Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Till now, I havent had a job! And my grandma points the blame to me. She said, I want to study and study but cant get a job. She told me tat I'm Malay, very difficult. She said, Im stubborn. Wanna study, study without thinking the circumstances such as have enuff to pay for the course fees or not.
My class is in the night. I can register for full time class(in the day) if I am not working or no job BUT the thing is, I do n ot know when will the payment starts. I was told tat I will be informed by letter. Today is 24 November, no letters yet.
If by 30 November, the letter hasnt been sent out to me, tat means my payment will start on January. The other day, I mentioned the payment is $800 without GST. I do not want to worry my mum n grandma so I told them $700. To think it is still so much for them. They asked me to bargain 2get $500 if cant, they wan me to QUIT! Huh?! Quit while im in the middle of the course? NO WAY!
I did negotiate with the sch of I can pay $500 per month. They told me I will be informed through letter. This is wat worries me. If i cant get $500 n have 2 pay $700 or $800, I will have to quit!! NO WAY!
Since young, I have told myself this: I want to study till degree. And I MEAN it!! NO ONE AND NOTHING CAN EVER gonna STOP me!
I do not allow/want my family members 2ever try stopping me from studying. So the same goes to other pple who are not my family.
Well, I was asked a question not by 1 person but by a lot of ppl. The question: "Y do u quit your previous job? Your salary of $700 per month without CPF deduction is enuff to pay for your degree fees. "
My answer to you(shld u b reading this): YES, I know. My previous' job's salary of $700 per month is ENUFF to pay 4my fees. BUT u didnt know wat I have promised my mum.
I told her, "Once I have started working, I will give you money, even if u r still working." So for 4 months, my $700 salary, I gave $100 each to my mum and Khalid and Atikah's dad, $50 each to my grandma n granddad. Left $400 for me.
Next, some of u will be asking: "Why do u have to give ur granddad money? Your granddad has 58K in his bank account(last time was 60K..now left with 58K). He has given you 12.5K for ur studies but not enuff, instead of u giving him money..he shld be the one giving u the remaining 11.8K n u dun have to think so much abt job!"
My answer: I felt guilty using my granddad's money. Lagipun dia perlukan duit untuk hari tuanya. So I gave him $50 ofr 4 months 2repay him back. I know its not much but its the thoughts that counts.
Some of my friends did ask me: "The payment for ur degree will be confirmed 2u by letter. U can work in ur previous place until December or January 2005."
My answer: The company I was working for is a private company. I was the only clerk. Actually, the manager does not want a clerk; he can do the paper work himself but becoz he and my mum's A.I.A Insurance agent's are golf partners, the manager accepted me. When he accepted me, he did tell me tat he will take me as temporary- 4 months at least n it us up to him if he wans to extend me.
I know I shld have told u this when some of u came asking me straight to the face but I do not want to tell u everything from A to Z. Its easier to write and explain than 2 say and explain.
So on 15 October was my last day. The manager does not wish to extend me further. I'm OK with tat. My mum also O.k with tat.
Now, its over a month and I have not get a job. They got worried coz I cant pay my fees. My grandma said the easiet sentence but hurtful (She kept on repeating it, cant she stop?)
I did told her the letter is still not sent to me on when to start payment n how much so I can stay at home first. But, my grandma..she just dun understand la...
