Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Continuation frm May 16. (part 2)
On May 16.. I wrote tat he melamar me ryt? I mentioned he wrote me poems.. Well.. He also send me an email. Da subject heading: Mariaku Sayang - NAK MUNTAH AKU DIBUATNYA.
So here is da email - I copied everything.. Sorry i didnt post da mushy poems he wrote for me coz i throw it away. But for tis email, Anura send it 2me again. Here goes: He wrote in Malay any kind decent plz help me translate.
From: Muhd. Daniel Zahid Nick <dracula1887@yahoo.com.sg>
To: amyria_s@hotmail.com
Subject: Maria Ku Sayang.
Sent: Monday, July 19, 2004 8:47 AM
As'salammualaikum Wr.Wb.
Maria sayang,
Daniel tak harapkan Maria beri keputusan sekarang. Daniel nak Maria berfikir dan memberi jawapan yang mengembirakan bukan yang menghampakan. Biarlah menunggu itu sesuatu yang menyeksakan tapi membuahkan hasil yang memuaskan.
Daniel nak Maria tahu ...... Yang kini hanya Maria yang Daniel inginkan. Daniel rasa Daniel dah mula merindui Maria. Tak tahulah semua nya jadi serba salah lantaran ingatan ini hanya untuk mu jua.
Namun, itu bukannya satu paksaan. Daniel hanya meluahkan parasaan ini untuk memuaskan hati Daniel. Agar tidak meresahkan perasaan ini, yang sering kali mengganggu fikaran Daniel. Lantas Daniel cuba memberanikan diri menyuarakan hasrat yang terpendam untuk pengetahuan Maria.
Akhir kata, satu pesanaan untuk Maria. Memang cinta itu indah di permulaan, pahit di waktu perpisahan. Janganlah di sia - siakan orang yang di sayang/peluang yang ada. Mungkin iya akan hilang dari pandangan.
Hargai apa yang Kita miliki dan terimalah buruk baik, sebelum ia pergi meninggal Kita.
I just want to say, Whatever You do, Pleaseee remember this......" Some one is thinking of You. I'm happy when You're around..... And I miss You sooo much when you're gone..... Take care Dear ..
Lots Love
Daniel.
So how? U also wanna puke ryt reading tis letter. Desperate ryt tis guy! So continued frm May 16's. Da question: Did i accept? Wats my ans?
NO! of coz la! I dun entertain psycho desperate guys like him! Juz look at how he phrase all his sweet talks in tat email. He thinks I will really believe tat he truly loves me... BOLEH JLN LA!
So how do I tell him? Well.. I wanted 2tel him via MSN on 19 July itself at nite - later when we MSN but by reading tat email which i received in da aftnoon... my last straw! I'm gonna write n let my feelings out in my blog.
Tats when Anura read it n wasnt happy. She told me tat SEMUA VOLUNTEER WESSC baca wat i'd written. So wat if all of them read. But Anura said 2me tat.. dun say until like tat.. tat's y i deleted it. BUT NOW... READ MY DISCLAIMER: DUN ASK ME 2DELETE COZ IT TOOK MY PRECIOUS TIME 2BLOG ABT IT! I dun think Anura will wan me 2delete it coz she knws i can b a great writer n 'producer' for tis Sensasi story! LoL. Lets continue..
So in my blogspot, I voiced out y was it fated tat i met a desperate guy like him. (Becoz i wrote desperate, Anura wasnt happy. At tat time too, some of da volunteers: Maria perasan lah.. dia tak tau ke lelaki tu nak main2 je dgn dia. Bukan betul suka kat dia) I voiced out tat i do not wanna marry anybody till i get wat i want - degree.
I knw i was narrow minded at tat time. He only melamar utk menjadi kekasih dan kalau ada jodoh.. dia sanggup ambil ku jadi isterinya - BOLEH JLN! LELAKI TAK ADA PELAJARAN DAN PEKERJAAN.. not my type! K, as i was saying, i was narrow-minded. I misunderstood him. I thot when he melamar me was wanting me 2b his wife. Coz he mentioned 2me: pasangan hidup. Alah my malay kan not tat gd. Mana aku faham wat he meant by pasangan hidup. I thot isteri. Now i knw pasangan hidup can mean steady gf.
