Which is better? You having siblings or none?

I do have siblings. I still feeling lonely even if i have friends. Frankly, I don't have much friends around. Sometimes i really wonder, whether i'm not doing my job as a friend well or is it becoz they dislike my character? I had tried many ways to earn some friends. I behave well in front of them, trying to be quiet but they juz don't bother abt me. I tried being the joker of the group, but behind every laughters is all my tears rolling down my cheeks. I tried to act foolish and blur, I bear with all the laughters, criticism.. but inside me, i was weeping away when they dun notice it. I tried very hard but still i don't know wat goes wrong. I juz wanna be me....but somehow i had lost myself,my own character, my smile so long ago that i cant find it back.

Amyria pours her heart out @ 3:14 pm   |