Friday, September 03, 2004
How time flies. Today is already the 3rd day of September.. And the beginning of a new sch term,which had already started. I just got back... My class was from 7pm to 10pm...
Reading the comments for my daily entry dated Sept 1.. by 2 anonymous jokers and my best friend... The first two comments, one of the stupid advice is: Get a life, grown up.. Hey, I am a grown up.. BUT the way i'm thinking is NOT.. so the advice shld be: THINK N BEHAVE LIKE A GROWN UP instead of get a life and grown up.. *wanna give comments also dun know how to give properly*
Actually my best friend wanted to comment about wat i wrote for Sept 1 yesterday but she forgot coz she's too bz.. Only today at 4pm, she realized she hadnt done so.. Well, she gives memorable comments n not vaqueless comments like wat a joker did.. When she view my bloggie... she was shocked to see 2 childish comments being posted! Damn! She was 3 hours late! And those 2 stupid comments waste her time coz apart from commenting mine, she had to comment those two comments too...
She didnt wanna alert me abt those two comments... she alerted me after she wrote the comments and me too was shocked to read it.. BUT in my mind, I AM HAPPY why? Well at least there are some other pple who stil behave like a kid! The way the comments were being posted/written is like a child's thinking.. But tat again, this leads to STRESS! Yah.. stress! MEREKA TAK KESIAN KE? Opps, i forgot.. how to KESIAN if they have childish thoughts.. They wont EVEN CARE WAT KIND OF STRESS GROWN UPS HAVING.. TATS Y THEY WROTE SUCH THINGS....
But I still lay out my thoughts abt the kind of stress I had here anyway. I shld have post this on Saturday, 28 August... coz this happened on tat day BUT too bz crying.. yAh, I cried.. wat happened?
I juz got back form school coz the sch wished to inform me how much I have to pay monthly for my degree. I was told $800 without GST. When I went back home, I told my mum n grandma coz they asked me the moment i stepped in the house! *Couldnt they let me rest?* So, after I told them, they made so much noise..
Both of them said to me to negotiate the payment; make it lesser. I told them tat the sch has already made the payment less for me. My mum n grandma still werent happy. They made noise until I BINGIT!!
Then my mum got fed up and asked me to call the sch to say tat I wanna quit..(she wants me to quit NOT me...I'll neva quit till i get wat i want). I did not oblige. I sat down staring at my laptop waiting for any friends online. My mum asked me to do it quick. I shocked my head & then tears flowing down my cheeks. I said to her: "I want to study"
And my mum called for my grandma saying tat I was crying. My grandma also fed up. She said,"If she cries, wat can we do? Since she insisted to study, let her be lah, let her pay. She herself shld know tat she's working as a temporary part time clerk n per month, she brought home her salary of $700plus to $800..if she used tat to pay for her degree course, then wat she want to eat? Where 2get more money to pay for her hp bills, internet bills, other expenses?"
When I heard tat nagging from my grandma, I told her tat I will find a full time permanent job which earns more than $1k to support my studies. *But I know its not possible coz nowadays very hard to look/find jobs*
So tats y I'm now STRESS!! And those pple..can add more stress to me!! In fact, (sorry for being harsh) they ought to be ashamed of themselves for saying those things to me(those who understand malay..wil knw coz the comments are in malay with a mixture of english) Why did I say tat? No matter how "SELENGER" I am or how bad/good I sang, I am a degree student... in fact majority of the Selengers and Kentals pple are degree students... *Dun judge a person by the looks, the way they dressed watsoever coz u will neva know tat person holds a betta qualification than u*