2my surprise Daniel knws my blog n he had read it too! Ouch! I think it pains him. It hurts him! So, Daniel shld knw da ans 2his lamaran ryt? Yeah! But he too didnt like da way i phrase it in my blog. He chatted wif me in MSN. He said.. u can juz tel me...y publish tat 2get sympathy frm others. Huh? Do i blog watever events happening daily 2get sympathy?! NO! Is for pple 2knw abt my daily life!
So when he said tat i shldnt have publish it. I told him tat no names were mentioned. I didnt write his name. He said tat juz becoz of tat i cant juz anyhow write abt him. "Just look at wat u'd written. Desperate?" he asked. I 'apologized'. Kalau dia tak desperate abih apa? Crap!
For abt a two weeks, he didnt call me on da phone we only chat on MSN but i really didnt entertain him much. I had tis regret in me for writing abt him in such manner n he had a dissapointment tat he wans 2 main-mainkan perempuan tapi perempuan tu yg lari dulu. Huh! Pandai kan! Y i said tat. Well, if IM STUPID 2accept his lamaran..I WLD B HURT ONCE AGAIN. I HAVE ENUFF OF BEING HURT! DAH DUA LELAKI MEMPERMAINKAN PERASAAN AKU. AKU TAK NAK ORG YG KETIGA. SEBELUM HADIRNYA ORG YG KE3 YG MAU MEMPERMAINKAN AKU, LEBIH BAIK AKU UNDUR DIRI DULU.
Anura pernah mengatakan padaku yg Daniel pernah berkata padanya yg DIA SANGGUP MENIPU UTK MENDAPATKAN PERHATIAN PEREMPUAN.
Translate: Anura told me b4 tat Daniel did tell her tat he will scheme his way to attract woman. So, if da woman is stupid enuff..she will fall into his trap! Not ME
So for this 2 weeks, he contacted Anura. Anura was a bit unhappy. Den she told me abt da crazy promise she made 2 Daniel. She told me: "Selama ini, aku tak contact dia. Tapi dia masih nak contact aku. Dah mengenali kau, dia masih nak contact aku. Dia ceritakan aku apa yg dia berbualkan dgn kau. Aku dah ckp jgn call aku tapi dia yg mungkir janji. Bukan aku."
Now i understand y she intro me 2him n told me not 2tel her watever i chat wif him 2her. But Daniel broke his promise.
Wanna knw more? HOW DARE HE! When toking 2me, he let out all those "sweet talks" and "empty promises" so tat i will get tricked by him! He didnt like me. He juz wanna play around c wats my reaction. If i stupid n accept him as a bf, he won! BUT NO! I OUTWITTED HIM! wanna knw wat he said abt me behind my back?
Well, like i'd said, he broke his promise..he still contact Anura. They tok on da phone as per normal. When Anura asked how was his new friendship wif me... he told her.. "Ala dia selenger la!" WAT THE FUCK?! HOW DARE HE SAID TAT! HELLO! EVEN IF IM SELENGER, I AM EDUCATED UNDERGRAD!! COMPARED 2HIM WHO HAS NO PELAJARAN DAN MALAS BEKERJA!
Pple...juz think..if he seriously like me, he wont call me "Selenger" and for ur info da nick "selenger" was only used ON ME DURING SEC SCH! I am NO LONGER IN SEC SCH so plz DONT CALL ME tat! Pple grow up, mature n educated already how dare he call Selenger.
Den abt a month later, I was at WESSC's computer room. I went to log in 2 one of da computers for MSN chat. He was there. We chatted as usual. He asked me again 2confirm whether i am sticking 2my decision not 2accept him. I typed "YES". I think, if i can rem he typed in a sad face icon or he said something.. not sure.. cant rem lah.
Later, he told me he juz sent me an email wanting me 2check it. Ok, I opened up my email n tat attachment titled "letter". KURANG AJAR KAN! Tat letter, he meant it as a sarcasm!!! And excuse me?? WHO IS BEING MATERIALISTIC N GILA HARTA OVER HERE!? Definitely not me.
Wanna knw wat was da letter all abt? Y was da sudden question in bold? All this n more in da next episode of CINTA SENSASI dan HAPPENING - REAL LIFE STORY *winkz*
