Thursday, June 30, 2005
I knw HOW I AM GOING 2PLAN FOR MY FUTURE and tat is to have a degree qualification. Hey, only degree NOT Masters! or PHD - "Permanent Head Damage" (",) so y she worry? I have make a promise 2myself (my family didnt knw). So once i made tat promise, i do not wanna break it. Wat happened? Same usual thing. Grandmother problem. She is old so she just dun understand youngsters life esp EDUCATIONAL life - how impt is 2have a GD Education.
Wanna knw wat promise I made 2myself? I shall share if wif u here.. Nadiah's cousin. Err..ok let me say it dis way: Nadiah is my close cousin coz our mums r sisters. So, my aunt called my grandma tat time 2tell her tat Nadiah's cousin on her father side is alrdy a teacher earning a splendid sum of $3750 (i think) w/o CPF contribution. So u knw it, my grandma nagged n blaming me for not wanting 2b a teacher. She said I'm so stupid O levels also cannot get 2b a teacher! HELLO! Nadiah's cousin b a teacher aft her university studies NOT O levels! Btw, u think is easy 2b a teacher?
If u've read THE NEW PAPER on 21 March 2005(i think) abt Siti Suhana Saat (tats her name, i think) u'll knw y.. So was I scared? Scared? Scared of wat? ...... scared tat i cant make da cut of being a teacher n had 2pay da bond? NO.
Being a teacher has been my AMBITION SINCE THE DAY I ENTERED SCH LIFE. There are lots of things to consider when someone had chosen to be a teacher. Teaching is not just a job we can take lightly. Teaching is something that requires your ultimate heart & dedication. Teaching is etc etc etc....
I haf alrdy experience teaching life after my O levels. While waiting for my O level results, all my frends went 2work in retail, office or simply sit at hm n 'rot' but i worked in a kindergarten. Some of them were shocked as da requirements 2b a kindergarten teacher is 2haf 5 GCE O Level passes including English n I havent even got my O Levels results.
I knw. But I was lucky. The kindergarten ACCEPT N LEVEL results. Tat was y I got da job. But 8 months later - Dec26 2000 to Aug 31 2001 - TEACHERS DAY - I quit coz of personal (family) commitment... I earned $750 every month after deduction - brought hm $500plus. Since den, I vowed not 2stop teaching. I will continue.
Since I cant get into a computer course in any polytechnics so..
I SIGNED UP FOR A DIPLOMA IN EARLY CHILDHOOD EDUCATION in Ngee Ann Poly. Still it wasnt easy 2get coz Ngee Ann Poly wans 2enrol only 150 or 200 and my! There were 333 students (5 guys - huh? A guy for a kindergarten teacher?) signing up.
I haf 2undergo a test n interview. During da interview, i didnt make da cut. Coz, after 3weeks aft da interview, I received a letter frm da poly stating tat i didnt get da course. Was i disappointed? Of coz I do but I WILL NEVA GIVE UP! I AM DETERMINE!
Hence, I am doing voluntarism in tutoring service in 2004 at WEST COAST STUDENT SERVICE CENTRE (WESSC) Thanks 2my younger siblings. They r members in tat service centre tats how they knw da centre needs a tutor. Although tis is voluntary service, i still get paid - allowance pay by per hour.
Now I think I haf some experience in teaching (but i dun think is enuff). For 8 months, I handle a class of 4 to 6 years old - still rem how stress i was esp wif da 4 year-olds - nursery - cry n cry. I didnt cry when i was in my kindergarten. I can laugh n smile during my kindergarten days n disturb those cry babies - sHame sHame... Those were da days..
Anyway, remember THE NEW PAPER on March 21 or was it March 20? Abt a lady who failed her Diploma frm NIE in teaching. Failing is equivalent to breaking da bond n as a result, she has 2pay $76,600 (i think tats da amt). So does tis scares me? Like i've said.. NO becoz..
'Belum cuba belum tau.'
Aku belum graduate frm my Bachelor degree. Selepas aku graduate, aku akan apply ke NIE. Dulu aku pernah apply but aku diberitahu: Private diploma not accepted. Mereka hanya boleh menerima A level, Polytechnic Diploma (any course) or Degree (any field - local or overseas). So, akan ku tunggu masanya. NOW U KNW Y I REALLY WANNA PURSUE MY BACHELOR DEGREE? NOT BECOZ I WAN PPLE 2 LOOK HIGH UPON ME BUT BECOZ OF AN AMBITION. I WILL NOT GIVE UP. I will give up after my applying to NIE with my Bachelors of Science (Hons) in Business Admin (Marketing) from University of Wales, UK is unsuccessful.
If successful...AKAN KUBUKTIKAN KEPADA SESIAPA YG PERNAH MENGATAKAN: MARIA, KAU NAK JADI TEACHER? JGN MIMPI! KAU KATA IMPIAN KAU SEMASA KAU KECIL? ITU KAN BABY TOK. Babies dun mean wat they say. (I can still rem tis stupid shit back in sec sch! Those idiotic ex-classmate n schmates of mine.. only shit come out frm their mouth! JGN TERPERANJAT KALAU IN THE FUTURE AKU MENJADI GURU ANAKMU!)
I WILL ONE DAY MAKE THEM REALISE TAT A 'SELENGER' PERSON LIKE ME CAN HELP TO NURTURE DA MINDS OF DA YOUNG! So, watever difficulties...i am facing now, I will juz IGNORE n endure it while I can coz tis is my promise for myself. Ssssh...dun tell my parents.. *winkz*
