Sunday, August 01, 2004
I am the eldest of 3 siblings. Sometimes I hate 2b the eldest. Sometimes I like being the eldest. I'l tell u why in time to come,
Although tat I am gonna be 21 this December, I dun think I can have FREEDOM!! I am still been treated like a kid!! I WANNA GROW UP!!
My grandma especially. She ah.. everything this cannot tat cannot. Sometimes I envy my friends; they can go out N have fun but I cant! She wants me to "rot" at home! She also said I shld trust my friends tat much..
Whenever I am trying to make my own decision; to be independent..she found out N she scolded me! She said I shldn't behave tat way! WAT?!
*Then how am I gonna be mature like tat? A lot pf pple had comment tat I am still immature! How to if my own family wont let me?*
She dun even trust my friends!! She told me not to trust outsiders so much!!! WAT? Duh...
I cant tel my mum to tok some sense 2 my grandma. Since young, my grandma was the one who took care of me > my mum had to work; till now, she is still working. So everything I'll do, I have to "discuss" with my grandma!! Except for my studies.
I am a private institute student. The fees are damn expensive. My grandma scolded me for entering into this kind of sch N she even lecture her daughter(my mum) for listening 2 my nonsense!
Even clothing.. I dun like to wear sexy clothes so tats not the issue. I bought normal clothes, the ones I usally wear - long sleeves, 3/4 sleeves. If the pattern nice, she'l keep quiet. If the pattern is not nice, she'll hurl at me!! *Muz I need 2 depend on her 2 buy my own clothes?!!! Plz can sumbody tel her tat I NEED N WANT to be MATURE!! I cant let others think tat i am 21 n still hasnt mature!!*