever apply. My grandma alrdy gave me a warning, not to apply, if apply get accepted, she will tell all my cousins n uncles n aunts NOT to be my gurantor!
WHY?! All mothers shld b encourage have their child tlo apply a profession like a teacher! But y is my family da opposite! They said Nadiah apply as a teacher not becoz she really wans 2b a teacher but becoz she applied to a lot of jobs along wif her Chinese friends but her Chinese friends got da job n not her. Since they said tat, I talked back at them, "Tats Nadiah. I am proud of her! Being a teacher is not her ambition (altho it is but they thot otherwise) n she applied. For me, teaching has always been my ambition y cant u let me apply?!"
But still they said NOT TO APPLY! They said if i were to fail, who will wanna pay tat bond? I knw tat being a teacher, n we failed, we had to pay a huge amt of money. They said, "who's gonna pay? u will go crazy u knw! where to get $60,000 to $70,000?!" C'mon! Y r they thinking negatively?! Be positive!!!
It is all tat bloody news fault! Remember da article sumtime in February abt Siti Suhana Sa'at - tats her name, i think? Because of tat article, maybe tat was da reason Y my mum n grandma discouraged me frm applying. They scared tat if i were to fail (they knw i will, they said my voice is not loud n clear n firm enuff) i will have to pay a certain huge amt tat can neva end up paying till my age is 50 or 60. And y grandma said, "pple at tat age shld have enjoy life but u paying ur debts. Like tat men dun wanna u coz u no money! u use ur money to pay ur debts!" HELLO! Y is my grandma saying tat?! Who says i wanna marry?! As wat Anura had said, "mulut aku masin", n so if i said i dun wanna marry, i will not want to marry!
Anyway, mayb b coz of tat article..i WAS DISCOURAGED by them!! Cant they think positively for a while? They shld b happy of tis ambition tat i have. Abt da bond, they shld say sumthing like, "I knw u can do it. Pass da teacher-training exams n da bond u do not need 2pay." But INSTEAD OF SAYING TAT, i was ASKED NOT TO APPLY!!!
MY mum..she said, "lain yg aku suruh kau apply lain yg kau apply." Meaning, she actually asking me to apply for tis job at ICA >> Immigration Checkpoint Authority as a Customer Support Assistant/Officer. Salary is $1600, Diploma level, $1300, 3 GCE O levels and $1000 for 5 N levels passes. I had guess it! I dun no y my mum is too money faced! She kept on pressurizing me to apply to ICA job coz of da salary! She said if my pirvate diploma wasnt accepted, i can still get da job with da pay $1400 at least coz i have more than 3 GCE O levels. Duh... Also, she heard of another job >> Customer Service n da pay is $2000. She wans me to apply.
When i told her i dun wish to apply, she went enraged man! She said, "I cant believe u so choosy abt jobs." How i wish to tell her tat I AM NOT FUSSY OR CHOOSY ABT JOB! SO WAT IF DA JOB, DA PAY IS VERY HIGH BUT ENDED UP I DUN LIKE DA JOB?! If u wanna apply for a job, den salary is da last few things you shld care abt.
Maybe also coincidently tat it was a Thursday! I have nite class every Thursday so my mum checked da letter box n da letter frm NIE/MOE is in there. I have said it n gonna say it again, my mum will tear out da envelope n read da contents of da letter coz da envelope says, PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL and she thot i had applied for any government job w/o her knwledge so she wanna kaypoh read. When she read tat it was actually a teacher training course, all those things happen! ARGH!
Y!!! I HAVE THIS KIND OF FAMILY?! FIRST, WHEN I APPLIED FOR CURTIN UNIVERSITY OF TECHNOLOGY for my Bachelor of Comerce in Information Technology, den I changed course no longer want computing coz i have enuff of programming so i changed it to business course. I have to go there for 2.5 yrs for my degree. YES! There in Perth, Australia. Coz they only allowed distant learning for Information Technology degree n not other degree! IF i dun change course, i dun have to go there, for my I.T degree juz study here but since i wanna change course, I have to go there.. to PERTH, AUSTRALIA. I dun mind... But wat happen? I wasnt allowed! They said i am a girl. Too dangerous lah blah blah.. Sharon Ismail went to pursue her studies in England a few years ago, Haney Hadad studied in Australia a few years ago! Oh and Farah aka Falalala is now in Melbourne, studying at RMIT University. How come their parents allow them? How come their parents can think positively n not mine! Dun they knw tat is an advantage to study overseas? We can b independent! We r all alone in pple's country so we have to b independent! Definitely we can find friends frm Asia or better still frm SG and we wont b lonely!
Becoz of tat, I have to change university which doesnt require me to go there for exams or studies n tats tis university which i am their distant learning graduate now: University of Wales, United Kingdom. I cant get to any other Australian degree coz all offer distant learning to Computing degree n not Business degree n i have enuff of programming. I have read da overview of degree subjects.. So many programming words i found in there!
Sigh.. I had always want to have an Australian degree, but ended up getting UK degree instead. Still i dun mind coz it is also an overseas degree but sumhow i think Australian degree is better n well recognized than any other overseas degrees! :(
I will continue to apply at NIE via online after my graduation, Sept 2007. Hopefully or mayb they had forgotten abt it n changed their mind n if they didnt, I dun care! I am determine!
