Friday, October 08, 2004
Some Pple just dun know MY Life! They only know me in a short time so tats y they DUN Know.. I am 20 coming to 21, of course I SHLD know how my life is. Those who know me longer WILL know! So wats up with tat person?!
Well, wat was this abt? Well, I received a tag msg: "Y dun u say tat all lyrics are abt u!" Tat person thinks I am "perasan"? Ya lah..coz i said Britney's lyrics are abt me.. Hey, i did write COINCIDES rite? Tat person blind or wat?
Anyway, I wld like to share with u my past 20plus years of my life.. And if u do really listen carefully to the lyrics, hey, it does describes me and I use the word "describe" NOT "suits". Describe n suits are two different words with different meanings..
My Life:
I am OVERPROTECTED
Read the lyrics of Britney Spears' Overprotected..and u will understand tat my life is as coincidence as the lyrics..
* I am getting sick n tired of my life been overly protected!! Argh!! I cant do this n tat.. I have to follow this n tat!! Sometimes, I envy my friends... when they reached 18, they went clubbing and discos for the first n last time to have the experience.. BUT ME? I cant... Hmm...i wonder how was it like to be at clubs and discos? Also, I cant be late by a few minutes.. if they told me to reach home at a certain time and i was late by slightly few minutes.. I'll receive a call!!!!
They want me to be like Siti Nurhaliza, the popular M'sian singer.. What? Be popular like her? Wahaha.. plz lah. others will not BE HAPPY. Why they want me to be like Siti Nurhaliza? Well, she dress sensibly(sometimes I do dress sensibly), dun like to take photos with guys if she is the only one girl. She dun care wat others say abt her,how she dressed, she just ignored them.
Hmm, I am doing wat Siti is doing(dun care wat other says abt how I dressed and wat pple say abt me) but abt other things, cant my family just let me be ME? Its my wish rite whether or not to take photos with guys when I am the only girl.. Is it a crime? Well, I can understand coz I am a Muslim.. As a Muslim girl, it is not nice if only one girl posing with a whole bunch of guys for a photo.. Look, there were other girls but they were just camera shy! But my Grandma still say, not good.. she said, "Mcm perempuan tak de maruah.Kalau perempuan tak nak gambar, kau jgn lah bergambar! Nanti kalau org yg kenal nampak kau, apa nanti dia akan kata? Mcm2 dia bleh kata: perempuan murahan lah, tak tau jaga diri, gatal lah.."(*Hmm..how to translate this to English?*)
I know they care abt me.. But they shld know tat I am already a grown up, I can take care of myself.. In fact, I assure them tat I will be fine.. However, they still think tat I am still Young n need more guided protection!! Sigh..
Well, I have neva had freedom anyway.. Neva allowed to go out with friends coz my Grandma DO NOT TRUST them. She said: "Who knows, they may stab u from the back?" Whenever, my friend called me thru my house number but I wasnt in, and they called my hp number. They called just to chit-chat.. When I got back home, I was bombarded with questions! My Grandma said there was a gal/boy called for u on the phone, and she asked who is she/he? When I just answered "friend", she wasnt happy.. She wants a specific answer!
So, I had to say the names of whoever called me and again, she will ask which friend?(Secondary, Informatics or others) and wateva is the reason they called me?! I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!*
* I may look cheerful...lively..friendly.... But u will neva knw wat is missing in my life.. Sometimes i cry n when I think of it... alone at nite in my room.. Although I shared a room with my grandma, she didnt knw I cried coz I cried silently in my heart.... But only my close friends will knw..why i always cry.. *
The lyrics in bold coincides with my life.
Anyway, to those pple Out there!(yg tak senang dgn cara aku) This is how I WANNA LIVE MY LIFE.. WHETHER OR NOT U ARE HAPPY OR UNCOMFORTABLE WITH IT, plz dun poke ur noses to my affairs..ok?! I dun care U wanna say abt me. Only my family can have a say coz THEY ARE MY FAMILY AND NOT OUTSIDERS! I lead my OWN LIFE! So just bug off! If u all still think I am "perasan" tat Britney's lyrics is abt me, GASAKLAH. CANT BE BOTHER anymore! I have Betta things to do!*
Lastly, I know who is the person who tag me saying: "Oh plz..kau tu mmg selenger.. lembab... apa2 lagu pun suits kau!" (Oh plz..u r a blur n slow,watever songs also suits u!). I shall not mention the name here.. How do I know? Well, the way the person wrote 'that' in short form is 'tt',and i had received a bombard smses from that person b4 and the person did mention tat I am (slow)... So, the person must be sumone I know..
Anyway, Tat person OUGHT TO BE ASHAMED by saying I am blur n slow.. HELLO.. IF I AM BLUR N SLOW, I WLD'NT HAVE TAKEN DEGREE.. STUDY UNTIL ADVANCED DIPLOMA, I STOPPED KNOWING TAT I AM SLOW AND CANT CATCH UP! Y DO I CONTINUE? COZ.. WHEN I SAY I WANNA HAVE A UNIVERSITY DEGREE, I WILL MAKE SURE I GO FOR IT AND ALSO, I DUN THINK I AM SLOW LIKE WAT TAT PERSON HAD SAID..
And didnt the person know tat it might be insulting to others who viewed my blog? Who knows, those who viewed my blog are university degree students as well? They will have the thinking tat person has the perception tat those who are pursuing degree are al blur and slow. Plz lah, if u wanna insult or criticize me, can u think abt other pple? They may get insulted as well ok?!
Andy Joshua Lim, Shirin Hushairi are taking degree thru distant-learning.. If tat person had tat perception I'd just mentioned, its like tat person has no respect for the idols semi-finalist who are pursuing for a higher education..
PLZ..HAVE U HAD ENUFF? First I remember there was a tag saying: "Maria, nak join singapore idol..confirm hujan lebatnya! Oh plz jgn nak berangan..suara mcm katak!" I know it MUST BE the SAME person.. Whether or not, I wanna join singapore idol or any singing competition, is my wish rite? And since young, I Love singing.. So Y cant I sing?! In fact, my whole family LOVES to sing! My mum, me, my younger brother and my younger sister Loves singing.. So wats up with tat?
Tat person said to stop my imagination? Wat imagination? Everybody can and knows how to sing, it just a matter of voice nice or sucks.. I dun know whether my voice is nice or sucks.. let the EXPERTS COMMENT..NOT TAT PERSON..TAT PERSON IS NOT AN EXPERT..IF TAT PERSON IS AN EXPERT..TAT PERSON CAN BE THE FIFTH JUDGE FOR SINGAPORE IDOL!
