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AMYRIA

my story. my words. my life. my prerogative


Sunday, October 03, 2004

Missed My Blog

I missed my blog! It has been only a few days since I last posted an entry in my blog. But as they say: "Absence makes the heart grow fonder". This is still my blog, a place where I can be myself and so what if others don't like what they see. This is my own...this is where I can talk about myself more.

I feel, i am very distanced from some people.. its as though.. We are in different worlds,we are interested in different things, and as much as i wan to close up the differences, i juz cant do it, because we juz simply have different thinking.

When some sad thing tat I am experiencing,I tend to do silly things to cheer me up,WITHOUT knowing the consequences..

I used to have many frens.. or rather HAD many frens, who were like very close to me for a period of time.. and afterwhich, we juz drifted apart, for no apparent or obvious reason. Probably the other person's bored with me, or i was unconciously bored the other person.

Our conversations juz became less often, and finally.. we do not tok to each other at all.. and we ended up pretending tat we dunno each other even though we bump into each other in school or outside. Wad was with me at tat time? Was it my own emotional barrier which i cannot overcome..?

I think I had realised tat too..I realised that the more a person means to you, the more you would feel awkward and shy.. I realised this long ago thanks to my non-existent guts... and that sucks big time.

I was like dying to tok and be frenly with someone, someone I know since sec sch but because he means quite alot to me at tat time, i ended up stumbling over my words and not being able to even looked up. I juz simply care too much....

I dun seem that kind of shy girl..but well.. I am. I can tok, luff with my buddies
(who neva finds me boring) but i cant tok coherently in front of a guy I have a crush on.. (unless is like.. a classmate or buddy like fadhil, Suresh,Nazrul, Firdaus)

This is especially when tat guy is charming.. haha.. its as though I am trying hard to not fall for his charm whatsoever. I am always trying to be careful all the time.. even when guys like me, i am super cautious.. (thus not having any relationships) this is becuz i dun wan a scenario where after i like this guy, and he knows it, and rejects me terribly, OR, whereafter i agreed to start a relationship, he says something like, "huh?! u really think i wan you ah? HAHAHA!! pls la.. go look at urself..blah blah" ok tats exaggerated.. but there ARE such guys, and i know of some.

Probably all stems down to myself confidence and shyness...anyone selling their guts? I need some good strong ones.. =( Err..probably juz some advice will do..

Anyway, an update abt Singapore Idol.. WAT THE . . . .? Jerry is IN again?! He knocked out Jessea?! I mean, it wasnt his fault.. I know. Its those Singaporeans who voted for him! HELLO?! WATS WRONG WITH U PPLE? JUST BECAUSE JESSEA ISNT A SINGAPOREAN, SHE WAS BORN IN CANADA, so she SHLD BE OUT?! So wat, if she isnt Singaporean? Jasmine Trivias, American Idol 3 Finalist, she isnt an American, she was born in Philippines BUT the Americans ARE BEING FAIR not to vote her OUT of the FIRST round of the finals.. Singaporeans.. plz BE FAIR..

Amyria pours her heart out @ 9:44 pm   |


The Lady

Amy Maria, 27 year old femme, who loves singing as her passion. Relatively a quiet person, especially towards people she doesn't know very well. However, people who she call her friends, know her as a very cheerful, friendly and a little talkative kinda person. Basically, she thinks everybody can reach nearly every goal, just need a great portion of staying power, motivation, and enthusiasm. She also believes that she's patient and relatively calm - in the past, even so, sometimes she still can be very quick-tempered. On the contrary, most of the time she loves to accept challenges. She has purity and sweetness of a girl. And no matter how old she get, she can stay youthful. She also possesses a motherly character. She is kind and can show consideration to others. Once she starts on something, she will not give up half way, or show weakness. She knows how to get on in life. She is rather suspicious type of person. She doesn't tend to take every word of other person straightly.

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Her Reflections

Parti Sutra , Hasniza's Wedding, Asian Idol Celebration, 30 Dec 2007 At Jurong Point, Aliff Aziz at Bukit Panjang Plaza, LIVE THE DREAM Jurong Point Roadshow, Thank You Roadshow, Anugerah 2007 FINALISTS Roadshow, Splash of Colours Family Day, Me and Dira @ Vivo City, Keep The Heritage Alive, 25 Feb 2007, Hady's 2007 Birthday Bash, Hady @ VivoCity, HapyHadys Gathering, Roadshow @ Jurong Pt , Selamat Pengantin Baru, Po Yee's Birthday, BSB Concert, SCDF Heritage Gallery, WESSC Camp 2005, Anugerah 2005 VCD Launch, Lime Sonic Bang, Konsert Hanyut, Bazar Raya Utara, Rosliah's Wedding, Mike's Farewell,

Her History

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Her Cliques

.Aini
Aiser. Alice. Aphrodite . Ayu. Az Revalina. Baby Seniorita. Elia's old Blog. Elia's new Blog. Fairuz . Farah. Fat Cat. Fikq HapyHady. Ijah. Kak Juliza. Maria Shazwani. Melissa. Melia HapyHady. Mulyadi. Nulyz. Ria HapyHady. Rizar. Sabrina . Salmah. Shidah. Shirin Hushairi. SV HapyHady . Syafiqah HapyHady . Syaliza. Syasya . Syidah's OLD blog. Syidah's NEW blog. Tia. Wawan. Zohra HapyHady.

Her Singerz

BRITNEY SPEARS/ TAUFIK BATISAH/ FAUZIE LAILY/ ALIFF AZIZ!/ AMY MASTURA/ HADY MIRZA/ HYRUL ANUAR/ JAY CHOU/

Her Favourites

CAT WELFARE| SOS ANIMALS| ANIMAL RESCUE| ANIMALS LOVERS| SPCA| HAPPY CATZ| Friendster| WWE| 98.7FM| Power98FM| Song Lyrics|KCAP| Donburk| MINICLIP GAMES | MTV ASIA| YOU TUBE Videos|

Her Music